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SV~

joined on 07/18/04
last updated 10/10/09
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what people love about me

April 18, 2008
when i think of how lucky i am to have you in my life, it moves me to tears.

i love you so much.

have i told you lately how grateful i am to have you in my life?
January 16, 2008
When (if) I grow up, I want to be just like SV. Full of common sense and practical knowledge of the general workings of tribe, her advice has always been spot-on.

Then's there's that other aspect of her personality - her blogs are filled with her magical voice and soul searchings that always seem to hit home for me.

So, here's to SV. Tribe most certainly wouldn't be the same without her.
August 1, 2007
You are a phenomenally amazing woman, and I love you!!!!!!!!!! I appreciate your introspection, your honesty, your questing nature, your ability to explore the deepest depths (and live to tell the tale), and your otherworldly regenerative and transformational powers. You're a very extraordinary person -- one in a bazillion!
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Maya is Wise & Wonderful

"Without courage, we cannot practice any other virtue with consistency. We can't be kind, true, merciful, generous, or honest."
~Maya Angelou

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what makes me a sexy woman

PHENOMENAL WOMAN

by Maya Angelou

Pretty women wonder where my secret lies
I'm not cute or built to suit a model's fashion size
But when I start to tell them
They think I'm telling lies.
I say
It's in the reach of my arms
The span of my hips
The stride of my steps
The curl of my lips.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally
Phenomenal woman
That's me.

I walk into a room
Just as cool as you please
And to a man
The fellows stand or
Fall down on their knees
Then they swarm around me
A hive of honey bees.
I say
It's the fire in my eyes
And the flash of my teeth
The swing of my waist
And the joy in my feet.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally
Phenomenal woman
That's me.

Men themselves have wondered
What they see in me
They try so much
But they can't touch
My inner mystery.
When I try to show them
They say they still can't see.
I say
It's in the arch of my back
The sun of my smile
The ride of my breasts
The grace of my style.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally
Phenomenal woman
That's me.

Now you understand
Just why my head's not bowed
I don't shout or jump about
Or have to talk real loud
When you see me passing
It ought to make you proud.
I say
It's in the click of my heels
The bend of my hair
The palm of my hand
The need for my care.
'Cause I'm a woman
Phenomenally
Phenomenal woman
That's me.

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What you should know

about me
I am not nice, hopefully kind. I have had too many people with expectations of "nice" put on me. Or people calling me "nice" I am not comfortable with the label "nice" I think it kind of makes things about me being polite or trying to make someone feel good. When I tell someone I think they are great and they say oh you are nice...well that seems to me to sort of negate the compliment, as if I said it to be nice instead of because I really think it, instead of because they are great and I noticed. I am NOT nice. I do not say things to be nice. I do not value niceness very much. Sure it ranks above meanness or hatefullness but way way lower than Kindness and honesty and sincerity and authenticity and individuality.

Don't ask if you don't want to know. I believe that honesty is the kind thing even when it isn't the "nice thing."
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How I know

"Don't believe me, don't believe yourself, and don't believe anyone else. By not believing, whatever is untrue will disappear like smoke in this world of illusion. Everything is what it is. You don't need to justify what is true; you don't need to explain it. What is true doesn't need anyone's support."

Don Miguel Ruiz
The Mastery Of Love

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I'm the storm coming

"Hey, hey, hey
There's truth in the thunder
Love in the lightning
The feeling is frightening
But isn't it exciting
I'm something like stormy weather
If I weren't we'd never
Huddle together
Do I have to tell ya
That I'm also the sunlight
That shines shortly after
I just rain 'cause I have to
On to other chapter
I wish you lots of laughter
Till the next time you see me
Just remember you need me
I'm the storm coming, coming, coming"
~ Gnarls Barkley

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Take the first step in faith.

You don't have to see the whole staircase, just take the first step.

~Martin Luther King, Jr.

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The tree that would grow to Heaven must send its roots to Hell.

~Nietzsche

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What I want to know...

My invitation ~ Adapted slightly from The Invitation by Oriah Mountain Dreamer

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It doesn't interest me what you do for a living.
I want to know what you ache for and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart's longing.
It doesn't interest me how old you are.
I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love for your dream, for the adventure of being alive.
It doesn't interest me where you live or what color your skin is...
I want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow if you have been opened by life's betrayals or have become shriveled and closed from fear of further pain.
I want to know if you can sit with pain mine or your own without moving to hide it
or fade it, or fix it.
I want to know if you can be with joy, mine or your own, if you can dance with wildness
and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to
be careful, be realistic, remember the limitations of being human.
It doesn¹t interest me if the story you are telling me is impressive...as long as it's true.
I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself.
If you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul.
If you can be faithless and therefore trustworthy.
I want to know if you can see Beauty even when it is not pretty, every day.
And if you can source your own life from its presence.
I want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine, and still stand at the edge of the lake and shout to the silver of the full moon, "Yes!".
It doesn¹t interest me to know where you live or how much money you have.
I want to know if you can get up after the night of grief and despair, weary and bruised to the bone, and do what needs to be done to feed the children.
It doesn't interest me who you know, or how you came to be here.
I want to know if you will stand in the center of the fire with me and not shrink back.
It doesn't interest me where or what or with whom you have studied.
I want to know what sustains you from the inside when all else falls away.
I want to know if you can be alone with yourself and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments.
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That's what I really want to know.

