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To wake in this mind everyday
cluttered here, such waste
amok thoughts run rampant...
paranoia of my refrigerator,
my microwave, my government
and people are holograms
with what light will I see them?
Terrifying darkness
encompasses my inner self
and the quest for knowledge
only leads to answers of grave natures
and so the darkness continues to feed
Spiraling madness
Reigning walls of silence in the cacophony of conversations
Asthetics ruling everything
underlying mathematics to each
decaying pieces of matter
slowly seeds of doubt creep
the empty glass overturned on the floor
the remnants of a once hot fire
and the gentle sound of music fades
Sleep, wake, sleep, wake
and I sleeping or am I awake?
Which reality is the most reliable?
Damn more questions.computations.
manipulations.segregations.
It is enough to drive one to be a crazy bitch
! Vaudeville,
! Buskers and circle acts,
! Cabaret,
! Jugglers,
! Stiltdancers,
!! BLOW SH!T UP,
< Stilt Dancers L.A. >,
* JUXTAPOZ *,
***urban_wall_art***,
**BURNING SENSATION-The Headless Benefit,
...::DuctTapeCreatives::...,
8mm,
Acid Cabaret,
Alan Moore,
Amateur Cartoonists,
Ambidextrous Art,
APSARA,
Arcata,
Art//Life,
Artists for Revolution,
...
Brothers Quay, so much inspiration...
10/05--This shit is cool around you!
No More Cocoons ~Jello Biafra
People should not fear their government, governments should fear their people. ~V
Hakim Bey
(For Konrad and Marie)
For a start, it would help if we could speak about nets rather than The Net. Only the most extropian true believers in the Net still dream of it as the final solution. More realistic thinkers have rejected cyber-soteriology, but accept the Net as a viable tool (or weapon). They would agree that other nets must be set up and maintained simultaneously with "the" Net---otherwise it becomes just another medium of alienation, more engrossing than TV, maybe, but thereby even more total in entrancement.
The other nets of course include---first and foremost---patterns of conviviality and of communicativeness. I borrow this word from 19th-century phrenology---apparently there's a bump of communicativeness somewhere on the skull---but I use it to mean something like Bakhtin's "dialogue" transposed to the register of the social; whereas conviviality implies physical presence, communicativeness can also include other media as well. But---as hermeticism teaches us---the positive act of communicating meaning, whether face-to-face (and even without speech), or symbolically mediated (by text, image, etc.), is always confronted by its negativity. Not all "communication" communicates, map is not territory, and so on. "Interactive programs" in themselves convey no meaning between living beings but, in fact, no medium is privileged or completely open. As Blake might have said, every medium has its form and its spectre.
What we need, then, is a Blakean "spectral analysis" of the Net. A "Fourier analysis" would also be useful (not Fourier the mathematician, Fourier the Utopian Socialist). But these philosophers were true hermeticists, while we can only heap up a few shards against the whatever.
The implied question:---does the Net further the purpose of communicativeness, and can it be used as a tool to "maximize the potential of the emergence" of convivial situations? Or does there exist a "paradoxical counterproductive effect" (as Illich would say)? In other words: the sociology of institutions shows that certain systems (e.g. education, medicine) attain a monopolistic rigidity and begin to produce the opposite of their intended effect (education stupefies, medicine sickens). Media can also be analyzed in this way. The mass media, considered as a paradoxical entity, has approached the limit of total image-enclosure---a crisis of the stasis of the image---and of the complete disappearance of communicativeness. The unique structure of the InterNet was considered to be its "many-to-many" patterns, the implication being the possibility of an electronic popular democracy. The Net is an institution, at least in the loose sense of the word. Does it serve its "original" purpose, or is there a paradoxical counter-effect?
Another original pattern within the Net is its centerlessness (its "military" heritage); this has launched the Net into a kind of war with governments. The Net "crosses borders" like a virus. But in this way the Net shares certain qualities with, say, transnational corporations ("zaibatsus")---and with nomadic Capital itself. "Nomadism" has its own form and spectre. As the Five Per Cent Nation of Islam puts it, "not every brother is a brother." Molecularity is a tactic that can be used for or against our autonomy. It pays to be informed. And we can be sure that Global Intelligence pays well for its information;---certainly the Net is by now completely penetrated by surveillance...every bit of E-mail is a postcard to God....
