Ahhhh....life is weird...

So School is great...lots of homework..papers to write..my math class is by far my easiest...(didn't think I would ever say that)...
Work is good...busy but good...So on tuesday my nose starts to run....shit can't be sick...by thursday my chest hurts my back hurts my side hurts and I am soooo sick...I wade thru school...all A's on my tests....I back by heavy ass backpack all over campus with this tingly, burning dull sharp ache in my back and side...I was sure I had Pnemoina....so I sit in urgent care for two hours and pay $110 to have the doctor tell me I need to quit smoking..duh...and my lungs are clear, take some motrin and buck up...so I ask what is the pain from...and I describe it again...He says "sounds like Shingles, do you have a rash?" Hell I don't know I can't look at my back...does he lift my shirt up and look noooo...he says take these here anti-virals and here have some pain meds...so know I have the perfect term paper for my Culture of Addiction class...Why do people get addicted to opiates? He gave me a refill on 7.5 Vicadin(sorry about spelling) OH MY GOD...How I almost became an addict in one doctor visit....that is the tittle I swear...So do I have Shingles? ummm I have 3 or 4 small pimple like spots where the pain radiates from...could I have done with a lower dose of pain killers...oh hell ya...but hey...I guess if I ever break my leg I will be ready...Oh yeah and my cold...totally coughing up green gunk and needed antibotics...will have to go to my regular dr on monday to get those...hummm I wonder what else I can get....

Hi ho HI ho it's off to life we go....

sooooo...my books were going to cost me $300...I got on to Amazon and got 3 of the 5 books I need for $50 yeah...but I am going thru financial aide verafication...oh joy...my daughter is now sick(came home from grandma's early) and my job just decieded to be assholes and were going to make me make a choice between job or school...guess what I did...I was calm collected and for the first time said thanks I needed to be jerked back into the real world...here is my school schedule if you can work around it great if not I will miss ya...I did't have to choose...but I realized I need to be less harsh at work and not let anyone get the upper hand...I deciede to let god lead me down the path I am suppost to take...and ya know what he does a much better job of knocking the limbs off...I have also lost another 3lbs...and my Emma is more excited about me going back to school then I am...hehehehe life is good...thanks for all of your support...

The way my life seems to be headed....

So I am still eating well...yeah...I am still teaching class(and it's growing every week) ....my sweet babies are off for the week with Papa and mama...everything is good....I must be bored...I signed up for 13 credits of college...I took the first step towards my wish today...I start with pre-recs...then to nursing...down the path to bachelor...then 3 years at midwifery school....GOD HELP ME GET THRU MY FIRST DAY....
I am having to out of pocket books and deposit on my classes...my financial Aid has not come yet...I start classed on monday....wish me triump and perserviance.....hugs Yall....

oh my god I am FAT....

ok so we all really know this...at 220+ on bad days, I am offically toping my scale....I did something today I have never done but I should have a long time ago....I put myself on a diet....not one of those wacko diets...like eating cabbage soup until you no longer have friends due to the lingering green gas...but a " OH look that has 500000 calories, are you sure you want to put that in your mouth...how about a grape instead...." kind of diet...a heathy diet....even got the george forman out...so ya want to know what pushed me over the edge....my sweet vanity....I put on my maroon lace costume on today and it was to tight across the boobs....ya that and when I got done dancing at the care center after 3.5min I could no longer catch my breath....and my sweet sister says...maybe we should start those afternoon walks....Bitch..
Wish me luck....

Well let me tell you how smart I really am.....

My Sweet daughter and I were in Wal-mart two weeks ago and all she did was ask for Hannah Montana stuff.(she is 6)..she really wanted this Messenger bag that was black with a picture of Hannah Montana on it...It was $13.95....trying to teach her a lesson I went to the office supplies and bought here a chore chart. I told her for every sticker she got on it I would give her a quarter..and soon she could by the bag....so everyday for two weeks that kid has been feeding the animals...there are 4 of them and cleaning up after them.....as well as keeping her dirty laundry picked up....so two days ago, knowing she is getting really close I decide to check on the bag....guess what no more bags.....so I deciede to just buy one on line....and guess what...they are $25 ickky.....so who really learns the lesson here....Mom or daughter....hummmmm

I have goods....lots and lots of goods....

So I need to thin my costumes down....all are worn and well loved....any ideas on how to get them out and into new owners hands....

Ode to Amber....

My bestest friend Amber leaves for India on Saturday at 4am...I am very sad...I don't always know how to show it but...I am very sad...she is going to help make the lives of the women better and I think that is so cool...but I will miss her soooooo Much...Please keep her in your thoughts and prayers...she will be gone for the next month....and we will be having a great big party when she comes home....
Come Home Safe Amber.....Love Susan

Oh yeah I forgot....

Saqra's Turkish Drop was fab as well as here Egyptian Skirt Drop.....Heheheheheheh to funny.....hugs to you all....

Mezdulene's Retreat Rocks....

So there is so much I am still taking in....but my highlights were....getting to stay in dogwood with the Grants pass and Medford girls...getting to know them better...can't wait to come back down to G street and dance....getting to give Devi the Evil Eye in my class...getting to know people better that I have known for years but never have the time....the extra day was way good for that....Amy, Shelly, Casey, Luna, Julie, Plum and Tangerine...I love getting to spend some real time with you all...you make me so very warm and fuzzy...next year Maia wants midnight cookies too....I will miss you all deeply until I see you again... Racheal...thanks for coming you inspire me in everyway...I loved getting to know Marial and Kim better....Judy thanks for inspiring me to be a better teacher...Margie thanks for smoking the hooka with us...Sherry you are the best...thanks for packing our presents and sharing yourself with us....Halima thank you for the new dance goodies...and just for loving me and putting up with me...To the Bend Girls and my fellow Racheal George impersnator....I love you gals...thanks for sharing your food and love with me....you filled my belly as well as my soul...I will miss you until June....to Mez...thanks for allowing me to be.....to Anisa thanks for the ride and breaking into my house for me....
and Finally thank you Amber....you are everything I had ever hoped for in a Student and a Best Friend....you make me proud to say I know you....you totally Rock.....