So I have been going over in my head the things I have resolved to do over the years, not just for new years, but anytime... I think I have accomplished almost half of the things I have set out to do... so this year I am resolving to achieve all other resolutions and since I keep track of my resolutions in my journal this will be much easier. So here it goes;
I The Pirate King Desire Resolve to this year....

Learn to speak French.
Finish reading my Philosophy books... all of them.
Take a Ballroom Dancing class.
Take a Fastdraw / Shooting class.
Cut back on soda.
Learn to Speak Spanish.
Go Sky-diving.
Go Bungee Jumping.
Become an accomplished Base Jumper.
Learn to Spin on Turntables.
Visit South America.
Learn to Speak Russian.
Learn to Speed Read.
Discover the secret to reading other peoples thoughts...
Go on a Road Trip with no particular destination.
Pick a sword fight with a drunk foreigner.... preferably German their good for a fight. ( I might have been out of sorts when I made this one...)
Actively find someone to love.
Forget the Past.
Discover my Past Lives, and the help they may offer.
Go to a Zoo (for the first time in my life)
Become an Acrobat... (this one may be complicated.)


It's kinda odd, typing these I automatically knew where I was and what was going on in my life at the time. Good times or bad these were my aspirations. For one reason or another they were either unfinished, unstarted, or I don't think it was completed to a high enough standard.

~The Pirate King Desire

So, I might have mentioned that I'm a huge dork... if you only knew right... what I mean is yeah, sure I can't quote "star trek" (Starwars was too superior for William Shatner to matter much to me) but I'm a big dork in so many other ways... I have played and beaten every final fantasy game ever produced, two in the origenal Japanese. I have in my posession every game ever released for the super nintendo (all in ROM format), and I have played and beaten them all... except for most of the sports games... I was never that good at sports... not even games based on sports... My favorite game of all time is "Castelvania Symphony of the Night" on the Sony Playstation, I have played that game for days at a time... you don't know how pathetic that is... the game itself takes mabey 4 to 5 hours to complete... but I beat it several times with 100% completion as both the main character Alucard, and the secret characters... Richter Belmont is my hero...

Let me go a bit more indepth with this, it was the late 90's I was living with a close friend of mine who had recently become handycap, he was a Quadrapolegic, he need 24 hour live in care. basically to me this meant that he need someone to get him in and out of bed and ready for class in the morning, he also needed someone to help him urinate, and someone to write for him.
It was a sweet deal he technically only needed me about an hour and a half out of the day but it was so spread out and random that you had to be available any time. so the rest of my time I spent playing video games, chatting with some students, attending Frat Parties (I became a lifetime Honorary member of four frats, they have my picture up and everything), shooting pool, and of course imparting my knowlege of the opposite sex of to my more geekier friends... don't get me twisted I was just like them the only difference is that after years of persecution, girls strated to think I was cute... even hot.. I know right.. I guess thats why I have self esteem issuses, whenever anyone says anything about it now I assume their joking.. ya know... so I don't set myself up for a fall.. regardless, these were how I spent my days for the better part of two years. ...
Instead of going out and meeting lovely young ladies, I speant my time trying to sort out my friends and teach them not to immitate the television when it comes to talking to the opposite sex, now alot of you might not know this but dorks.. myself not excluded, learn most of what we know from the tele, we learn how to aproach girls, how to throw them the look, and we learn what to say to them... and this is all wrong... first the T.V. over exaggerates everything (from movements to conversation speed, because they are pressed for time), and second when your immitating the T.V. you tend to treat girl poorly... and thats putting it lightly. The funny part was they all met incredable girls, now granted I didn't meet anyone, but that didn't matter.. If I found someone or not, was rather irrelavent, because it is bound to happen eventually.
This post isn't about braging about "oh I know how to talk to the ladies", thats so far from true, you don't even know ... I can count the number of girls I have been with on one hand, and the reason there are so few of them, well I had fairly involved relationships with all of them.. thats alot of past...
This post is about the girl that I let go, she worked at the front dest at the dorm I was staying at, and she was always so nice to me, I remember several occasions she brought me cookies, and at about 2:00 in the morning, when I did laundry for me and my friend/client, she would see me and hang out with me in the laundry room. We would talk for hours, about anything from old movies that we vaguely remember from our childhood, towhat would happen if a T-rex was loose on Frat row... I saw her at all the parties, she even asked me to dance at a few of them ( i wasn't much of a dancer at the time.... my skills have greatly improved...), one time she made pasta for me on Valentines day and we ate it by candle light with lady and the tramp playing in the background (We were both alone on Valentines day... decided to be alone together) about a month after valentines she asked me to go out with her on a following friday (She asked me... I'm such a jackass... If I would have had two cent's rolling around in my head I would have asked her... )....
I turned her down... she wanted to do dinner at 7 and then a movie.. I turned her down. My reason for not going was that my friend/client had to be bedded before I could do anything and he usually stayed up late (this was true). Not even thinking about rescheduling, I said that I was sorry and walked away...
I WALKED AWAY...
I spent that night (the night of the potential date), playing castlevania... Symphony of the Night... a game I can no longer play...


Anyways there's another goodly portion of my sorted past..
I'm such a dork... and a total Jackass...

Average Joe

I'm a big dork... Huge, but I've made peace with that... Yes I play Dungeons and Dragons, I'm Fanatic about any game Whitewolf puts out, When I was in HighSchool I was addicted to Final Fantasy and Porn.... Not alot of girls would talk to me... from third to eigth grade I was called "Stick Stickly".. for those of you who didn't watch enough "Snick" as a kid, the phrase that came with him was "Stick Stickly... No room for a brain".. I was Really Skinny, like a rail...then I began eating alot, and my friends began refering to me as "Chubby Asian Joey"... ??? I'm not Asian... I'm Irish.....

Then one fateful day I was shoved out of the locker room in my underpants.. ladies if you were wondering, Boxer-Briefs, and I was unable to get back in... So I decided the best course of action was to make my way towards the caffeteria, it was early in the morning still.. I had PE before school, so my friend, let's call him steeve you know who you are.., steeve was deffinatly gonna be in the lunch room eating breakfast of discussing WhiteWolf Campaigns..but he never used lockers, so I could deffinatly get his gym shorts, then I would feel at least a bit less exposed... well I Followed the darkened hallways,and unpopulated areas of the morning school and safely made my way unseen to his table ..

I was on one side of a wall near the end of the wall, and on the otherside was Steeve and a familiar voice... it was ...Mary a girl I really liked.. I thought the world of her... anyways, I over heard her telling steeve how there was nothing really special about me... I was a standardized person.. who will never stick out or be anybody.. She then told him I was gonna be an "Average Joe" until I die ... incidently then they kissed but like I said I was on the other side of the wall... I couldn't see.. ..
So I walked around the wall and into the cafateria, and asked steeve if I could borrow his gym shorts.... before he could answer I grabbed mary by the hand.. and pulled her closer to me saying "lets dance", I spun her around a few times but mainly it was me dancing in the cafateria... The assistant Principal showed up as I was putting the shorts on and had apearantly heard I was half naked... and that I was dancing in the cafateria, I was screwed... This was detention ...alot of it... possibly expulsion... so I did what anyone else in my position would do, I ran... all over the cafateria, and I took the shorts off..... they were holding me back... I danced a little more on the table, then ran out the side door, the "School cops", grabbed me half way through the parking lot.... 50 days "In school suspension" or ISS if your in the know.. since then I have been Average Joe...