Everyone's favorite examples of imaginative insurrectionary use of the Net---the McLibel Case, the Scientology Case, and above all the Zapatistas---prove that the centerless many-to-many structure has real potential. [McDonald's won the battle but seems to be losing the war---franchises are down 50%!] Luddites who deny this are simply making themselves look uninformed---and badly disposed toward good causes. The original Luddites were no indiscriminate machine-smashers---they intended to defend their hand-looms and home labor against mechanization and factory centralization. Everything depends on situation, and technology is only one factor in a complex and many-valued situation. Exactly what is it here that needs to be smashed?
Global Capital openly embraces the Net because the Net seems to have the same structure as Global Capital. It proclaims the Net as the Future Now, and protects the netizens from these bad old governments. Why, the Net is the very paradigm of a Free Market, no? A Libertarian's dream. But secretly Global Capital [pardon the pathetic fallacy----gosh, I just can't help reifying Capital...]... secretly, Global Capital must be worried sick. Billions of "start up" dollars have been sunk into the Net, but the Net seems to act like an eclipsed body:---there's some penumbral effect, but the planet is black. Or even a black hole. After all, Hawking proved that even black holes produce a tiny bit of energy---a few million bucks maybe. But essentially there is no money in the Net, and no money coming out of it. It seems the Net can act metaphorically as a "street market" to some extent (possibly to a much greater extent that it does)---but it has failed to develop into a Big Market. The WWW doesn't seem to help much in this respect. "Virtual Reality" is beginning to look like yet another lost future. IntraNets, point-casting (push), and "interactive television" are the strategies proposed by the Zaibatsus for colonizing what's left of the Net. E-cash doesn't seem to be catching on.
Meanwhile the Net takes on an aspect not only of disembodied street fair but also psychic slum. Predatory avatars---disinformationists---slave-labor data-entry in US prisons---cyberrape (violation of the data body)---invisible surveillance---waves of panic (K-porn, Nazis-on-the-Net, etc.)---massive invasion of privacy---advertisements---all manner of psychic pollution. Not to mention the possibility of bionic brainwashing, carpal tunnel syndrome, and the sinister all-gray-green presence of the machines themselves, like old sci-fi movie sets (future as bad design).
In fact, just as Gibson predicted, the Net is already virtually haunted. Web cemeteries for dead cyber-pets---false obituaries---Tim Leary still sending personal messages---ascended masters of Heaven's Gate---not to mention the already vast lost archaeology of the Net, its ARPA levels, old BBSs, forgotten languages, abandoned Webpages. In fact, as someone said at the last NETTIME conference in Ljubljana, the Net has already become a kind of romantic ruin. And here, at the most "spectral" level of our analysis, suddenly, the Net begins to look...interesting again. A bit of gothic horror. Seduction of the Cyber Zombies. Fin-de-millennium, hothouse flowers, laudanum.
However.
We live in a country where 1% of the population controls half the money---in a world where fewer than 400 people control half the money---where 94.2% of all the money refers only to money, and not to production of any kind (except of money);---a country with the highest per capita prison population in the world, where "security" is the only growth-industry (except for entertainment), where an insane war on drugs and the environment is conceived as the last valid function of government;---a world of ecocide, agribusiness, deforestation, murder of indigenous peoples, bioengineering, forced labor---a world built on the assumption that maximum profit for 500 companies is the best plan for humanity---a world in which the total image has absorbed and suffocated the voices and minds of every speaker---in which the image of exchange has taken the place of all human relations.
