Brain Leakage... My Blog

And for those of you NOT on FB... My Art on My Sleeve... Be Gentle...

SamWise — Sun, 18 Jan 2009 20:03:25 GMT

Really rough cut, badly recorded and badly miked and awkwardly sung BUT here it is, wearing my art on my sleeve... Going Through The Motions (of Emotion) http://samaaron.com/audio/samsongs/goingthroughthemotions.mp3

WANTED...

SamWise — Wed, 10 Dec 2008 22:09:39 GMT

http://samwises.blogspot.com/2008/12/wanted.html

Silent Running...

SamWise — Wed, 10 Dec 2008 22:08:09 GMT

http://samwises.blogspot.com/2008/12/silent-running.html

Hollywood & Western & Philosophy

SamWise — Thu, 04 Dec 2008 09:44:07 GMT

http://samwises.blogspot.com/2008/12/hollywood-western-philosophy.html

The Dollar...

SamWise — Fri, 28 Nov 2008 09:47:56 GMT

http://samwises.blogspot.com/2008/11/dollar.html

Twitter... (The NEW Red Blinking Lite on your Answering Machine)

SamWise — Fri, 28 Nov 2008 09:46:03 GMT

http://samwises.blogspot.com/2008/11/twitter-new-red-blinking-lite-on-your.html

The Pavlovian Response... The Dog Didn't Always Salivate... and Not all Dogs Salivate... To the Same Bell...

SamWise — Tue, 11 Nov 2008 06:19:20 GMT

http://samwises.blogspot.com/2008/11/pavlovian-response-dog-didnt-always.html

Safe BLogging...

SamWise — Sat, 01 Nov 2008 23:51:59 GMT

I was a little freaked out when I thought I may have lost my past Blogs from Tribe... I am happy they are back BUT worries me ALSO I do want my BLogs to be viewed by MORE than Tribe peeps... And some Peeps who I want to read my BLogs I may not WANT on Tribe... SO... http://samwises.blogspot.com I copied MOST of my Tribe blogs there and will be using that as my OFFICIAL BLog Space... PLEASE... Follow my BLogs there... Love and Even More Love, Samiwse

How do we Listen??? Do we Listen??? How do we Care??? Do we Care??? Is it about You, Me or We???

SamWise — Wed, 01 Oct 2008 23:41:07 GMT

[This is out of a conversation/Face book back and forth message I was having with a friend, it has been edited and addendum'd and re-written BUT the original thought was expressed in an email] [Generalization... BUT hear the idea NOT the Generalization] ...I find a HUGE thing about MEN/WOMAN is MEN typically do not VENT to VENT, they VENT to work things out (They look for a way to NOT feel the way they are feeling...) They don't share UNTIL they are looking to work on it. WOMAN will just VENT, looking for agreement, understanding and sympathy for their situation and their emotions attached to that situation. NEITHER is WRONG... It's just a different process... Where there is an issue is between the sexes... This issue is: MEN listen like MEN and WOMAN listen like WOMAN... from THEIR perspective.... I have learned (and am learning) that when a WOMAN blogs... EVEN IF IT'S A SPECIFIC ISSUE... It's typically a VENT, she may just want to be heard... and want to continue in her own space... Working through it herself... IF I (as a MAN) BLOG/SHARE publicly (UNLESS IT'S AN OBVIOUS RANT!!!) I WANT HELP... I don't think most WOMAN realize that. Men are kinda stoic, self-contained, trying to work it out for themselves and understand... If they get to a point where they are SHARING, they've taken a leap out of their space and are looking to take it on... move out of it! NOW!!! I'm cool about getting more savvy about picking up what people as individuals need when they communicate... BUT... I don't always know how to communicate what I need... LIKE... When I say I'm upset, or lonely, or anxious... This is my way of saying... I FEEL CRAPPY!!! Anyone wanna get a BEER!!! Hmmm... I guess from now on... I'm gonna say I FEEL CRAPPY!!! ANYONE WANNA GET A BEER!!! duh... (that Solved...?) >>>> Continuing from later on in the correspondence >>>> I've been studying woman and just general human social dynamics since my separation/divorce 6 years ago... (prior to that more of individual dynamics, how people work ALONE - not in relationship) and realize how much you have to GET the persons vision of the world to communicate fully with them (Seek first to understand, then to be understood)... I see a LOT of how I've been trying to understand woman and just social dynamics in general is from MY perspective... which explains why it doesn't work... Whether it's genetic, hormonal, sexual, status, ethics, aesthetics, religion or WHAT... I see that because of our differences we are TREATED differently causing us to have very different experiences of life... even when the environments are the same... It's our context that gives us our interpretation and reaction... And I'm seeing things I've never seen before... both wonderful and frustrating... I have met a LOT of MEN on this journey... And have had some fascinating conversations and experiences... BUT... lately I've been a bit frustrated with the lack of woman who TRY to understand WHY a man is coming from where he's coming from... He's not just STUPID... You shouldn't make him a project, try to fix him... ain't your job!!! BUT an overall curiosity of what could be the foundation of his behavior. AND THEN BACK TO OURSELVES... What is the foundation of our own behavior and WHAT patterns we've been repeating with really CRAPPY results... AND HOW DO WE COMMUNICATE MORE EFFECTIVELY... ... to get all our needs met, nurtured and respected! WHILE STILL SERVING OTHERS ... getting their needs met, nurtured and respected! (and they will do the same for us) Hmmmm.... PERHAPS WE JUST NEED TO BE CONCERNED ABOUT SERVICE... AND JUST BE AWARE WHEN WE ARE NOT BEING SERVED... Take your attention off yourself and your needs will be met... Very Burning Man... No Expectations... Just GIVE... and Receive Graciously.