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What I know

A little while ago RT posted a link to a story about the guy who started this program.

www.stovesfordarfur.com/

I decided then I would buy a stove when I got paid. It breaks my heart to think of those women with so much working against them struggling soooo very hard to feed their families and having to risk their lives and their bodies to gather wood because a stove that costs us $30 is beyond their reach.

So I did it. I don't have much money. In fact we are really tightening our belts, but even our brokest is so very rich compared to these families.

So I invite you to check it out and if their story grabs onto your hear to donate a stove.
Sat, February 14, 2009 - 4:24 PM permalink - 9 comments
 
The story of my star.

Tribe has been HUGE in my life. I've found love and life and laughter and insight and growth and silliness here and if I had the money I would have handed over as much as they needed. I've offered to help in lots of ways in the past, I even got to go do a beta test in the top secret tribe offices once! I knew I was a hopeless geek when I was as excited about that as someone else would be to see their most worshiped celebrity.

So of course when they offered premium subscriptions I got one. That was in Nov of last year sort of a Birthday gift to myself. Then they offered for us to be able to do a year for $50 and I didn't really have $50 but I found a way because I really wanted to help and to show my support and put my money where my mouth was after all of the times I said I would help tribe in any way I could. So Jan 2nd the money came out of my account and I though I was set for a year and even happy to have a new tribe t-shirt.

Things were going along swimmingly until March 10th when I changed my credit card in pay pal and it told me if I did that it would delete my subscription. I thought they meant not having a card would delete it, I figured that in a min when I was on the other screen with the new card I'd put in I would just tell it to associate that card with my tribe account and hey I still have most of the year left to work it all out right?

um no. it took less time for them to take my star away then it did for them to give it to me. I e-mailed for help, I felt bad mentioning it since I kind of did it to myself but it is $50 and I didn't think that it was fair punishment for not understanding pay pal to loose most of the year I'd payed for. I e-mailed, I e-mailed again. Darren asked for information from Pay Pal, I sent it to him and nothing. a month later I wrote a very polite "hey I know you are super busy but have you forgotten about me?" e-mail and got nothing. Eventually I gave up and it was one of the things that signaled the end of tribe for me.

I had been encouraging people to buy memberships and I just couldn't any more. I would have felt horrible if someone else had had something similar happen and it had been me who encouraged them to buy the subscription.

Along the way things got so bad I couldn't even get into tribe most of the time for months there. I got sadder and more disconnected from tribe and from alot of my tribe community though for some parts of it we build back ups. It just isn't the same. People are scattering and no where else has been somewhere I've been able to meet people and get to know them. People as amazing and varied as here on tribe, in discussions as amazing and varied as on tribe.

But today...today I suddenly got a message for tribe premium members and wrote back to ask...does this mean my membership has been fixed?!? and it has!

I can't explain it, but somehow this little bit of personal attention has given me a bigger spark of hope for tribe than even the recent lack of down times.

I still have to wait to find out if they will give me the time I missed of my subscription. But I can't imagine they wouldn't do that since I clearly did not have use of that time.

So Long Live Tribe, Yay for Pretty Stars! and here is what they are saying about premium subscriptions Maybe some of you might consider getting one now that there is support for it, plus I am totally excited about having a tribe e-mail!!!

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tribes.tribe.net/goldstarc...070c3bbca8
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Thu, December 4, 2008 - 6:34 PM permalink - 10 comments
 
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Fri, October 24, 2008 - 10:23 AM permalink - 4 comments
 
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What bugs people about me

Still I Rise
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You may write me down in history
With your bitter, twisted lies,
You may trod me in the very dirt
But still, like dust, I'll rise.

Does my sassiness upset you?
Why are you beset with gloom?
'Cause I walk like I've got oil wells
Pumping in my living room.

Just like moons and like suns,
With the certainty of tides,
Just like hopes springing high,
Still I'll rise.

Did you want to see me broken?
Bowed head and lowered eyes?
Shoulders falling down like teardrops.
Weakened by my soulful cries.

Does my haughtiness offend you?
Don't you take it awful hard
'Cause I laugh like I've got gold mines
Diggin' in my own back yard.

You may shoot me with your words,
You may cut me with your eyes,
You may kill me with your hatefulness,
But still, like air, I'll rise.

Does my sexiness upset you?
Does it come as a surprise
That I dance like I've got diamonds
At the meeting of my thighs?

Out of the huts of history's shame
I rise
Up from a past that's rooted in pain
I rise
I'm a black ocean, leaping and wide,
Welling and swelling I bear in the tide.
Leaving behind nights of terror and fear
I rise
Into a daybreak that's wondrously clear
I rise
Bringing the gifts that my ancestors gave,
I am the dream and the hope of the slave.
I rise
I rise
I rise.

~~~
Maya Angelou

 
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