As a full y sentient being, my journey is mine alone and for me to define and accept "Who I am." Many people in my life have tried to define me to my great resistence. I have fiercely held into to my core being, My essence since pre-birth to this day. It might appear from the groups that I have sign-up for here on tribe.com that there would indicate that I am exclusively a gay male. And, I would say yes, I am a gay male. However, it seems to fully "fit" the cultural definition of that more recent in history term, to be a gay male would mean that I am solely and exclusively attracted to men only on a physical AND an emotional basis. It is true that I am severely attracted to many types of men for their physical maleness, their male smell, their sweet guy smiles, their lovely muscles and engorged cocks. Did I say nice, hard ass? And, oh yes I am, and I enjoy most forms of male and male sexuality. But, I can say the same about women! It is different with women in that I get more emotionally connected to a woman lover than I have, so far - keeping the door open, with guys. Been married, raised wonderful young people, love my first wife more than any other creature, yet I need and want more than where our relationship can go. Wife #2 - now in the process of divorce has been on more of a spiritual realm and early on a sexual basis. But, she decided that sex was done for her and thus for me and that she could not accept me as the package with my children. So we are on a friendly separation and likely this year divorce. Such is life. We care about each other and will remain in each other's lives in some good, supportive and profound way, but not as married partners. Now, living back as a housemate with Wife # 1- we are comaptible on so many levels, but she seems to understand that my sexuality is Very fluid and we have not re-started anew romantically. For now, over 50, I am back to my explorations and self-assessment as where I was from about age 16 to 23. Feeling explosively sexual, sensual, alive, hopeful and giving.

[NOTE: I deleted all pics in protest of the Tribe's facistic censorship]
The beautiful males pictured at my profile are not me! Ok, some want to see my pic! I have told some that I will be posting one soon. I lied. I don't know when I'm going to post one if at all.

This is not a survey, but here are possible reasons for me not posting my picture: (at least one is true)

- I'm too ugly - some have suggested that without seeing me, maybe after they actually see me, they will still say - too ugly!
- I'm way too good looking. Being highly empathetic, I don't want others to feel bad for not being as handsome and cute!
- I'm too stupid to figure out my digital camera and post a picture here.
- I did take a picture and broke the camera (my dear mother, now dead - not at my hand, mother use to say that to me)
- As a shaman like-healer, I fear my spirit will be stolen if I allow a picture of me posted here or anywhere
- I googled myself and could not find my picture to copy
- I have a great picture of me that I want to post, but the time expired on the site where it resides
- I am afraid my adult child will see the picture, will freak, but actually would go "Oh, ok, figures."
- Afraid my teenager will see it and commit suicide
- My dog will see it and look at me differently thereafter!
- If I post my picture, I will be overwhelmed with offers for everything from sex, money, free food, model contracts, mariage and more sex

WILL POST FOR SEX!