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"Food Panic"?

that's the first term that comes to mind when i think about how i've felt ever since i ended the Master Cleanse. i went 8 days, plus the usual 2-day ramp-back-up, but my body is being really weird with its cravings. the strangest of all is how much i want salt, and i mean *want*. and i have a strange compulsion to constantly be eating *something*. i don't think this is typical, but everyone's a little different so i'm not sure.

i'm not much up for sugar, and dairy just doesn't interest me -- i think both of those are typical reactions -- but soups and crackers are just the total shizz. so that's fine and all, it's just how often and intensely that i keep thinking about them that seems odd.

does anyone have any thoughts on this?

Master Cleanse, Round II, Days 5 'n 6

not much to say, actually. it's weird, because overall this doesn't seem to be very intense, except for the not-eating-willpower thingy. which is definitely tricky for me. oh, yeah. that, and the stomach tension. the daily saunas at Sacred Space have been doing wonders for the tension aspect of the cleanse. there's lots of lovely popping and gurging once i'm able to to totally release that abdominal musculature -- something it seems i'm not particularly used to releasing :) gotta say though ... i want chinese food. really. particularly the garlic fried rice that they make at the take-out place a couple blocks away. or maybe a vindaloo sauce with rice. or a fresh egg ramen soup with pork broth. i'll stop torturing myself now, yeah, i think i'll do that. Mick told me today to listen to my body -- true wisdom -- but my body seems to be saying a lot of different things all at once, so. Vajra suggested an herbal colonic, and i may very well do that, along with some Lactobacillus Acidophilus to keep all my precious inner bacteria in harmony. so many people with good suggestions!

Master Cleanse, Round II, Days 3 'n 4

the last two days have been sort of mirror images of each other. guess i have myself a good ritual down (well, except for the nightly blog post part of it). cleanse-wise, i'm showing signs of White Tongue Syndrome or whatever that toxic residue extrusion process thingy is. not too intense though. i'm also finding that without my whole food-churing responsibility, i have a much keener sense of my stomach tension and how it accrues over the course of the day. very interesting, and a great insight. i've been taking late evening steams over at Sacred Space which are really helping to increase my serenity. definitely a good thing.

Master Cleanse, Round II, Day 2

getting into the flow of the cleanse now. still, i really have to focus a little better on the ritual of drinking the juice. i believe a lot of folks are like me in that they won't stop for lunch or dinner if they've got momentum going in whatever is in front of them, eg. work or the like. but during a cleanse, the body is walking much closer to its functioning edge, so those put-off-the-food habits can be problematic. i'm sitting there today with my hands on the keyboard trying to keep myself awake long enough to finish a bug fix, knowing perfectly well that it was Time To Eat, but still putting it off, putting it off. not good -- gotta focus on the ritual. that's my little lesson going into tomorrow.

Master Cleanse, Round II, Day 1

started the Cleanse a day earlier than originally planned. Susan just finished her 10 days' worth last week, and two folks i ran into at Kezar during the Eagles game on Sunday were just starting theirs. serendipidous. so i figured i might as well start Monday. accepted job #2, quit job #1 (which turns #2 into #1), survived another day of work, did my Kundalini with Molita, and dropped in on Hallie's improv gathering. full day, packed to the brim. and somehow i managed not to succumb to the comfort food that i so desperately crave right now