Stuff I might tell you about

wow... I haven't been onTribe for a very long time... snd some burning man stuff...

spankybrc — Thu, 21 Aug 2008 07:09:27 GMT

An update... easier to do this way than send you all individual messages... Things are great! Chocolate and I are living together and very happy! I've been busy working and being domestic. Got the belly pooch to prove it! I've missed staying in the loop with everyone, and sorry if I've missed important events. Happy belated bday Diva!! Have been quite busy the past couple of weeks getting ready for burning man. We splurged and got an RV this year... yay! We'll be at Big Puffy Yellow... at 7:00 and Allante. Please come by and find me. I'll have my best spanking implements and a St Andrews Cross with me should you like a little spanking... he he. We're having our 3rd annual 4:20 party on Thursday, will be a good party!! I will come find some of you. Let me know if you've changed camps. I'm sure to hit Dustfish, Spikes, Red nose peeps and definitely Lamplighters. Sigh. If you see a unimog coming towards you blasting kick ass shit... it's me and my BPYers. We're leaving tomorrow eve... doing setup. Miss you all. Hope to see a lot of you on the playa!! Love and dust~ ~Spanky

OK... I'll play out of curiousity... UNO

spankybrc — Fri, 27 Apr 2007 03:45:05 GMT

You know how this works - please leave a one-word comment that you think best describes me -- it can only be one word long. Then copy and paste this in your journal so that I may leave a word about you.

Cell phones sometimes suck...

spankybrc — Wed, 25 Apr 2007 02:47:52 GMT

ok... it happened again. My cellphone died yesterday. It miraculously came back to life, but I lost ALL my friends phone numbers! Would you be so kind and PM me your numbers?? I feel a little lost at not having YOUR numbers so I can keep in touch. Thanks!

Life is Beautiful...

spankybrc — Tue, 13 Feb 2007 01:33:20 GMT

K... I've been drunk for the past 3 days. It's been fun and eye opening. Things are looking up for Spanky. I had a job interview today that I really wanted to nail.... and I did! Starting in March I'll be working at AT&T Park!! I'm going to be a concessions manager. Cool shit. And I got a call today for an interview for a job at a very well known fetish store. I've got a temp job packing up BM tickets, and in 2 weeks I start working on floats for the Chinese New Year Parade. When it rains it pours. And I just might be in love.... holy fucking shit! And how was your weekend??

It's Christmas Day... BAH HUMBUG!

spankybrc — Mon, 25 Dec 2006 23:38:00 GMT

Yep.. Christmas day and I'm alone and bored as fuck. And broke as fuck. Anything going on a poor girl can go to? Could go to Nimby, but no transportation or money for alcohol. Like I said... BAH HUMBUG!

Spanky Lands On Her Feet...

spankybrc — Sat, 14 Oct 2006 00:40:25 GMT

... must be the Leo in me. That and the survivor instinct comes out in full force when I'm down. Anyway... Things are looking up for me!! I'm still barely scraping by, but I feel I'm on the threshold of a truly amazing chapter in my life... feels like something big is on the horizon... :) I'm still in a temp living situation, and am looking for a more permanent place to call home. Ideally, I'd LOVE to find a wearhouse/loft-type kinda place... something with creative/crazy people, but a bedroom and a place to shower and stuff are really my only requirements. Anyone know of anything?? I do need to find something in the next week, and can spend $400-$600 a month... and have cash in the bank!! Please let me know if any of you crazy Tribe people know or hear of anything. Spank you very much!!

Can I just say...

spankybrc — Mon, 02 Oct 2006 07:16:45 GMT

I'm in a piss poor mood. Been drinking wine and crying and lamenting the past year of my life, and what the future will bring. But what I REALLY want to say is THANK YOU to all my Tribe friends. You make me think and laugh and cry and smile and realize even though we're not all in the same city or country, and we're not all 'best buds', we're all connected somehow, and I don't feel so all alone. Thank you all for just being yourselves. Fucking whacked bunch of crazy fucks... :P

Impromptu Leo Party Tomorrow Night...

spankybrc — Tue, 08 Aug 2006 02:07:17 GMT

Yeah.. I'm getting old.. it's my bday tomorrow, 8/8, and I want to party!! Calling all Leos, and those who love us, and/or just tolerate us! I know many of you are Leos, and just had a bday, or have one coming up, so let's celebrate!! Drunken Monkeys at the Cat Club seems like the appropriate spot.... 10pmish. Come drink!

