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Razi Manzuma

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joined on 11/29/05
last updated 02/14/08
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Windings

November Trial ‘05
Can it be done?
Will things be better?
Worse?
The same?
The answers very greatly,
From day to day.

Don’t hold your breath on any of it.

This is a molasses process,
Sticky, thick, SssLlOoWw
Truth is NOT beauty.
Instead the insane wife in the attic.

Hold me! Hold me!
No one can – my hackles
are too sharp
too long
and always ready
Some things never change
Some things always will

Nevermore is a bird,
My heart it’s prey.

Fill me, Hold me, Release me,
But please, oh, please
Know me.


February Heat ‘03
You tear me open
Every smile
Every word
Every look from
Your eyes of gold

How is it possible that
I am so exposed
So simply?

You cut filet of me
With regular
Common typical
Graceless normality

But here’s the strangeness
You are oblivious

You don’t know
How I cling to words
One, two, three
Waiting for the one
That is for me

Patience gets thin
In old age
You can see through
Her now
You see through her
Daily
But my lips, my
Unkissed lips
Are quiet

Now you dear, you love
Me most of all
And best you can.

All me. Me and my
Quiet heart.

January Fire ’03
Hope in blue and
All down facing
I have crawled far
For freedom
Have not found that
Yet

Faith in red all
Too true and limp
I have never flown
Close to that
Flame, I’d rather
Swim alone

Love in brown always
A steady warm life
I have swum long
Lonely hours here
And still have no
Reason







December New ’02
No easy sleep
No time free

Fill the file in my mind
Climb my stairs
They have
No end

Stuck poetry
On plain white
You can’t read
ME

No new
No calm

My promises = Emptiness

Come, fill me
I SCREAM
No one hears
My mouth
Is shut

Fault?
Lay it on me

Here I am
Its all me


November Movie ’02
Movement comes hard
Moment by moment
Phrase after phrase

What needs said
Gets said
What needs done
Gets done

But how do you fly
Without wings?
And how do you love
Without a heart?

NO answers
Only the Sun in the morning
The Moon in the night




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here i am

Gender
Female
Age
30
Location
about me
i am a piano preformance major, with hopes of getting a masters in musicology and going on to get a doctorate in ethno-musicology, hopefully studying in turkey. i take ATS classes with Zivah Serpentina of the Red Moon Tribe, if you're in the southwestern part of Missouri be sure to check them out! awesome tribe of women!
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Honestly


It comes hard and slow
A creeping that starts
At the base of my
Spine and moves up
Pervading my organs
And muscles eking
Out from my skin as it
Works its way up my
Torso.
Evinced in an involuntary tightening
Around my eyes
A tautness felt in my
Face as though my pores
Are pleading with me to
Relax and let it happen.
Surrender
Sunder
Fall away
Swim in the salty purity of
That ocean
Move through me
Hide in my hair
I keep all my best
Secrets there.
Sun, May 13, 2007 - 2:02 PM permalink - 0 comments
 
so tuesday my car won't start and i manage to assertain that its the starter. i call a few people, to let them know i'm stuck and end up working to talk things through more with Heidi, my boss. she says her son who i don't know well on my own, just through her, offered to replace it for me and is gonna have a friend of his give us a deal on the starter, he just can't do it till sunday. rent was due that day too, so i was borke. she offered to loan me the money. i had to think about it. i know... read more
Thu, May 3, 2007 - 9:42 AM permalink - 0 comments
 
this was inspired by a writing exersize......and listing to an interview with the guys that made "Bagdad ER"

Is there a yarn so fine, so pure in its fibers, so bright in hue that by tying knots with my fingers or knitting needles or crochet hook or my weaving on a loom into a cloth I could create a spell which would undo all the suffering, all the pain?

Are there words true enough, eloquent enough that I could bring back all that lost youth? All those dreams, now dead and gone?
Woul... read more
Sun, April 15, 2007 - 12:17 PM permalink - 0 comments
 
i think i'm loosing focus actually. i don't do well learning something just to pass a test. especially when the test is in a class that has NOTHING to do with what i want to be doing the rest of my life. so i could fail a class this semester. sure, i've had a lot going on. life's been rather hellish the past 3 months. but not all bad. just got to focus. on what? school yes, but i'm also gonna focus more on dancing. not just drilling the steps, but enjoying them. i love dancing, but the struct... read more
Wed, April 11, 2007 - 6:06 AM permalink - 0 comments
 
this weather is so fucking intoxicating! just being outside today makes me feel blissful, drunk even.....or is that all the cold and allergy med. i'm on? hehe.

my brother-in-law is safe home in VA after a training thing in guatamala and i'm glad he's back. seems weird that in three weeks i'll be there too! i can't wait! between that and the weather and finally not feeling sick--the past two days were ROUGH- i'm having a hard time making myself write this paper. and op-ed.......right up my ... read more
Wed, February 21, 2007 - 10:15 AM permalink - 0 comments
 
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Brain Feathers

Last page Last day
Last chance Last time

Fill me up I want to overflow
With thoughts of you
Feelings from you
I want to overflow with you
Into a new reality
Where
We are in sync; together even when
We’re apart

Move me through
Move with me through
Hold my heart knowing my hand
All the days All the ways
I will love you forever

Counting the freckles on your knuckles
So I can bring them with me
Always in my mind

Last page Last day
Last chance Last time

Last… but certainly not
The End

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