Instead of bleating liberal platitudes about all this---or raising the disturbing question of "ethics"---let me simply comment as a Stirnerian anarchist (a point of view I still find useful after all these years):---since I presume to take the world as my oyster, I am personally at war with all the above "facts" because they violate my desires and deny me my pleasures. Therefore I seek alliances with other individuals (in a "union of self-owning-ones") who share my goals. For the leftwing Stirnerites the favored tactic was always the General Strike (the Sorelian myth). In response to Global Capital we need a new version of this myth that can include syndicalist structures but not be limited by them. The old enemy of the anarchists was always the State. We still have the State to worry about (police in the universal Mall), but clearly the real enemies are the zaibatsus and banks. (The biggest mistake in revolutionary history was the failure to seize the Bank in Paris, 1871.) In the very near future there is going to be "war" against the WTO/IMF/GATT structure of Global Capital --- a war of sheer desperation, waged by a worldfull of individuals and organic groups against corporations and "the money power" (i.e. money itself). Hopefully a peaceful war, like a big General Strike --- but realistically one should prepare for the worst. And what we need to know is, what can the InterNet do for us?
Obviously a good revolt needs good communication systems. Right now however I'd prefer to transmit my conspiratorial secrets (if I had any) through the Post Office rather that the Net. A really successful conspiracy leaves no paper trail, like the Libyan Revolution of 1969 (but then, phone-tapping was still fairly primitive then). Moreover, how could we be sure that what we saw on the Net was information and not disinformation? Especially if our organization existed only on the Net? Speaking as a Stirnerite, I don't want to banish spooks from my head only to find them again on my screen. Virtual street-fighter, virtual ruins. Sounds like a losing proposition.
Most disturbing for us would be the "gnostic" quality of the Net, its tendency toward exclusion of the body, its promise of technological transcendence of the flesh. Even if some people have "met through the Net", the general movement is toward atomization---"slumped alone in front of the screen". The "movement" today pays too much attention to media in general because power has virtually eluded us---and within the speculum of the Net its reflection mocks us. Net as substitute for conviviality and communicativeness. Net as bad religion. Part of the media-trance. The commodification of difference.
Aside from this criticism of the Net from the point of view of the Individual Sovereign we could also launch an analysis from a Fourierite position. Here instead of individuals we would consider the "series", the basic Passional group without which the single human remains incomplete---and the Phalanstery, or complete Series of Series (minimum 1620 members). But the goal remains the same:---grouping occurs to maximize pleasures or "luxury" for the members of the group, Passion being the only viable force for social cohesion. (In fact on this basis we might consider a "synthesis" of Stirner and Fourier, apparently polar opposites). For Fourier, Passion is by definition embodied; all "networking" is carried out via physical presence (although he allows carrier pigeons for communications between Phalansteries). As a number mystic, Fourier might well have enjoyed the computer---in fact he invented "computer dating" in a sense---but he would most certainly have disapproved of any technology that involved physical separation. (I believe it was Balzac who said that for Fourier the only sin was eating lunch alone.) Conviviality in the most literal sense---ideally, the orgy. "Passional Attraction" works because everyone has different Passions:---difference is already "luxury". The data body, the screenal body, is only metaphorically a body. The space between us---the "medium"---is meant to be filled with Aromal Rays, zodiacs of brilliant light (new colors!), profusions of fruit and flowers, the aromas of gastrosophic cuisine---and ultimately that space is meant to be closed, healed.
Another critique of the Net could be made from a Proudhonian perspective. (Proudhon was influenced by Fourier, though he pretended not to be. They were both from Bezançon, like Victor Hugo.) Proudhon was more "progressive" about technology than our other exemplars, and it would be interesting to see what kind of role he would design for the Net in his ideal future of Mutualism and anarcho-federation. For him "governance" was a matter of mere administration of production and exchange. Computers might prove to be useful tools under such conditions. But Proudhon as well as Marx would undoubtedly modify their optimist view of technology if they could be channeled today for their opinion:---machine as social pollution, technology itself (and by implication Work) as alienation. This argument was of course made by libertarian Marxists, Green anarchists, etc.---legitimate descendants of Marx and Proudhon, such as Marcuse or Illich. The InterNet cannot be fairly considered outside this critique of technology. (Neither can bioengineering.) The work of Benjamin, Debord, and even Baudrilliard (until he fell exhausted) makes it clear that the total image---"the media"---plays a central role in this critique. Proudhon would question the Net about justice, and about presence.