A Narrow Escape... EVERYONE IN SF PLEASE READ!

spankybrc — Fri, 04 Aug 2006 23:25:02 GMT

Please be very careful in SOMA!! After what happened to me last night, and the fact that a friend was mugged on her way to DeathGuild last Monday, and Hans getting beat up, I feel the need to post this. Maybe as a warning, but mostly to tell everyone to be very, very careful out there. I'll try to keep it brief... I ventured out around 11:30 last night, heading to Mars Bar to give my love and support to Big Dolla from The Fringe. While waiting on 8th and Market for the #19 to take me down to Brannan, I noticed a guy checking me out. He was looking at me for about 10 minutes, then walked by and said hello. I glanced at him and gave him half a smile to be polite. My gut told me to not be friendly to him, even though he looked normal enough. I watched him walk halfway down the block, then come back to wait for the bus. I avoided eye contact, cuz I really didn't feel like being flirted with, or hit on by this guy. I got on the bus, he got on and sat directly behind me. After a few blocks he moved to the seat directly across from me. I felt really uneasy and hoped he was not getting off at my stop. He rang the bell to get off on Brannan, so I decided to get off on the next block. I got off on Townsend, and walked towards 7th street, being aware of my surroundings, and that no one else was walking on the street. I looked behind me just before turning to walk up 7th, nope, no one behind me, one more block and I'm there. I thought I should cross the street, cuz the streetlights were on that side, but I felt pretty safe as the brick building next to me seemed to have no where for anyone to hide and jump out at me, besides the building was kinda cool at night. I got halfway up the block and thought I should check behind me. That mother fucking guy from the bus stop was about 5 feet behind me!! I realized this could be a really bad situation and and bolted into the street yelling at him as loud as I could.. 'why are you fucking following me mother fucker?' He said cause he though I was beautiful. He started following me across the street, and yelled at him again and told him to get the fuck away from me! Just then a taxi turned up 7th, and I tried to flag him down. The taxi had to stop, cuz I was in it's way waving at it. The creep said he was sorry and turned around and walked really fast into a parking lot for the brick building. The taxi had a fare, and kept going. Another car came up 7th and drove slowly past. I think the driver saw me in the middle of the street and wanted to make sure I was ok... or not a crazy person. I made a beeline to Mars Bar... shaking like a leaf, worrying that guy was going to follow me in there. I was inside, safe, but really freaked out. I kept checking the windows to make sure he wasn't outside, watching me or waiting for me. I told Bill what happened, sorry to rant Bill, but I was scared, and thanks for the drinks.. it helped, and calmed down. I didn't see the guy as I left an hour later to head back to Lower Haight, but I was still a bit freaked out over the whole thing. I realize I shouldn't have been walking alone down there, but I didn't have money for a Taxi, and I'm pretty confident and ALWAYS aware of my surroundings. I do think the guy followed me, and who knows what his intentions were, and it scared the shit out of me! I'm shaking while I'm writing this. I know this could happen anywhere, and you can never be too careful. I'm sharing this to tell everryone PLEASE BE CAREFUL!! DON'T WALK ALONE! Even if it's only a block or two!! From the bus to the Bar was TWO BLOCKS! I thougth I was safe... I wasn't! Thanks for reading, I feel a little better talking about it.

