bad behavior

for me its easy to fall back into unempowering thinking patterns
sometime these patterns manifest because of places i go trigger something in my head when i absorb
the leftover psychic energy of places i visit often. since obsessing on negative shit is titalating or some shit to me.
i recapitulate the strong psychic leftover enrgy and fall back into same patterns.
the mind is sofisticated and it takes lots of creativity of creating a shift that can convince your mind of a technique that really works.
forcing yourself to think a certain way works if the timing is right. but as i have notice with myslef it takes time and creativity and a kind of gnostic state that doesnt come from a forceful place but mostly from a place that instinctively knows the answer to the problem.like i have heard someone say ""it has to come to you organiclly""
the mind is so delicate and it seems like the jedi teaching by yoda is true with enrgy manipulation . ""use the force gently"" or something to that affect. also related to lucid dreaming. strong arousal can cause you to wake up.

Caffine induced psychosis gnosis

i rarley drink coffee cuz when i was going crazy it had a bad effect on me. now that im feeling better these days my atomic bomb kundalini is somewhat under control. i drank a mocha in the morning on new years eve morning and i was on a very delicate balance of psychosis and gnosis. i had to be very carefull to not fall into the unempowering part of the psychosis and not ruining my gnosis by overanalyzing it breaking the trance.

it was a cool and sofisticated process i was able to hold my psychosis gnosis for about 14 hours with out many breaks . i was difinetly in the zone that day. i gotta be careful with chemicals they can make you and break you and usually both in one day.

magick starts with the mind

i have been holding on to too many unempowering beliefs. time to take that garbage out . time to empower and stop the self sabotage. fuck feeling special in ways that are unempowering. my brain is in hell but at the same time im blessed. i am loved, i have a home, i have good health, i am not hungry but at the same time id rather fixate on the negative sometimes. heaven is right here right in front of me and i dont even see it. time for me to wake up and take the garbage out. alchemy baby!!!

chaos nalgas on fire

burn my culo
burn my culo chaos
i wanna feel my asshole burning from energy hemmrooids of exctacy. i want a passionate kiss from the angel demon human magickal pop star. drag queen hippy warrior astral hero come and hold me down as i stare into your pure love energy and i wirthe in exctacy .my soul burning like a mutha fucking titty sucking star thats about to implode. i implode and explode i am a black hole i suck all your tits and cocks, while radiating such revelaing xrays that peneatrates every crack every crevice that is your mind.you are vulnerable. we are vulnerable.
be vulnerable to higher self and you will be a a magickal demon angel god goddess pop star for all the multiverse to see. like jesus christ kissing lepers. miracles. i kiss your virus infection lips and cure your disease. cuz the differencew between magickal demon angel god goddess pop stars and US is that they know "they can"!!!!! so bow down to the infinite blackhole redwarf star that holds a space for all alien distortion to disturb your bordome and tickle your magickal ribs with its interdimenional inspirational dildo of extacy.

trying something out

i need a change from super hero training. im going to give peace a chance. no more combat magick... for now.
im going to see what i can learn form being at peace with myself and with others. i have been doing this for almost a week and have felt a difference . i dont obsess as much about getting messed with. i just let that shit go and take care of myself in a more peaceful way. im not going to deny my violent super hero self im only giving some others energies a workout to see what happens.

pope john paul 2

my parents got a book on pope john paul II . the first time i saw it i wanted to draw an inverted pentagram on his forhead and hellfire all around him. he not an enlightended being .he a dogamtic person who doesnt empower people. the church has totally lost touch with jesus teachnings and think they know what god wants.

feeling like i gotta be fake

i was hanging out with family for chritsmas. my family is roman catholic. and they wanted me to go xmas day mass. i said no as usual . they said "te saca el diabolo" which means it will purge the devil out of you. and i wanted to say the devil is fine just where he is.