... Oh chocolate mocha macadamia donkey balls, why did I eat you? Part of me knew it was a bad idea. You and jet lag conspire to keep me from my dreams.





EDIT: Sorry for the overdramatization. It was late/early.



So instead I think about me and Dee, and our yin-yang disappointment-abandonment feelings (and how neither of us was truly suprised by the behavior of the other).



Of how cuddling felt good but also like a lie; a white lie like the ones we tell children to make them feel better because it is easier than the truth. But even if the truth is that there will never be a relationship between us again, that shouldn't neccecerily keep us out of each others' arms.



The truth is also that I don't feel that comfortable. The feelings are very mixed. the truth is also that i am a pretty selfish guy and protect the sanctity of my vacation as vacation and not drama and lack of sleep and presence of frustrations. Thus the nice irony that I donkey-balled my way into a little insomnia.



I do wish Dee didn't have to work. I completely did not realize she was starting on Monday. Hopefully I'll be able to treat her to dinner today. Life is complicated.

I meant to go look at ear jewelry at Wild Side, or whatever that place on Valencia @15th is.



Back to sleep.

The weekend is here, but for the life of me, I can't remember what I planned to do with it. So I read two of the Books of Magic and finished Portal and four of the advanced puzzles.



I'm sure there was something I'd wanted to do. Oh, well. The fact that it’s nasty out doesn’t help, of course…

This website is using some photos I took in Envy (in Philadelphia) years ago and have up on Flickr:



http://www.schmap.com/philadelphia/nightlife_theme/#p=37740&i=37740.jpg



Too bad they're such crappy photos.

More Halloween photos.