OK... I have to say ....

spankybrc — Sun, 04 Jun 2006 13:45:54 GMT

That Flambe Lounge kicked ass!! WoW! I don't know where to begin. I LOVE my Fringe Family... I am so honored to be a part of you. You guys and gals make me dance like I've never danced before.... and to think I'm just an old rocker chick. Your music has really lifted me to new heights. I can't even find the right words right now, just know I adore you all. Thank you for taking me in and letting me be a part of this amazing thing you call the Fringe. I got to meet Ethan Miller!!! He's been the king of my intro into breaks... fuck... K... I'll be quiet now.... maybe. DUSTFISH... you heathens... I love you too. I love that you really don't do much but just be yourselves... such a refeshing pause in life... I'm a happy girl rigfht now... Thank you

I got to spin fire for the first time!!

spankybrc — Wed, 03 May 2006 08:17:11 GMT

WOW! The adrenaline is running through me, and I feel more alive than ever! Spinning fire is everything I imagined, and much more than I thought! Two firey orbs spinning by your head, behind your back, under your control... the sound alone is intimidating... but at the same time it's empowering. I was scared at first... scared I would hit myself and catch myself on fire, my knees were shaking, but inside I was screaming with delight that I was realizing my dream of spinning fire! As my confidence built, the shaking got a little less apparent, and I let loose with a couple of small moves. Then I thought what the fuck... I'm going for it and did the weave.. yeah small beans for you pros, but it was quite an accomplishment for me! I even did a couple of weave turns, bobbled a little, caught myself and did it right the second and third time. I lasted til they went out, spinning my heart out while blue flames blazed around me. As my giddyness fades, my smile does not. I keep pulling my wicks out of their socks, feeling them and smelling them. No they don't smell like socks, but of the fuel that lit them, and the fuel that lit my dream. And the giddyness wells in me again, so do the tears in my eyes. If I can do this, I can do anything...

I lost my cell phone...

spankybrc — Sat, 24 Dec 2005 04:01:04 GMT

Yep.. that's right. After all the other shit going on this week, I lost my fucking phone! Got a new cheesy one yesterday. My number is the same... YAY!! Anyway, would those I know really well, those I know kinda well, and those I just barely know PLEASE email me privately with your phone numbers?? I promise I'll call and wish you Happy Holidaze! Thanks!

I had the most amazing day...

spankybrc — Fri, 23 Dec 2005 08:34:37 GMT

Just a follow up to my fuck up a couple nights ago... We talked. We listened to each other. Came to the conclusion that nothing will get in the way of what we truly feel for each other. I'll keep my drinking in check for him, he'll keep his shit in check for me. Went for sushi, ate to our hearts content. Then to Twin Peaks.. that's where the magic happened... something about that place that the tourists just can't steal. It was completely fogged over. Couldn't see a damn thing. So we fogged up the windows til we were happy. And Lo and Behold, the City had cleared. No fog, just luminescent lights everywhere. We heard a song that reminded us of past good times, then he made up our own song... we sang it together... new good times. Fucking Cowboy. And the icing?? Seeing a fire spinner on top of Sutro Hill. Silent with it's flames, burning brightly into my heart... just as he does. He'll never get that, but it's ok. He knows he's already there, and I know I'm in his. That's what matters. I wish you all peace and Love and hoping you have what you want and need. I know I do, tumultuous as it been, but worth it. If you don't have it now, I hope it comes to you in 2006. *hugs and smooches* Spankythang

My heart has been ripped out of it's sockets yet again...

spankybrc — Wed, 21 Dec 2005 07:33:15 GMT

I Love him sooo incredibly much, but I fear, it's not enough. For you see, I am an alcoholic and it gets in the way. Not that he's perfect, but he is the One I wish I could spend forever with, but my drinking has messed it all up. Need more wine... BRB... Yeah, I'm fucked up now, and he's left me again. He totally consumes me, and perhaps I should learn from that, but I've yet to know anyone who dared to try to know me... completely... but him. He is the fire that awakens my soul. The person that makes me think about what it is I am doing. He is my light, and now my darkness. He makes me laugh without being worried about who will see I am laughing, He has been my joy, my Love, my hope in all that is good and right, and now that I drink myself silly, I think he's better off without me. It hurts. But I've done this my entire adult life. I shun those who try to get close. Fuck those up who really get close, and those who think they know me... well you really don't cuz I talk a lot through my alcohol. I'm done with that. I lost my soulmate tonight. I'm gonna go drink it off now. I learned a lot tonight. Cheers. See you on the other side... As I type through tears, please be true to yourselves, and remember nothing is forever. Even if they tell you so.

