Ever since I was a small child I have been interested in the paranormal. My first books were probably out of my league but were things Like "Ghosts" by David Cohen, The Loch Ness Monster, and Werewolves. I believe Cohen also wrote on those subjects. My mom was one of the first people to get me into it. her basically superstitious belief in magic, witchcraft, ghosts and satanism steered me towards it. My father was a man of less fantastical beliefs more of science than superstition. It's from him that I get my love of knowledge and documentaries. As well as books. My mom's side, not so big with the written word. My Dad's well they were Mormons and thats par for the course there. I myself was not raised a mormon, nor do I regret my fathers decision on that manner. I like Mormons as a general rule but they sometimes seem vacant to me.

As I grew up I immersed myself in the mysteries of the world. Atlantis, UFO's, psychic, phenomena, Magick. Bigfoot. To this day I still love werewolves, ghosts, Magick, and even UFO's. Though I've drawn some conclusions. Atlantis is a myth based upon cultural memories, it either was Santorini, or it was a culture that existed prior to the end of the last ice age. Remember sea levels are lower in an ice age and an advanced coastal civilization could be lost under 200 ft of water. though I doubt we'll find airports and ray guns. I believe UFO's visit the Earth, that they always have. I do not hold much regard for the "abduction" crisis. I don't think they are taking people off the earth. if they are I doubt they are returning them and when Earth get's off it's Warmongering, money grubbing ass, we'll likey find a population of Humans floating around out their. probably as slaves but otherwise...still there. I think that the possibility alone just the possibility, of an alien presence regardless of it's intentions towards us should be enough reason to go into space, colonize the Sol system and build a united Human military. Complete with a badass starfleet that can lay waste to anything that threatens to enslave or conquer the Human race. The Future of our Species is a good enough reason. now tell it to the jackasses who don't believe in global warming.

I have a hard time with Psychics. This is an are where I feel like a hypocrite. I believe Humans have psychic abilities. I believe this requires some time and training and real attempts to develop. I have a problem with so called "sensitives" People who claim to feel ghosts. I imagine that most folks can sense a "Presence" and some of the ones who make such claims are the women in my family. Yet they can't tell when someone is standing behind them. And hey, what happened to 9/11? Shouldn't there have been a heads up? I don't recall any internet alerts or anything about some psychic coming out of the woodwork before hand. Did I miss something or did all the people who work for a psychic hotline simply forget to drop that nugget in between checking credit card numbers?!!! And it's not just 9/11 there are plenty of opportunities for psychics to make themselves known every day, trust me people would start paying attention if your calling in the right numbers. I sure the hell would!.
Loch Ness, there is no monster in that lake. I am not saying there are no sea or lake monsters. Just not in that lake. Big foot Possible. But I think the chance of proving it is going down hill I think there is a prehistoric remnant out there, but I believe it's living on the edge. It's just smart enough to stay the hell away from us but too stupid to turn to us.

Ghosts. I believe. I have always believed. I've had a couple things occur which solidifies that for me and I am actively seeking it out. Besides I think it's Just too hard to avoid the possibility. If you've ever wondered why you don't see the ghost of dinosaurs or cavemen, then lemme help you. First of all dinosaurs are animals and while Ghosts are rare, in the sense of full body apparitions even if it's residual. Animal ghosts are rarer. Second of all a ghost story from england and a couple similiar ones should help out. I do not remember the whole tale but basically it's this. A pub in england sit's on an old roman road, a employee of the pub goes into the basemnt to get something. while he's down there much to his surprise a troop of Imperial Roman soldiers comes marching through, scaring the living daylights out of this man. But he catches something odd. they are Short, much shorter than what would've been expected. in fact they have no legs below the knee! The catch? The actual roman road was at least two feet below the floor of the pub basement and that floor was at least 6 ft below modern street level. True story, ya get it? If there are dinosausrs and caveman ghosts out there they are underground or in caves. In other words there are perfectly natural explanations as to why we don't see ghosts all the time. Not everything becomes a ghost, that which does may not remain forever. maybe the energy dissipates, maybe it cannot resist the call of what waits after death. maybe it's residual, and whatever it's attached to get's buried or grown over, or destroyed. Ghost are real and there are very real reasons for not seeing them all the time. Maybe it's a good thing. The last thing I need is a T-rex chasing me down the street.

Magick. Oh wonder of wonders! How I love this simple little art. It's overlooked again and again. The sceptic will tell you it's nothing, if you don't believe in it, it has no power over you. Idiots! Your belief has an affect on it. Oh yes but once implemented it cannot be stopped except by another practitioner. Or the caster, but if it helps some to sleep better at night, then what do I care? I love this stuff so much I cannot live with out it. If I were to drop magick to day, I'd be back tommorow. Not because It's my belief system but because I know what it can do I know what's out there. I't'd be like trying to live in a cave with my eyes shut and my fingers in my ears. The neccesities of life would eventually force me to stop doing that. Hell the spirits I've summoned would be enough to keep my attention on magick if I were to try and stop. God, I love magick! Thank you.

When I look at a beautiful woman I feel the same things as all men. But some women, certain women, they seem to transcend this. In other words ther are alway plenty of attractive women out there that I would simply love to be intimate with. Then there are those that I would love to be "deeply" intimate with. I don't know how to explain it but lemme take a crack at this. Just a few moments ago I saw a woman, whose good looks and style of clothing and in general her image, created a spiritually sensual persona in my head. And of course It's all in my head isn't it? I mean all I know is what she has in her profile, without time I cannot possibly know her better than that. but still a part of me says that if I had the chance with her not only could we make love so profound as to create a new universe in which she and I were the sole creators, and gods but that we would know each others very souls. then I see where she is located and I feel the pang of regret, the sorrow of knowing that while it's not impossible that I would ever meet this woman, it is nevertheless unlikely. That in order to meet her I would have to give up my current home, and comforts and friends. possibly my current employment opportunities in short the the very life I've built and plan to build, just to take a chance at a possible rendevous with this lovely creature that is teasingly dangled before my like a succulent worm before a hungry fish. I could provide the opportunity for this. All I need is the desire to do so. This is the very nature of our pursuit of The Knowledge and Conversation of the Holy Guardian Angel. And the grades beyond that. In my opinion.

Over the last two weeks I've been working hard to update and revise my grimoire, which over the last couple of years has moved from being a Book of Shadows to a Magicians Grimoire.
I've removed all of the old Wiccan material, and thusly some memories and retyped virtually everything.Even adding material that I never had before because it was alot of work and I was just being lazy. I'm reminded by this process that the Book of Shadows or Grimoire, is "a labor of love" (which Wiccan author actually wrote that, eh?) Which can never really be put aside. These books are as much a part of us as the rituals and information contained within them. How long has it been since anyone who reads this has visited their Grimoire? 93.

Russ.

PS. Man I wonder what images my imagination will choose to illuminate my Grimoire with!

Well friends it seems I'm finally going tribal. This will be the first entry into this, blog business. I hope to have more soon. Check out the site, I've yet to do much with it, but here it is. SO enjoy, and if I know you, or if I don't feel free to contact me. I'm here. Somewhere.

Russ