MORE... "Spring Awakening Stuff"...

SamWise — Fri, 12 Sep 2008 19:25:05 GMT

http://www.centertheatregroup.org/tickets/productiondetail.aspx?id=5624 This is a Tour of a musical coming to the Ahmanson Theater Late Oct through early Dec... There is a WORK BOOK - EDUCATION GUIDE, that the theatre has online for the show... http://www.centertheatregroup.org/uploadedFiles/Plays_and_Tickets/Productions/2008/Spring_Awakening/files/Spring_Awakening_DG.pdf Here are SOME of the things in the Online Educational Guide/Workbook... “Shame. What is its origin? And why are we hounded by its miserable shadow,” Vocabulary Debauchery: n. Excessive indulgence in sensual pleasures Euphemism: n. A word or expression substituted for one thought offensive Hypocrisy: n. Pretending to possess principles that contradict one’s behavior Taboo: n. A subject considered forbidden or sensitive in a particular culture "LETS ALL PLAY MATCH GAME!!! Shall we" :-O In the first list below is a list of words considered inappropriate in Victorian conversation. In the Second column is a euphemism for each. Match the improper word with its more polite counterpart: 1. Pregnant 2. Delivering a child 3. Sexual Intercourse 4. Masturbation 5. Toilet 6. Wet Dream 7. Vagina 8. Homo... Read Moresexuality 9. Have an orgasm 10. Penis A. Giving the old man his supper B. Water closet C. The love that dare not speak its name D. To spend E. Womanly passage F. Accouchement G. The solitary vice H. Lollipop; charmer I. Nocturnal emission J. With child

Blast from my Musical Past... Circa 1983... SO MANY DREAMS

SamWise — Mon, 11 Aug 2008 18:32:54 GMT

I probably wrote this circa 1980 and played it in a few bands BUT this is the Version I just found on cassette and have spent 3 hours... Figuring out how to get it digitized... then mp3 it... and then loaded up to the Internet (and my mp3 player)... Odd how the universe works... I saw someones poetry online... Thought... Hey, what were the lyrics to that song I wrote & played in those band... Hey, I'll try to put them in a word document... Damn... what were they???, Hey, I'll see If that OLD cassette is around... Hey, It's the first tape I find... Hey, I should digitize this... Hey, I think I can digitize this... (I LOVE MY NOTEBOOK AND Wireless Internet!) Hey, I think I'll put this up on the net! And so you have it.... (Pardon the simplicity of the lyrics at times... I was 18) (I'm doing keyboard and both the lead and background vocals... I had a YAMAHA 4 track!!! :-O WOW!!!) http://samaaron.com/files/audio/samsongs/So%20Many%20Dreams.mp3 LYRICS: (a) The night is young, I sit alone, with my mind …and I think what bad company I keep… The night is done, I sit at home, one more time, …and I think that I shall never get to sleep… CHORUS: For there’re so many dreams I have to make true and I’ve done my time of being blue I’ve sat back and schemed I fantasize too and I’ll make them work and so can you (a) No one seems to ever mind, that I’m here but do they know, really who I am No one seems to find the time to be sincere and no one tries to truly understand (b) That I want to be with those I feel like Those that make me smile and feel right So deep I feel this smile inside me This worm and happy force that guides me (c) Just one small chance, Just unlock the door that’s all I want, I won’t ask for more All I want is, Is that you understand All I want is, It that you know that I am (a) There are times I’ll take the time to “LOOK AT ME” I try so hard to make them look and see Now I have reason and rhyme, I need no one I put myself, second next to none (d) I’ve spent my life, trying to give myself away I’ve spent my life, Looking for words just right to say Now I think that, I’m gonna try some different ways Now I think that, I’ll make myself those brighter days (a) Time goes by as I perform, for myself No one buys a ticket to my show Feelings fly as I write songs, for the shelf It’s OK, soon everyone will know Chorus: That there’re so many dream I had to make true And I need myself Much more than you I sit back and scheme I fantasize too and I’ll make it work with or without you For there're so many dreams I had to made true and I’ve done my time of being blue I’ve sat back and schemed I fantasized too and I’ve made them work and so can you…

