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WOW...i am finally free, and on my own!!!

serveandobey — Tue, 05 Aug 2008 15:23:32 GMT

My life is now about to finally begin, the way i would like it (with Master's approval of course hehe). i am in a new home and i am all recouped from some pretty serious/urgent surgery. For the first time in nearly 16 or so years, i am on my own and want to finally experience the life i want to lead........ Now i only wish there was a munch in the FAR FAR FAR east bay, maybe i should think of starting one. Have a great week!

When it rains it pours

serveandobey — Sat, 17 May 2008 22:33:35 GMT

After just starting a really flexible job w/ a nice boss, i was offered the job of a lifetime. I beat hundreds of applicants, 3 interviews, etc. and I got it!!!!!! Holy crap. i am humbled by gettting this postion in a type of setting you can feel good about yourself. And i am closer then ever to reaching that final weight goal.........only 9 darn pounds to go. WOW. Next is finding a place of my own, and to hit the lottery LOL. Thank god it's a buyers market now. It's amazing how your life can go through so many ups and downs, opened doors and closed doors. But the only constant aspects in my life are my daughter, wonderful family, and a strong Master who guides and encourages every single step of the way. Through the good and the challenges. You are my foundation of strength.

work......Yeah Work!!!!

serveandobey — Thu, 01 May 2008 23:03:54 GMT

Well after almost 5 months of being laid off, i have finally started working again. Flexible hours, work from home, nice business owner, fair pay....i will take what i can get. An added plus, this job's flexible schedule will still allow me to do continue training for what i really want to do. Now all i need is a cheap place to live in the rar East Bay and a new car. Hey, one thing at a time right? i can't conquer the world in one day......at least not today. Thanks to many of you who have written or replied w/ caring messages, your support has been taken to heart!! It has been a tough few months....Damn, that new home industry. But i see the light aproaching. Ciao! zelia

music = reflection

serveandobey — Wed, 13 Feb 2008 05:36:15 GMT

Does is make a person weak to be so moved by music. As i listen to some jazz (the great Mike Stern) while doing my homework, my mind moves from what i should be accomplishing to analyzing my relationship and my life. And simultaneously brings a smile to my face. Oh, those few little notes can do wonders!

feelings at the moment

serveandobey — Sun, 10 Feb 2008 18:28:14 GMT

sigh........... sadness...........

Lia Made me Do It. !!!

serveandobey — Fri, 08 Feb 2008 06:34:04 GMT

YOU'RE READING MY JOURNAL, I want to know 40 things about you. I don't care if we never talk, or if we already know everything about each other. Short and sweet is fine ... You're here, so I want to know you better! BE HONEST! COPY FROM HERE THEN SEND DIRECTLY TO ME IN A COMMENT THEN, REPOST THE EMPTY QUESTIONS. 1) Are you currently in a serious relationship? A. 2) What was your dream growing up? A. 3) What talent do you wish you had? A. 4) If I bought you a drink what would it be? A. 5) Favorite vegetable? A. 6) What was the last book you read? A. 7) What zodiac sign are you? A. 8) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where. A. 9) Worst Habit? A. 10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride? A. 11) What is your favorite sport? A. 12) Do you have a Negative or Optimistic attitude? A. 13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me? A. 14) Worst thing to ever happen to you? A. 15) Tell me one weird fact about you. A. 16) Do you have any pets? A. 17) What if i showed up at your house unexpectedly? A. 18) What was your first impression of me? (hmmm...careful!) A. 19) Are you monogamous, or non-manogamous? A. 20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be? A. 21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience? A. 22) What color eyes do you have? A. 23) Ever been arrested? A. 24) Bottle or can soda? A. 25) If you won $10,000,000 today, what would you do with it? A. 27) What's your favorite place to hang at, outside of your home? A. 28) Do you believe in ghosts? A. 29) Favorite thing to do in your spare time? A. 30) Do you swear a lot? A. 31) Biggest pet peeve? A. 32) In one word, how would you describe yourself? A. 33) Do you believe/appreciate romance? A. 35) Do you believe in God or a higher power? A. 36.) Do you like to be touched? A. 37.) What is your top trouble spot for bodily aches and pains? A. 38.) What do you like to talk about? A. 39.) Describe a great evening or outing. A. 40) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you? A.

