aloha to all Beings!

yes everything has a beginning and an end...

i fly out in days - thursday the 5th... i feel sad and content at the same time...

im staying at COCO's - i had been there in february... its sooo sweet to be back there! sujatha is back again since february and is the new manager while victoria is in Cali... she is kind and we had a nice connection in february and we are tight again now!

all the girls at Cocos are sweet and friendly... i am sooo glad to be there now -- its been the best place in a long time for me to stay at... probably since i came to Hawaii... no alcoholics, no craziness or theft, no meanness... just authentic kindness, spiritual mindedness, and pure intentions....

i am so blessed to have this nest to rest in before i fly to canada! it also renews my love for Hawaii and for all the nice americans i have met and loved!

i am doing a work trade in the gardens and kitchen while i stay there... i love that everyone there praises my efforts and appreciate it! i feel acknowledged and thanked for the first time in a long long time! it reminds me what its like to feel loved! its sooo much nicer than at Eden Farms and the hell i just went thru... it renews my trust in others and my hope in a loving man... tho not Hawaii anymore! i gave someone a chance that treated me soo badly i felt jaded. but now i feel open and at peace with all that has happened to me...

i feel my heart opening again... my integration of the wisdom from my lessons, mistakes, delusions... i feel wiser, kinder, more forgiving... i feel aloha coming from Pele and from the multitude of Spirits here... i feel that the Hawaiian Dieties have carried me through every high and low... helping me burn away aspects of myself i no longer wanted to carry, parts of me that were self-detrimental, burn away what no longer served me...

i had to face the fire of transformation and boy did i get burned!! and yet it transformed my mind and heart! now i am clearer than ever before in my life! i see the changes within myself that empower me to be more authentic - even to my own Self. i feel like i will not delude myself with attachments to Outcomes. I have been so forgiving and kind to those who have betrayed me. i can see deeply into their Selves and it truly brings out the Compassion in my heart for them. i forgiven all. i leave Hawaii knowing i built many gardens, planted so much food, and given my Aloha!

i have a vision to tour quickly to Kona side and experience the Paradise of those white sand beaches and snorkel with the turtles just one last time! i hope to leave monday and return wednesday the 4th of July for a Potluck and Jam for a going away celebration for me at Coco's...and its america day or something ;)

you are all welcome to come! kona side and/or to Cocos. or be there in Spirit!

Mahalo to Hawaii - for all the kindness and even the hard times - everything has been blessings of Spiritual growth! i am forever in Hawaii's debt...

Mahalo to all of you friends who've emailed/called me or even just thought about me accross the miles, with encouragement, love, and kindness. i felt honoured to be cared for by you all.

alohalove to ALL!