Be your own light

I know i can feel something,
sometimes it rips open my chest
something i can not explain
like a longing

trough the many years i though that it most be something i should find in a lover
and abandoned all love for myself
thinking i was not good enough
or beautiful enough
or plain just not enough

is hard when one looks for love for years and years in someone else
and has no love for oneself
it can be lonely

i know realize that i been trying to water someone else garden
and forgot about my own

i recently found love again
im learning to love myself
and expect no one to be the close lover i yearned for

is still hard,
but not as hard as before
i now accept myself as my true lover

and i hope to give myself the love i never had
not even form the woman that called herself my mother
or the one that called herself my true lover

May the Most High Love be found within all

Somehow i have been receiving this same message form different people in different places. So many times i am starting to see it in my "reality" evendo i admit i have no idea where is taking me.

Is amazing how fast the reality i knew is changing, i also feel myself in some kind of synchronicity with the moon cycles in these last few months, every new and full moon seem to be stimulating changes or maybe just opening doors to who knows where.

I figured i share this with all.

I know who i will be voting for President this year, Paris Hilton.

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"Hey America, I'm Paris Hilton and I'm a celebrity too," Hilton declares breezily. "Only I'm not from the olden days and I'm not promising change like that other guy. I'm just hot!

"But then that wrinkly white-haired guy used me in his campaign ad, which I guess means I'm running for president. So thanks for the endorsement white-haired dude, and I want America to know I'm, like, totally ready to lead."

Hilton then offers an alternative US energy strategy, suggesting that she plans to combine elements from McCain and Democratic rival Barack Obama's policy platforms.

"We can do limited offshore drilling with strict environmental oversight while creating tax incentives to get Detroit making hybrid and electric cars. ... Energy crisis solved, I'll see you at the debates, bitches!"

Hilton then signs off by declaring that she is now mulling her choices for vice president. "I'm thinking Rihanna," she said, referring to the singer-songwriter.

"I'll see you at the White House," Hilton adds. "Oh, and I might paint it pink. Bye!"

The 2001 anthrax attacks remain one of the great mysteries of the post-9/11 era. After 9/11 itself, the anthrax attacks were probably the most consequential event of the Bush presidency. One could make a persuasive case that they were actually more consequential. The 9/11 attacks were obviously traumatic for the country, but in the absence of the anthrax attacks, 9/11 could easily have been perceived as a single, isolated event. It was really the anthrax letters -- with the first one sent on September 18, just one week after 9/11 -- that severely ratcheted up the fear levels and created the climate that would dominate in this country for the next several years after. It was anthrax -- sent directly into the heart of the country's elite political and media institutions, to then-Senate Majority Leader Tom Daschle (D-SD), Sen. Pat Leahy (D-Vt), NBC News anchor Tom Brokaw, and other leading media outlets -- that created the impression that social order itself was genuinely threatened by Islamic radicalism.

If the now-deceased Ivins really was the culprit behind the attacks, then that means that the anthrax came from a U.S. Government lab, sent by a top U.S. Army scientist at Ft. Detrick. Without resort to any speculation or inferences at all, it is hard to overstate the significance of that fact. From the beginning, there was a clear intent on the part of the anthrax attacker to create a link between the anthrax attacks and both Islamic radicals and the 9/11 attacks.

www.salon.com/opinion/gre...x/index.html

Last night i had a "vision", i felt that as the Western Civilization Collapses many of us are being dragged down into what its seems like a bottomless pit. Many of us have been resiting this system for decades, i have, tree long decades of resistance. I felt the tail of the Dragon grab me towards the pit of uncertain future, visions of scary times ahead .

Soon after i recalled a movie i seen a long time ago,
the Lord of Rings,
the wizard being pulled down into the pit by the Dragon's tail.

i realized, many of us are in the pit already ....

a look at the economics (trillions of dollars in the hole .... )
food and fuel prices starting to be a out of reach for many
banks going bankrupt .... unemployement , people loosing their homes,
social services almost gone and so on
friends hurting and stealing from friends
lovers cheating and hurting each others

i wish i could be more positive right now ...
is hard for me to ignore what i see

maybe there is a way to transmute fear into love
but i'm not feeling a lot of love these days
and maybe this is my problem
all efforts of mine to fix this have failed

dont know who to trust