Ok... Kodak commercials and Sappy Broadway show tunes... :*( [MORE CONFESSIONS OF A THEATRE FAG]

SamWise — Sun, 10 Aug 2008 23:56:08 GMT

This song was in a show at my theatre (The Mark Taper Forum) called "13" and it's a story about turning 13 and dealing with the (normal) stuff you go through, and just dealing with friends, fitting in, school and stuff. But this SONG pains me, makes my cry... Between the song, the arrangement and the AMAZING voice on this 15 year old girl... It kinda reminds me of god spell... I AM SO FAGGY!!! http://samaaron.com/files/audio/13/What%20It%20Means%20To%20Be%20A%20Friend.mp3

Body Lab... Experiment - Start Date 08/04/08 - Current Date 08/09/08

SamWise — Sat, 09 Aug 2008 15:42:03 GMT

I'm trying some radical changes in food... But is it so Radical? I continue to choose to enjoy my vices... caffeine, alcohol and other things... on a moment to moment basis... BUT I choose to change my regular gluttonous and unthoughtful eating intake... So... since 08/04/08... I've been living on Protein Shakes, coffee and alcohol... :-O :-D Down about 7 lbs in 6 days... GeorJosh (That's how I spell it, Rather than the Presidential Ticket - Gore-Josh) has suggested FIBER... His suggestion, oatmeal and Whole Wheat Bread with Peanut butter... Man after 5 days... 1 slice, folded over some Peanut Butter was AMAZING!!! Also added Wheat Germ to my apple juice, Frozen Strawberry, protein Powder shakes... And Josh also got me on Omega 3 Fish Oil (doin 1200ml/3 times a day) and some One a Day MALE Vitamins) NOW... AS I go to a wedding today... I plan to enjoy it... Kinda like my vices... SO... I'll EAT... BUT I do not plan on stopping my Lab... Just NOT being tough on myself BUT am trying to be more FOCUSED and CHOOSE more... Most of the time my MOOD chooses (which is my emotions/Ego) or my PAST chooses (Habit and Ritual) or THE food CHOOSES (It LOOKS good, Smells good, is FREE, Is convenient). ALL of these are CRAPPY reasons to put something in your mouth. (Insert your OWN joke... I'll wait...... ...... ...... ...... ......) When you use these reasons, unless you are being REALLY aware... you probably are eating things that are NOT fulfilling the true purpose of eating... NOURISHMENT and FUEL. And this wonderful experience turns into just another VICE... a FIX... a temporary stimuli to make you feel ANYTHING but the way you are CURRENTLY feeling... And from the past, when we've done these things... it's usually better... OR it was better ONE TIME... and we are trying to get that feeling BACK... that's why we repeat the pattern OVER and OVER and OVER... (Wow, I just got that...) For the time being... I'm going to stop the insanity... and be EXTREME... Just while I recalibrate... or perhaps... It's not that extreme... USE RECREATIONAL VICES ONLY RECREATIONLLY, when YOU choose freely... and CHOOSE to put them where they belong in your life NOT everywhere... (That also kinda makes their use actually kinda Special!!! Kinda? I think it's the caffeine... hee hee) P.S. Exercise to follow... I KNOW, I KNOW... But let me change ONE neural pathway at a time... GEEEZE!!!

The Pit...

