I consider myself to be humble in reality. I don't present myself as such online always, but i get told by numerous people that I am.

So why is it that when something bad happens to me I take it as an afront to my very existence in this universe that it was me and not somebody else. Like I'm that important that the powers that be sought out to ruin my life becuase im some how more than others are. When the reality is that sometimes (but not all the time) SHIT JUST HAPPENS and it happend to happen to me. end of story or it least it should be but i make myself out to be Sisyphus eternally rolling that boulder up hill or Atlas with the weight of the world on my shoulders for enternity. I am not the star of some greek tragedy. I AM A DUDE WHO PROCRASTINATED AND GOT FIRED. I need to learn to accept things for what they are instead of looking for something thats not there.

My personal vanity disgustes me sometimes.

i kind of feel bad about posting this. but yet feel compeled to do so.

I'M SO FUCKED, but i kind of like that about myself.