But I would prefer to focus more narrowly on the question of the image. Here we might return to Blake as our "philosophical hammer" (Nietzsche really meant a kind of tuning fork), since we are speaking of the idol, the image. I would argue that we are suffering from a crisis of overproduction of the image. We are, as Giordano Bruno put it, "in chains", entranced by the image. In such a case we need either a healthy dose of iconoclasm, or else (or also) a more subtle kind of hermetic criticism, a liberation from the image by the image. Actually, Blake supplied both---he was both an idol-smasher and simultaneously a hermeticist who used images for liberation, both political and spiritual. Hermeticists understand that the "hieroglyph", the image/text or mediated (symbolic) communication, has a "magical" effect, by-passing linear working rational consciousness and deeply influencing the psyche. This is why Blake says one must make one's own system or else be a slave to someone else's. The autonomy of the imagination is a high value for hermeticism---and the critique of the image is the defense of the imagination. The screen is an aspect of the image that cannot escape this "spectral analysis"---media as "satanic mills."
Ultimately it seems there's no escape from technology or alienation. Techné itself is prosthesis of consciousness, and thus inseparable from the human condition. (Language is included here as techné.) Technology as the obvious melding of techné and language (the ratio or "reason" of techné) has simply been a category of human existence since at least the Paleolithic. But---are we permitted to ask at what point the heart itself is to be replaced by an artificial limb? At what point does a given technology "flip" and begin producing paradoxical counterproductivity? If we could reach a consensus on this, would there still exist any reason to speak of technological determinism, or the machinic as fate? In this sense, the oldtime Luddites deserve some consideration. Techné must serve the human, not define the human.
We must (apparently) accept the inevitability of consciousness, but only on the condition that is not to be the same consciousness. We suspect that rational, machinic, linear, aufklaerung, universal consciousness has enjoyed too long a tyranny---or "monopoly". There's nothing wrong with reason (in fact we could use a lot more of it) but rationalism feels like a passé ideology. Reason must share space with other forms of consciousness:---entheogenic consciousness, or shamanic consciousness (which has nothing to do with "religion" as commonly defined)---bioconsciousness, the systemic awareness of the hermetic ideal of the living earth---cultural or ethnic consciousness, different ways of seeing---indigenous peoples---or the Celts---or Islam---"identity" consciousness of all sorts---and trans-identity consciousness. Variety of consciousness would seem to be the only possible ground for our ethics.
Well then, what about InterNet consciousness? It has its non-linear aspects, doesn't it? If there can exist a "rationality of the marvelous", is there not a place for Net mind at the feast?
In the end we must be content with ambiguity. A "pure" answer is impossible here---it would stink of ideology. Yes and no.
But---"Between Yes and No, stars fall from heaven and heads fly off at the neck", as the great sufi Shaykh Ibn Arabi told the Aristotelian philosopher Averöes.
A fitting image for a romantic ruin....
Hakim Bey
NYC
To the person in the bell jar, blank and stopped as a dead baby, the world itself is the bad dream. ~Sylvia Plath, The Bell Jar, Chapter 20

Everyone bitches about the wastoids, druggies, jailbait, stinkhippy, ungrateful,hillharvesters etc. etc. etc. that chose to spend money/energy/time in our community. We all want to complain about how horrible the freakin' police department is for shooting a crazy lady and a teenager. We want to vilify the Arkleys because their rich, the "hot cup" because it's not the same, Italian restaurants because of bad management, the war because people voted for Bush.
Wake the fuck up people! This community is founded on stinkhippies that were wasted on too many drugs when they moved here. They haven't changed, we have. Our drugs are better,more standardized and because the newer generation grew up on them they think that they are hipper to "more responsible" usage. ANY TIME you involve alcohol or drugs, the community runs the risk of a dangerous situation. Just because individuals feel like they can handle it doesn't make it true. For example, your wasted on whatever crap it is you chose to put into your body to feel like your having a good time is destroyed when someone else is not having such a good time or is out of control. You are then willing to say let's segregate/divide/exclude/not-provide for this profiled type of individual. That is the easy road, always blame it on someone else and create an exclusive environment where you and your friends can have a good time. Who is willing to stay sober and monitor another. Who is willing to stand and educate at the door about boundaries on drunkenness & out-of-control behavior. Who is willing to walk up to a situation knowing that in a few hours it could get ugly and engage the individual in conversation BEFORE it gets to that point. NO ONE/VERY FEW...you know why because it cuts into YOUR party time. So the next time just keep them all out, this is easier...NO GROWTH, NO EDUCATION...just exclusion.
