I'm mellowing at my place before taking on the new bookshelf project. (My home is getting more organized and homey everyday!). I just examined what I thought was my latest breakout, but realized that row of three swollen red bumps on my jawline are not zits at all, I wish I could find the villainous spider who did this, biting me means certain death.

I have determined not to attend Raqs America, this weekend. On one hand I'd like to support some of the artists there, on the other, I feel the need to be a little more particular about where I spend my pennies and I know that as much as I love Ansuya and Bozenka, I don't think either is the direction I want to go with my own dancing. I was considering doing the audition, just for kicks, but I know I don't want to be a BDSS right now, even if they did want me, so why waste their time? Also, if they didn't want me, I think I'd feel a little hurt. I'm a damn good dancer and it would just feed on my insecurities (was I too fat? Did I let my posture go? was my choreography poopy?) , I'm not sure I want that this week. I would hit the show, but I well I let it slide because of a stupid thing. Lets just say I get reminded every so often that even if I've become capable and fairly accomplished at my dancing at some level, I'm not generally considered a big belly dance star. I'm always trying to remind myself that I've got to respect where I'm at now, I've done a hell of a lot with this dance and even if I don't have the big name and I can always see ways to improve, I like where I'm at now and I know I have something to offer.

on another random note - two most interesting things I've watched this year Dexter - so very dark, but strangely thought provoking and the Graduate - hilarious in a very strange, strange way. Strange is the key word for many of my most liked visual entertainments.

Art is happening in my life and I am sooooooooooo excited for the upcoming school year. I hope I can continue on to get my masters, because for the first time in my life, I really love school. I love MICA. Just give me a studio and other creative people to hang out with and you've got me happy. And the best part - a local husband. (those of you who know me well know what I mean.)

that's it for the random blog. I've also attached a random computer photo from when I was first messing with my machine and realized, hey there is a camera there that takes immensely unflattering photos. ooooh!

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