SamWise — Sat, 09 Aug 2008 00:58:22 GMT

Day 1: I Walk down a road, fall into pit, it's dark and frightening, I scream, I yell, I cry, I kick, I scratch, I claw, I climb and eventually find my way out... I look back at the hole and damn it. and continue on... Day 2: I Walk down the same road, fall into the same pit, it's dark and frightening but familiar, I scream, I yell, I cry, I kick, I scratch, I claw, I climb BUT not as long as the first time and find my way out... I look back at the hole and damn it..., but not quite as energetic... and continue on... Day 3: I Walk down the same road, notice the hole, try to avoid it, BUT fall into the same pit anyway, it's dark and annoying but familiar, I scream, I yell, I cry, but mostly out of frustration, I kick, I scratch, I claw out of righteousness, I climb BUT am becoming familiar with the foot and hand holds, and though there is effort, I climb out with great focus and find my way out... I look back at the hole and damn MYSELF..., and continue on... Day 4: I Walk down the same road, notice the hole, try to walk completely around it, BUT can't take my eyes off it and fall into the same pit anyway, it's dark, but my eyes adjust very quickly, I mumble under my breath mostly out of self annoyance and the stupidity of the world, I climb AND am QUITE familiar with the foot and hand holds, and with only minimal effort, I climb fairly quickly and find my way out... I look back at the hole and shrug my shoulders..., and continue on... Day 5: I Walk down the same road, notice the hole, walk completely around it, BUT turn around and peer down it fascinated and fall into the pit anyway, it's dark, but this is not an issue, my eyes don't even need to adjust to start my ascent, I pontificate loudly to myself and any passer by, how you can't avoid these pits, it's just the way it is, I quickly climb out, with little effort and find my way out... I glance back at the hole and raise one eyebrow..., and continue on... Day 6: I Walk down the same road, aim right for the hole, JUMP into it, it's dark and comfortable, I muse at the dirt and rock and things in the pit that have fallen in and take my time, I leisurely start to leave, I have nothing to say, I just climb out, with expert speed and KNOW my way out... I continue on without looking back..., and continue on... Day 7: I CHOOSE A DIFFERENT ROAD!!!

"The Need To Know"... One Time Special INEXPESIVE performance this Sat. Aug 2nd @ 8pm in Culver City!!!!

SamWise — Tue, 29 Jul 2008 19:54:48 GMT

My friend who I studied acting with has been doing her one woman show for about 5+ years and getting awards and Best Picks...etc, etc, etc... She got a grant and is doing her show in a 300 seats theatre in Culver city this Sat. - The Kirk Douglas Theatre 9820 Washington Blvd Culver City, CA 90232 She's only charging $5.00 and it's selling out. This is an AMAZING show and very much a WOMAN power show... I took a friend a few months ago when she did a one time performance in a 50 seats theatre, and the friend I took was BLOWN away and said she had NO idea she was going to a show that would move her andmake her think this much... EVERYONE SHOULD SEE THIS SHOW... ESPECIALLY WOMAN!!! http://www.aprilfitzsimmons.com/ http://www.aprilfitzsimmons.com/needtoknow.html http://addictedtowar.blogsome.com/2008/07/12/the-need-to-know-a-play-by-april-fitzsimmons-at-the-kirk-douglas-theatre-in-culver-city-saturday-august-2nd-800-pm-tickets-are-only-5-call-310-880-0911/ http://www.kpfk.org/eventcal/kpfkeventcalendar.html?task=view_detail&agid=100&year=2008&month=08&day=02

I am such a Theatre FAG!!! Spring Awakening...

SamWise — Fri, 25 Jul 2008 20:23:56 GMT

...is giving me chills... and tearing me up... and I'm just watching it on YouTube... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vsR3te9wJKE http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZDhAXgbhP_c I really miss (yearn for) GOOD Powerful theatre... (Not just trite or pretensious) and this show is Painfully Good... Based on a banned Play written in Germany in 1890 about teenage pain, confusion, sexuality and suicide... I have NOT seen it but it will be in town (downtown LA) October 29 - December 7, 2008 http://www.centertheatregroup.org/tickets/productiondetail.aspx?id=5624 (The damn music in the Promo is giving me chills and making me tear up...) Maybe I'm just going thru Man-opause... All I know is I miss being moved by something on stage and BEING on stage moving others... We all need to go see this show... Multiple times... Story: http://www.springawakening.com/pop-fullstory.htm

Platform Samwise...

