Death... Mortality. Jagged sobs... once released almost impossible to real back in. I know he is gone and he is no longer in pain nor is he here lingering against his wishes. He's with those that love him... who love us. They are guiding him showing him the way.

Such a profound sentance.... I don't care what he's done... he's my dad. Forgiveness is what he sought in his later years. I hope he knows he had it. That he was profoundly loved. He'll be returning soon to watch over us, j... read more

So we've accepted he's leaving us. We're prepared to let go. Do we let it all go with him? Is that what he would have wanted? I know he wouldn't want any of us to suffer. That he would prefer it to be quick and painless for him and those that he loves. This isn't about those he loves though. It surely hasn't been painless for any of us, and especially not for him. They bungled it all. They neglected him and ignored him and thus ignored us. Big mistake. He can't speak any longer for... read more

He never wanted this. He spent his life avoiding hospitals and doctors. The only thing that ever made him go to a doctor was the thought of my mother leaving the country without him. He had to have his immunizations and his blood pressure under control. He did it, grudgingly, but he did it. For a week he's in a nursing home, before that in a hospital for a month, and now back into a hospital. They say he may not make it. They said that at the hospital too. He wouldn't want to be there... read more