Much fun happening now - just got back from seeing Laurie Anderson in Albuquerque - god, what an amazing artist and such an open and easy person too - I had a chance to meet her after the show at a gallery reception across the street from the small theater but I just sort of watched others meet her and thought to myself "I don't need to meet her like this" - something is changing in me - and I don't really feel any need to be famous or respected even - just happy to be. But man, see her in person if any of you reading this get a chance. She just has a way of touching the bottom of your soul and giving you the conflicting feelings of inspiration and a lingering sadness that you will never ever be able to make anything nearly as beautiful as what she has just given. So sweet.

My grandmother died recently and although this is a loss, it was sort of soothing in a way I"m not sure I can define right now. I'll need to think on that some more and then try to pen it. But partly I think it has to do with some new acceptance I've uncovered in myself about what happens in and around me and what part I can and cannot play in it all.

I'm talking a lot with my daughter who is poised on the precipice of adulthood and it makes me so happy to see how very well she's handling it - so honest, so rational, and so very willing to learn. She's taking steps herself to gather what she needs ahead of time - there's no time when she "needs" to leave and considering the financial climate, I have no issue with her sticking around a few more years, but of course, she wants to get out on her own and so we play with scenarios and work out the problems - she's fantastic. I'm humbled by her existence.

I've been doing some very bizarre (for me) things - having to do with setting up financial security - learning the fine art of really taking care of things - home, tools, garden, pool, and how to do these things with grace, being fully aware of the doing and the moment in which things get done. It's so small and so meaningful and I'm not really sure I'll ever "need" anything else, but of course, I'll do other things without needing to.

And somehow, people just keep streaming into my life - deep thinking, creative, vital people - like never before, I just keep bumping into amazing folks in this strangest of all places. I'm not really sure how to handle it all. I'm just trying to let it all flow and be right there as it's flowing past, and maybe that's why I just don't feel as much need to record it here.