Here was a mess of a woman. But she embodied something more to me.

She was someone who when we first saw her was a gorgeous creature for us to gawk at. Then all too quickly her world unraveled in several ways and suddenly she was this oddball sideshow, incoherent and way overweight. Presenting the yin and yang many of us have faced. Then she seemed to beat it. Pulling herself together and regaining her world. Coming back from the ashes to suddenly be snuffed out.

I am perplexed and saddened by this. I guess I was rooting for her.