some ramblings on ego ...
after diving into
Eckhart Tolle
and his latest work:
A New Earth

This new book is profound.
I was encouraged by a friend to get it.
Now I keep the karma moving
and encourage friends to consider
doing the same.

Now let me just flow
as the book breaks down the ego
and the mind - thoughtform collective complex
with a clarity I have not yet heard
or read ...

I am through maybe three chapters
and it feels like I have undergone
brain surgery for my inner world...

I always felt that 'letting go' and
'not knowing' were two rather prudent
courses of action

but now i understand the 'why'
of attachment and structural instability
false identity bound to come crashing
down, better to not build to begin with

instead to be present in joy of unknown
un labeled, un identified, no box
perception

without anything to react to
or buttons to have pushed
cause who am I anyway?

the IAM consciousness
the presence observing the thoughts
rippling over the stillness
of deeper awareness

how pleasant to anarchic break it
all down
and then not have to build anything
back up!

"I am DJ"
"I am breakbeat"
"I am rebel"
"I am soljah"
"I am rasta"
"I am funky"
"I am alternative"
"I am vegan"

what a relief to let it all go
and just be
present
and serve

the cosmic hammer hittting a glass house

no need to create a 'non-identity'
ID either as some renunciate poet

"i'm superior 'cause i don't have an identity"

the creations of mind, were they not creating
war and destroying the earth
in fulfillment of egotistical longings,
would be utterly comical
but the destruction, death, and disease
leaves me sober punctuated by moments
of alice in wonderland chuckles

another redwood falls to the earth

having grappled extensively with the question
of what is the most effective way to bring about
positive change
i now feel confident in tracing the root of suffering
on this planet to the doorstep of the ego
and its whirling illusional creations
and mayatic delusional whisperings
of mercurial war

'forgive them Lord for they know not what they do'

while i have had the sense that violent revolution
was not the course called for in our current situation
i did not have a sense of what to fill the space
of forceful opposition with...

and while I have always agreed with the sentiment
'change must begin within'
i never identified that change with the re-orientation
of the personal ego
towards awakening
of the inner consciousness

'the Living Light'

swami rama suggests 'befriending' the ego
messieur ahamkar
Tolle suggests simply observing ...

so how come the monk who gets spit on
and praised by a king
reacts to neither?

only the ego reacts
and lashes out
starts fights
hurts and maims
cuts and kills

IAM
radiates spirit
living light
infinitely pouring forth
in cosmic rivers
manifesting as experience
and form in service
to the Most High
evolutionary
trajectory

now

and the more I focus on the presence
behind the thoughts
the more spirit is able to flow
radiating like a sun
in all directions

and the incessant chatter of mind
quiets

i am sure it will come back
but hopefully i will be ready
to recognize
who I am not
(((((ego thoughtforms, false identity))))
and who

I AM

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