NOBODY outside of her careproviders even knew who the "Eureka women" was or the plight of her medication cycles until a situation arose that ended in violence. If she was walking down the street talking to herself and asked you for help would you have stopped? Would you have listened? What was you stance on the last set of voting regarding free and discounted mental health care and aid with medication prices? Eureka PD failed a citizen in more ways then one, because a solution was in front of them that they chose not to use but have you ever been shot with a candlewatt flare gun that big? The community failed this women and thousands still around our county every day because so many citizens want to talk about community and then when the work comes decide that their lives are too complicated or busy.
And what about poor little Chris and his doting mother. Now he's a household name, the teenage boy that was murdered by EPD. All of its their fault. This kid spent years in institutional life...foster care, counseling, juvenile hall, continuation school. (AND THIS KID WAS SMART!) He was a product of a fucked up, drugged up, family life like I am sure some of you other people had...and you ask yourself how come you didn't turn out that way. Think deep in your heart and you'll more then likely find someone (at least one) person who took time with you and inspired you and changed your life. He was young and still searching and he was REALLY mad at the system and the cards dealt to him and no one could help him. CASAS and BIG BROTHER/BIG SISTER programs are always in need for cases like these...you will never know their names because instead of being shot by EPD they will melt away into the books of jails, institution, and death before you could catch their names. But it is all EPD's fault...maybe we should just exclude them....figure out a way to keep them out of our lives and away from our community events, that way we won't be affected by them and hey if they get shot by the EPD then we have someone else to vililfy.
The Arkleys spent a shitload of money to bring new art and music of a higher caliber here (and compete with the crappy corporate politics of Center Activities and HSU organization) which misuses, misrepresents, and abuses students and staff.
The hot cup is NOT muddy waters...so many of us cried the day that it opened. Tears of joy that the legend that brought us all together as a family was not to be completely torn down and forgotten and tears of sadness for everything we knew we were losing. I don't care what people say, I love you D...in spite of all your faults and maybe because of them. The magic that was MWCC provided my family and bitching for the loss of the physical presence is like complaining about a free steak being overcooked. So much has come and we don't know what is in store next.
and the italian restaurant???well i just don't like that place very much...
AND STOP PLEASE THINKING YOU VOTE FOR YOUR FUCKING PRESIDENT...IT IS CALLED THE ELECTORAL COLLEGE. GET EDUCATED...This use to be the way that senators were elected but one smart motherfucker started something and changed this...so now we do have the power again to vote for our senators. Change the electoral college on a presidential election and only then can you say something about who the fuck is in the White House...and until then vote in all local elections...they decide how much money the high school gets (you want the kids to be less ignorant right?), police monitoring, tax allotments. Here is where you vote counts...so don't mark your calendar for the big ones...remember the small ones...then maybe we can go after big ones. And if you don't vote then it is really time for you to shut the fuck up and not say anything political.
Instead of handing out marked invitations about who is special enough and solid enough to come to an event, throw an event and invite all the people that you know to be a stupid fuck and let's have a night of education. How to be considerate on the dance floor, what is appropriate with a person you don't know, conflict resolution, when too much is too much... Instead of vilifying the police who do a job that you cannot do, attend meetings to budget committees for more training, advocate for First Response teams and specialized units. Instead of judging the people around you that don't do what you want them to do with their money, convince them that your idea can benefit them and the community.
A community is built not just through trust and love...communication, education, support, & sacrifices need to happen as well. So much goes so right in this community! I am constantly surrounded by amazingly talented and beautiful people who are amazing talented and beautiful to each other. Now more then ever is the time to extend that talent and beauty to the ones that need it...the ones you hate to see at your party, the ones you hate to see when walking down the street, and all the other times we all practice exclusivity. Now more then ever we should work towards implementing ideas that revolve around radical inclusiveness. I have already tried to change my own behavior. I hope that you do too.
Sat, November 25, 2006 - 11:29 PM
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I love my friends...I feel so lucky to have so many talented and beautiful people in my life. (Don't tell no one I said that!)
