i want to be happy, peaceful... in my truth... and my truth is to be REAL... to be a REAL person... i want my kids at home with me... i want to follow my spiritual path... i want to throw ritual psychedelic full moon parties where we have a fun yet serious spiritual purpose each month... i want to run my psychedelic trance radio station and be the marketer and promoter for many talented artists... i want a huge garden and some chickens... i want to paint paint paint... i want to help children and adults with the huge transition that is coming.... i want to be more than simply ADEPT with it myself even.. i want to write childrens affirmation books beautifully illustrated... little spell prayers to help their parents teach them about focus meditation prayer and imaginative focus... i am so very good at it

i want a large property where there is an open air ampitheater... well... more like a psytrance dancefloor... i want a pacific dome house event sized for indoor gatherings where we can project visual imagery to go with the music... i want to incorporate higher vibrational imagery to go with the music to amplify and activate higher consciousness.... i want a dome house for myself as well... and one for my mother... and a few small ones for showers and composting toilets... and a special one for lovely baths and saunas... i want hippie travelers with college education or self education to find my property a beautiful haven for practicing self sustainability... teach and work in our fields with the most luscious foodstuffs... i want workshops and symposiums and special event group meditations to also be held in our event dome... i want chickens for eggs as well as chicken compost... i want to attract the most beautiful people who have much to share and teach and learn and experience...

i want to sit outside at dusk and look out onto the scene/landscape and FEEL the inbetween transition which sends me into transcendental shifts and amazing ecstasy... i want windmills to generate electricity and pump the water from the well... i want a pond or small lake to skinny dip in... i want tree swings and mini bio diverse eco systems for us and our visitors to play with and wonder over...

and really... i want my children by my side to experience it all... and i dont care if they learn the difference between an isosolese triangle and an obtuse triangle... i do care if they know what triangulation of energy means... i dont care if they remember the exact dates of which important person in history did what and when they were elected... i do care if they learn the true history they wont get in text books at school... i do care if they really understand what all the concepts of sovereignity are and what that means...

there might be a lot more details... but that is most of the big stuff right now...

this is what i want... and i want my kids away from that dreaded machine... and i realize what many of my dreams meant from a long time ago... and i realize that if i keep putting off what i truly want, my time will run out... i do know that universe shall provide a way for me as long as i am acting in my truth and in concert with the divine will of universe/god... and it is by gods will that act in my truth and thus stop being afraid to do that which i know is right to do... universe shall support as long as i am vibrating at the universal truth flow for me...

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sunra