What's up for Turkey Day??

spankybrc — Sun, 20 Nov 2005 04:42:50 GMT

I found out today that I don't have to work Thanksgiving Day! I haven't had it off for 5-6 years now... damn hospitality industry, but oh I love time and a half! Anyway, I have a 15-pound turkey in my freezer as a bonus from my new job, and no one to share it with. My apartment is too small for me to put something together, so... anyone having a get together? If you invite me, I'll bring my turkey. I'll even cook it! Stuffing too! If ya'll are too busy with family stuff that's cool, I'll donate it to Glide.

I've come to the conclusion...

spankybrc — Tue, 15 Nov 2005 23:04:48 GMT

That you can only help someone so much. No matter how much your heart and soul is in it, some people resist help out of pride, stubborness, or whatever other reasons or excuses they come up with. What's up with that? Also, I've realized I can't take being put down. Even though I know the words are being said just because it makes that person feel better(whether they realize it or not), or more superior, I can only take so much. I'm done with that! It's a gorgeous day here in SF. Going to enjoy my day off and walk the pooch down to the Civic Center to check out the installing of Flock.

Looking for something fun and cheap to do tonight?

spankybrc — Sat, 05 Nov 2005 00:59:13 GMT

It's for a good cause, and OPEN BAR 10-11pm! I'll be here: Hey, here's a fun benefit *tonight* with a great DJ lineup, serving two good causes: The Red Cross and our very own Joe the Builder, who does an incredible amount of work setting up Center Camp Cafe at Black Rock City every year. C'mon down and shake yer butt! )'( )'( )'( )'( )'( )'( )'( )'( )'( )'( )'( )'( As you may know, Joe the Builder had a crash on his motorcycle the week after the Burn. The crash put his left arm out of commission for a number months and thereby took him out of work for a good while. So, let's party to help him out! When: THIS FRIDAY, NOVEMBER 4th, 10p-4a. With an OPEN BAR FROM 10-11pm. Yes, an OPEN BAR. Yikes! Where: MIGHTY 119 UTAH St. SF. What: Hosted by the Fabulous DJ Laird, This benefit is a double duty good cause as proceeds generated will be split 50/50 between The Red Cross and Joe the Builder These fantastic DJ's are donating their time to make our evening: Smoove-Space Cowboys, Adnan-Forward/LUSH, LAIRD-GetYER Freak On!, ViaJay-Friends & Family, Majitope-Lowpro, Kepi & Kat-Sound of Mine, J-Flea-LUSH, Ms. Throwdown-Kickbal Love Manifesto and Satsi-LUSH. PLUS an OPEN BAR from 10-11p!! Tix/How Much: $5-$20 Donation Limited $5 Advance Tix at mighty119.com (this includes yet another free drink.) So come and have great time and we'll throwdown for two good reasons at once! )'( )'( )'( )'( )'( )'( )'( )'( )'( )'( )'( )'(

Do you believe in ghosts??

spankybrc — Thu, 27 Oct 2005 19:23:42 GMT

After seeing this, I'm more inclined to think they really are out there. Check it out... http://duelingpianosconsulting.com/html/ghost_by_car.html

Has anyone else seen Le Miz the movie?

spankybrc — Thu, 27 Oct 2005 09:57:21 GMT

I just watched it. Got me to thinking what's truly important in life. Integrity, honesty, and most importantly, being true to yourself, no matter the circumstances. I'm glad I watched it. Now to go see it again onstage.

