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My life has been a very interesting one. Definitely my own, with a wild weave that dances through a multitude of lifetimes and "realities" which have afforded me a view of the world uniquely my own.

I was born to be who i have become, and its been a magical adventure finding my way back Here . . . and Now.

Reflections on that path show a larger pattern of reintegrating supposed opposites into their dyanamically balanced wholes. Now of course, this is a work in progress eternally, and yet, I have come to a place where I can honor in myself the man i have become.

The intergration plays out as a evolving redefintion of what it means to be a "man" in this world, with reintegration and expression of God/Goddess, Heart/Mind, Spirit/Flesh, Creativity/Reason, Strength/Gentleness, etc.

One week prior to the first day of 7th grade, the great transformative story of my life began when my left kneecap dislocated, beginning the dissolution of the boy I had become after 12 years in this body immersed in upper middle class catholic suburban Sacramento culture. Over the course of the next 3 years i dislocated my kneecaps some 50 times, had 3 surgeries, and pretty much shredded all the essential tissues around my kneecap. The deep physical and emotional trauma of these experiences and all that surrounded them during the following years, gave me a very challenging reality to integrate, and profound journey of transformation and healing to embark upon.

The lowpoint of the knee thing was around age 20, at which time i had disabled parking, relied on my upper body strength to climb and descend stairs, and generally felt the overal trend line of my bodies health to be one of gradual and unceasing decline. My surgeon's agreed, at one point joking to me that, "yes i could have an active life in the future (meaning age 25), that is, if I could redefine an active life as sitting in a rocking chair.

That was the last time i went to a western doctor.

I opened myself up to and Spirit and said something to the effect of, " alright then, is this all you got for me? I know there is something more, and I"m ready for it."

Two things changed near this point in my life. First a friend with multiple sclerosis inspired me to try cannabis for my pain, in an effort to wean me off the pharmaceutical poisons that had been a part of my life for 7 years.

The second major change was a response by Spirit to my query about the presence of "something more than this pain." At 21 my 3rd eye opened up wide and bright, and I had more-or-less non-stop multidimensional, surround sound, 360 degree 3rd eye vision for a couple years. Now it is important to note that, as a recovering Catholic (3 years or so at this point), I was totally unaware of anything called a "third eye", and pretty much had to integrate that whole scene on the fly. I was without any elders, teachers, mentors, friends, or allies who could offer me any insight or guidance about the experiences i was having, and so I had the unique opportunity to come into relationship with this new "reality" without any spiritual tradition or teachers telling me what it all meant. Just me and my own experience of my experience of myself.

My lifepath was forever altered during this era of my life. I left the path I had been on and the culture i had grown up within, and opened up fully to the guidance of Spirit as to what I was really doing in this body.

Over the next 4 years, I healed a significant portion of the damage that had been done and renewed my knees far beyond anything Western Medicine had thought possible, even if I had gone through with the major reconstructive surgeries and the other therapies they had suggested. My medicine was simple. Open hearted dance and movement which flowed high energetic currents in a sustained manner through my body. That's about it. I healed and transformed a great many aspects of my life during these years, and every alignment helped bring in the energy to trascend the physical injury and renew the body. But really, the only thing i did new, which the ganja faciliated through pain management, was dance my ass off as often as i could. My knees being so traumatized, i shifted the movement to other parts of my body. The most prominent among the newly empowered body parts being to my hips, which learned to move and groove in ways not typical for a male in modern western cultures.

The recent years of my life have been focused around 2 primary projects, themselves integration points for a mutlitude of threads.

The first being a summer camp called The Changers which i facilitated and co-organized for the past 4 summers. It began as the teen program of the Conversations with God Foundation. I came in to bring the energy of the emergent visionary generation ~ music, art, crystals, and an All-Star Team of young facilitators ~ in an effort be the kind of reflection for the awakening youth that I, and so many others my age, did not have as we began to hear ourselves in the mist of all the mass cultural noise.

The camp was a prototype of how we might seek to "activate" the young beings who are "ready." I hope to soon bring forth its next expression and share its medicine, integrated with those other magical beings who are here to help create it, and offer it on a much grander scale. A scale reflective of this moment in the story of creation and the potential it holds.

The second thread has been the larger quest to find a way to diagnos the malady that aflicts this planet, and design pathways for healing it.

My expertise exists as an integration of geopolitics/global dynamics with individual embodied consciousness. I get both realms pretty intiutively at this point, so i can look beyond the surface imagery and story, and see the underlying patterns of relationship and organization from which those images and stories arise.

So now, through many mediums, i design, open up, and hold space for individual and cultural transformation and healing. Relational repatterning and the embodiment of our heart's true vision.

In My Village is one such medium, which is a self organizing social structure to empower activating people in local communities to come together, begin harmonizing their energy and vision, ground healthy relational patterns through small group interactions, and discover, share, and focus their creative and finacial upon the details of the world they WANT to live in and now seek to create.

Fun stuff, especially in the context of what is occuring in the "reality" of the mass media global consumer culture. Its getting crazy out there, and surely it got lots more crazy left to get.

Death. Rebirth. & Renewal.

So i focus upon ways to catalyze, potentiate, and activate the healing of our world, and the creation of a new vibrant culture aligned with the story of creation and ready to bring forth the beauty that this creation holds forth to us as its eternal potential.

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