Spring fever

serveandobey — Thu, 07 Feb 2008 23:13:51 GMT

Today is one of those days that remind me of being at college and saying fuck-it, no class for me today. It's beautiful here in the East Bay. Not a cloud in the sky, then there is usually never a cloud in the sky here. What a great day it has been. No, no job in sight yet. It's just one of those "Turn up my iPOD / clean the house/ open a window or two and watch the golfers drive by....................and give a kiss to Master" kind of days............sigh. if everyday could be this simple and rewarding.

.......moment of self pitty

serveandobey — Sun, 03 Feb 2008 22:27:44 GMT

OK, i need a moment to vent. i never thought a college degree would get in the way of job hunting!!!!!!! At the moment i am so dissapointed in myself for not getting a degree in a meaningful or should i say a more accepted field. It sucks that more employers don't look at what you have done......they look at that Fucking Major on my resume!!!!!!!!!!!! It's hard to keep smiling these days.

Sowing the seeds of change.......

serveandobey — Fri, 25 Jan 2008 17:09:26 GMT

i never in a million years thought i would be going back to school......but here i am taking 2 classes towards a brand new career. i assumed a Bachelors degree would be fine to get me along in life, but NO was I naive. It's funny how much I actually enjoy going back to school. i appreciate it so much more this time around. And when you are surrounded by others who are there because they WANT to be there, rather then it's just the next step in life, makes all the difference in the world. Ciao! zelia

what we want in life

serveandobey — Tue, 15 Jan 2008 01:17:20 GMT

Why are the 'things' we want in life, usually the ones that seem so damn hard to get. Alot of this blog journaling is to aid myself in "self-discovery". When i write something down, it becomes reality and i need to face it head-on. As a pisces....i am by nature a dreamer and sometimes it doesn't become reality until it's on paper. Or i guess you could say i don't want to face it until it's on paper. LOL Maybe it's those 'things' that are so damn hard to obtain are truly the most important. And those 'things' are there to teach us a lesson or a value or a new way of thinking, even if they are (or seem) unobtainable. And before we can even covet those "things" they have already affected our lives. i have come to realize in life that 1) i have the patience of a saint when it comes to work, family, etc. 2) when i want something i can't have..........i run out of patience, but i don't run from it. I actually embrace it more. Job hunting is so much fun! Ciao, zelia

Off to Tahoe for the weekend!!

serveandobey — Fri, 11 Jan 2008 21:21:07 GMT

Can't wait to play in the snow!!!!!!! 7 fresh feet (since last week) of the good white stuff. We (my daughter and i) will be having a blast making snow angels. Talk you when we get back...

Gotta Love the Housing Industry right now......

serveandobey — Wed, 09 Jan 2008 21:37:58 GMT

After a long run in the residential home building industry........i was officially laid off. i think by posting it in my blog it will be a little therapy for me. i LOVED my job and the people i worked with. Now i must move forward and think about the future. When one door is closed the other is opened......... Ciao to everyone, zelia : )

Wisconsin Winter

serveandobey — Tue, 01 Jan 2008 18:42:31 GMT

How easily i forget how cold a 10 degree day can feel....my daughter and i have been "home" visiting my folks in Good Old Green Bay, WI. It's amazing how different it is here every time i return. The town seems smaller and smaller w/ each visit. But what doesn't change are the people and how nice they are....most everyone is so polite and eager to wish you well. And everyone will gladly talk about the Packers with you. That is what i really like about this city. The sheer kindness of most people. In California you don't find that wide spread genorosity like you do in the midwest. Have a great 2008! Ciao! -zelia

Merry Christmas & Happy New Year

serveandobey — Mon, 24 Dec 2007 17:18:52 GMT

This has been a rollercoaster (a damn good one) over the past few months. And i can't wait to see what 2008 will bring. 2008 is going to be filled w/ all sorts of changes for me......New Job, New Life, New Home (where ever that may be)..............Cheers. Be Safe everyone where ever you are headed, and thank you all for the acceptance i have always needed. Ciao, zelia