About last night...

spankybrc — Mon, 17 Oct 2005 08:21:12 GMT

OK.. I have to say the Nimby party last night will go down in history as one of the BEST PARTIES EVER! My swollen ankle and bruises say so. Who's idea was it to jump that chain link fence? Ahh.. the freaks and ghouls and clowns and FIRE. And DPW... Someone please tell me who did the art and fire on the back stage. I was mezmerized by the cauldron. If that's what it's called. That flame was incredibly beautiful... and perfect. It's burned into my memory. Thank you. Spaz... thank you for taking me to that sweet little perch. Hope your surgery goes well tomorrow. Send me a note and let me know where you're at.. I'd love to come visit if you're up for visitors. Special thanks to the angel in the purple coat. I found the photo boof pics in my coat pocket just now. Still smiling... Diva Diva Diva... Goddess, Angel, Giver of all Things Good. Oh darlin... I bow to you. Thank you. Samhain.. wouldn't miss it for anything. Most importantly... Dak.. thank you for taking me. I want to make you your favorite breakfast, and much, much more. Sounds like a fucking acceptance speech. Thank you Nimby for a most amazing night. ~Spanky clear

I am so happy at this moment

spankybrc — Fri, 14 Oct 2005 11:08:51 GMT

Ya know.... life throws us some serious shit. We cope, or try to, and then we move on. I am very happy with my life right now. I was walking my dog today, was thinking about how happy i am to be living in SF, heard the Muni cables doing their clanky thing, walked by this really cool record store in my hood... I could only smile thinking how lucky I am to live HERE. It's fucking expensive as shit.... but worth every penny. SIGH I smile cuz I love you all, and most of you love me back.... dang it feels good... I think I'm homesick. I'll shut up now. Thank you. smooches and hugs to you and yours. ~drunkenSpankythang

Cant sleep...

spankybrc — Mon, 10 Oct 2005 15:05:09 GMT

Woke up at 6am, almost all my clothes on, contacts still in. I Blink and look around the room... still dark.. thank you. I stumble out of bed, and look to make sure I didn't leave anything in the park or the taxi. Keys, purse, smokes, zebra coat... everything's here. whew. Zebra coat looks warm... I take off what's left of what I wore last night and put on the coat. Feels nice. Oh I had fun at decom... always do. Lamplighters rock, everyone else sucks ass... except Spike's, and DPW, and Diva, and Topless Deb and naked Bruce, and Noah Count... oh.. and Veruca, yeah and Maric too... damn drunkard. I turn on the lamp I found at the flea market. LOVE the flames... thank you Brad. Check email, see who's on. I download a couple pics I took last night. Why didn't I get one of Diva? Damn she looked hot... always does. Gotta take the pooch out. I change into clothes I can wear outside... I look in the mirror... someone's been chewing on my neck... wonder who... *snicker to myself*... feels good. Hope it lasts a few days. Can't wait to get back into my zebra coat. Outside is brisk but beautiful. The sun's coming up and it's relatively quiet. The girl does her business.. I can go back inside and change back into my coat. I feed my dog and think of Ksea... sigh. Wish I could just hold him for a while. I find a beer in the fridge... ahh... maybe that'll help me get back to sleep. Then I come here and start typing.. shouldn't do this, but I feel the need to write... it's been soooo long, so much to say. But who cares? It's really just for me anyway. I'll go back to sleep, wake up and read this, then kick myself for posting it. Fuck it. The beer is good, the City's waking up and I should stop this useless dribble. Oh I love my friends... old and new. I rub the sore spot on my neck... wonder if he'll remember doing that. I've come to the conclusion that I love fire... always have I think. Could be the why I'm so drawn to Burning Man. Fucking pyros. I used to light grass fires when I was a kid, nothing major, always put it out with my feet. I think I'm still drunk. Damn Spike's... happens everytime. More please. Think what you want... I don't care. I love you all...

I kidnapped Cookie Monster last night..

spankybrc — Sun, 18 Sep 2005 21:39:13 GMT

Went to see Cookie Mongoloid at Thee Parkside last night. Afterward, he was outside with a bunch of people. I enticed him with cookies into my friend's truck. Then we kidnapped him and drove around. Sad to say, I had to let him go. Damn, gotta get better at kidnapping.. :P