SamWise — Sun, 29 Jun 2008 07:57:59 GMT

OK... Vegan Skater was creative and inspired enough to request I put on her 3 1/2 inch platform Black Hip High boots coming back from Alma Paradiso... A FEW pix were snapped... Does anyone have a shot of me in these!!! Oh... PLEASE!!!

Killer BUZZ...

SamWise — Sat, 28 Jun 2008 06:05:48 GMT

My friend at work has this dog he brings in... Her name is Buzz and she's just F'n FUN!!! I took this video with my new camera... It makes me SMILE!!!! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R9kKVSl3BK0

Trippy....

SamWise — Sun, 04 May 2008 05:26:11 GMT

Really!!! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wBL4hRoqRWY&feature=related And Interesting Animation... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R1UXPINRvsQ Whadya think?

I'm Home... I'm Sick... :-(

SamWise — Thu, 17 Jan 2008 04:09:13 GMT

Clogged ears... Thore Throat... Fevery... That is all... How's everyone else??? 818-988-2030 :-/ P.S. Not a current picture... I was just going for effect... But I do feel kinda like the picture shows... :-( Update!!! 01/17/09 9:45 AM Still sick BUT considerablly better... been Pop'n Aire Born ALOT!!!

Now this is getting ANNOYING!!! - Dennis Kucinich vs. ABC (DISNEY) News (Suppressed Poll)

SamWise — Sat, 29 Dec 2007 20:45:40 GMT

From TIME/CNN Dennis Kucinich vs. ABC (DISNEY) News Suppressed Poll & doctoring of Pictures to remove Kucinich from the group of Candidates... IF YOU DON'T KNOW ABOUT DENNIS KUCINICH... It's because they don't want you to know about him!!! He's a Congressman who's a VEGAN!!! http://time-blog.com/swampland/2007/08/dennis_kucinich_vs_abc.html They created a poll, and when they didn't LIKE the results... they buried the poll... WTF!!!! Watch to ManilaRyceTLM!!! on YouTube... PLEASE... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IxhYL1_yb1o And Be active... PLEASE....

A Samwise Family Snowball Fight...

SamWise — Mon, 24 Dec 2007 00:46:27 GMT

http://www.jibjab.com/sendables/preview/GQpJPs81B6tTllLLq35XBMhq

The Zenn Car... ZENN on the Rick Mercer Report

SamWise — Sat, 22 Dec 2007 04:49:20 GMT

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8M88k6Ipp3c Zero Emmission No Noise... It plugs into a regular outlet!!! B-D

Just for yucks... Which Candidate (and who's record) best matches your (political) morals and ethics...

SamWise — Fri, 21 Dec 2007 19:38:22 GMT

http://www.dehp.net/candidate/ Out of 25 items... My Top 3: 20 Kucinich Disagreements: (1) No Child Left Behind Unknowns/Other: (0) 16 Gravel Disagreements: (0) Unknowns/Other: (6) ANWR Drilling, Assault Weapons Ban, Guns - Background Checks, Wiretapping, Net Neutrality, Minimum Wage Increase 16 Obama Disagreements: (1) Patriot Act Unknowns/Other: (4) No Child Left Behind, Kyoto, Torture, Iran - Military Action

My Kittie Hobbs is Unwell... :-(

SamWise — Tue, 13 Mar 2007 00:50:46 GMT

Well... I get back from an amazing weekend @ Fuente Eterno... And find out my sweet kitty... [ GOD this is hard to write... ;-( ] has liver problems... CORRECTION!!!(03/24/07) KIDNEY!!! KIDNEY PROBLEMS!!! (and Anemic) and I'm going to have to give him a intravenous drip every day for the REST OF HIS LIFE... It is it heart breaking to think of my kitty as permanently unwell, This is also going to alter my life(style) drastically... Now... all you pet (especially cat) owners... I've heard "Cat Milk Thistle" can help and even in some cases heal a cat's liver... I'm just looking to see what you all know? Have heard? WHO you know? I just want to see if there are OTHER possible treatments... Not so drastic, intrusive and perpetual... Please put your thinking caps on... and While you're at it... Please send some good energy... that would be nice too... Love and Even More Love, Sadly Samwise UPDATE: 10/24/07 Haven't blogged for a while... Hobbs is Fine... Took him to a Holistic Dr./Vet, gave him some Herbs and Hemp liquid... and Cut the Injected Solution down to every other day then every few days and NOW... haven't done it for a while and he looks great!!! I'm gonna take him back soon for a blood test BUT he's eating fine, seems like a playful, solid kitty... I'm happy.... ;-)