Sat, November 18, 2006 - 2:09 AM
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the compelling urge to scream out at everybody that wonders into my field of vision lends credibility to my craziness. If i could just find the right words, the right moment maybe i could change the perspective. to think of the catastrophic waste of thought and our dehabilitating need for status quo. i hate "how are you" and empty hugs hello. our thoughts are no longer precursors for our actions. our actions have become meaningless and no longer individualistic and belonging to ourselves. we are taught to think a certain way, look a certain way, to be a certain way. what is so certain about being? suffocating individualism, stealing it's very breath and do we mourn as our collective spirit is left to die? we are like a herd of animals not understanding the slaughterhouse. we allow ourselves to be molded into these things that believe what we read and be distracted by silly things. passivity is not only normal but reveled. sacred space requires work, sacrifice and immediatism and from it you gain power unimaginable. but this is too much for people. just step forward.
my thoughts daily lacerate my brain and even when i try i can't stop it it makes me want to scream at everything that passes me by not thinking. empty nights of drama ladened happiness is not for me. i need peace. no more empty hugs and hellos for me, i'm too angry.
Mon, November 13, 2006 - 3:53 PM
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I see a vision of us
your hand in mind
while we walk the moors
of distant England.
We are pilgrims
I see friends, family
waving goodbye
as we board the airplane.
White thule and aftershave
crammed into red and blue
backpacks.
We only bring the essentials
you and I
and only bring memories
in our minds.
Verdant green hills
where rain washes
soil and seeds in endless
erosion and rebirth.
Sipping dark beer on dark nights
our cigarettes leave liquid trails
in the midnight flood.
Dew like liquor coats our skin
rubbing arms in the chill.
Your hand on mine
my hand on your thigh
We sit in silence.
Full with a good meal
and drunk on each other.
We stow our gear at an inn
and explore what the town
has to offer.
And we know that we will laugh
too loud at our own jokes
and sit too close at the bar.
Knees touching on the stools
your shoulder on my chest
my arm over your back
sitting lightly on you waist.
The barman chuckles
to himself at our accents
and our need for each other
and refills our glasses.
Out again into the day
each new smell
meeting our noses for the first time
at the same time.
and the bakeries and butcher shops
seem inviting
as if we have never seen anything
like it before.
I wake each day
as if in a dream
your form to vanish too soon
and I touch your back lightly
so not to wake you.
Face pressed against pillow
mouth pouting in slumber
I know that you
are real enough
for me.
righteousness is easy
in the hands of one with no temptations
ease of deliberance in thought
without any fight
the lies one tells themselves
are seen in the morning mirror
reflections can drive a sane one mad.
hanging precariously on a limb
feeling stupid
the positions I put myself within
blinded eyes
tell not of stories and lies
solitude glistens with its simplicity
bitterness my new found friend
comes with hesitance
to think my mind rests here
staples of my life
validation of my breath
hoping for the coming of the fear
four white walls
medicinal to my mind
lack of outside contact
reasoning time
too much input...disruption....no balance
I can feel myself slipping again.
the moisture gathers
on the outside of my glass
so I sip
and I swallow myself again
She is penetrated and changed
by her heart
her longing hidden behind
blankets and pillows
Blistering coals have taken the fire
from the lines in her face
smoothing alabaster hardens her skin
taut as a ripcord
free fall from the safety
net of isolation
She has carried darkness
for so long it is not a burden
but a comfort and now hope
seems a menacing spectre
from childhood and streets
eat garbage and need
He comes and is changed
stranger and friend
entering the hallows of her truth
without fear or malice
ecstasy opens folds in her tapestry
golden cords unravel and reweave
her fledgling possibilities
Her fear is outweighed by her curosity
and her body tenses in the inevitable
void that comes next
Pneumatic intensity throbs at the temples
burrowing under walls and passages
unexplored
Release fills a sodden pool
cobalt pond of Eros
softening the tundra of pain
warming bliss
She knows she is she
and he is someone else
meeting by chance and returning
to the air
blood meets skin
as the last of her will melts
dripping into him breaking
the chains of solitude.
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