I <3 fun

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Saturday Circus with the Vancouver Juggling club.
:)
Dawn

complex

Things deep inside are unraveling,
it's an ineffable experience.
I can't seem to make words linear anymore.
My diary writings are webs of thought,
any my blog gone dry.

rest assured, I'm still listening to who's left here.

healing forgotten pain

Busking is getting harder, I need to change my show. I have some serious body pains I need to look into healing & going hard core isn't helping. Shoulders, hips, knees & neck all through the back... I'm not supposed to be in this much pain as a 28 year old, i don't think? I stretch everyday...I forgot about the pain while doing other things. So begins another renewed healing path.

This was a video of the warm up & crowd building I was doing in English bay last Thursday. I need to slow down.. I can see many things I could do for improvement. Ryan and I are going to choreograph more tomorrow, but I am glad I got this to see myself, the reflection really helps my perspective.
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reason

I busked hard this week and it is fulfilling, inspiring, humbling and personally creates so much magic. Contact juggilng gives me reason to talk to so many strangers of different ilk, of all ages and class, ethnicity and origins. I get to hear so many stories of what my lucid ball brings out in them. "Is that made of electricity?" a little boy asks, a cute little girl demands more "tricksies" to which only my most difficult moves can impress the 5 year old, then business men tell me that it's pure magic when I do a palm circle.

It's exhausting, and although I do have many photos taken of me, I have none to show. I have been on the beach for the past 4 days, working as hard as I can - but I know I could push harder. I stretch before I leave, and in my breaks. I bath and stretch when I get home, but my back still feels like it wants to seize sometimes. Ryan has been giving massages ~ I am so grateful for them.

Although I am always juggling, school gets in the way most days and now this is back to training. I am out of shape in my training regimen, but it gets better with time. My body rolls feel flowy like and isolation after 5 days on the street, and I can head roll the 4' acrylic now. My shoulder is still in pain at times, even after 6 weeks break and I'll be honest when I say I am glad it's raining today. I need the day off to get my life in order, my body rested and my mind together as I prepare.

Busking is a strange and lonely job, yet it puts me into this meditative state. The world glows after a day of training my bliss, sharing it with anyone who's around to see, get paid a wage I could live off of. It becomes a state where my thoughts form in poetics, where the world feels perfect.

one ends, one begins.

I have been meaning to write
About the gratitude I have for the DIY cultures,
Tribe, Tribal Harmonix, Om,
and all they are connected with.
The gratitude I have for what they have taught me,
The ability to create beauty,
for no rhyme or reason better,
Than to create an interconnected community.
I am so grateful to be a part of this whole,
to represent these ideas,
and inspire the same in others.

I fulfilled all of my accomplishments this year. I will be attending the social work program, the juggling fest was a grand success. I believe wholy that it is the community that inspires these accomplishments in me and I feel this connection to the core. Thank you for being a part of that connection.
A special thank you to Cassandra for your words on Sunday at the festival.

AlienJon Workshops in Victoria!

www.poipixies.com/ajworkshopdetails.html

I am excited about the juggling community here in Victoria. It has been fairly solid for years, but now people are importing the amazing ones and showing the remainder of non-believers what flow is really all about.

I can't wait to become obsessive about juggling again. Busking this summer will provide me with a great amount of time to work on my stuff. Its almost getting to the next level, and if I work really fucking hard this summer, I'll surpass 3 more.
Then, I will have over the head rolls and up & down the leg rolls solidified finally.
Then, maybe, I'll be good at juggling.
:)

A little too far to the right

There's one week to go for the festival and I feel pain, so I go to the doctor. She believes that there should be assessments, rehabilitation, there there is built up scar tissue because I waited too long and of course No juggling. No juggling for my juggling festival? Man, life is hilarious. Nothing like working on a full creative project for a year and I will have to be passive and gimpy throughout the whole thing. I'm glad the world has a sense of humour about it, otherwise what would make it interesting and challenging, right?

I suppose If I brace my right arm properly I can re-balance myself by practicing everything left dominant.

Le sigh.
(and 4 days to go!)