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October 13, 2005
"Other people are you. If you think they are separate from you or a threat to you, you will lose the most important resource there is. Love is a function of acceptance, you love everyone. The extent to which you don't know that you love everyone, you get fear. A day of inclusion, a moment of love, without reason, will end the madness that separates, divides and conquers people. "
Beautiful words from a very beautiful person - You!!
The few interactions we have had have left me with so much positive I feel obligated to let everyone else know to follow your example and enjoy your bright shining light!
CHarleZ
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A Stipulation of Terms from Maternal Hopi
1. [] =The radiance.
2. ]DpY[ = Containers to be opened in total darkness.
3. ]PS[]L[ = A drug used by women to dilate the iris of the eye.4. ]H[]H[]L[ = Epithet of the star ]S[]S[]N[*, used while succulents are in bloom.
5. ]PT[]Y] = Last light seen by one dying in the fifth duodecad of life.
6. ]XN[ = Heliotrope.
7. ]TL[]D[ = Rotating phosphenes of 6 or 8 arms.8. ]BN[]T[ = Shadow cast by light of lesser density upon light of greater.
9. ]V[]TR[ = The pineal body; time.
10. ]XR[ = The sensation of sadness at having slept through a shower of meteors.
11. ]MR[][ = The luster of resin from the shrub ]R[]R[, which fascinates male babies.
12. ]NX[]KT[ = The light that congeals about vaguely imagined objects.
13. ]DR[]KL[ = Phosphorescence of one's father, exposed after death.
14. ]SMpN[ = Fireworks in celebration of a firstborn daughter.
15. ]GN[]T[]N[ = Translucence of human flesh.
16. ]TM[]X[]T[ = Delight at sensing that one is about to awaken.
17. ]TS[]H[ = Shadow cast by the comet ]XT[ upon the surface of the sun.
18. ]R[]D[ = An
afterimage.**
19. ]D[]DR[ = A white supernova reported by alien traveller.
20. ]K[]SK[ = A cloud; mons Veneris.
21. ][]Z[]S[ = Ceremonial lenses, made of ice brought down from the high mountains.
22. ]KD[]X[ = Winter moonlight, refracted by a glass vessel filled with the beverage ]NK[]T[.
23. ]P[]M[]R[ = Changes in daylight initiated by the arrival of a beloved person unrelated to one.
24. ]G[]S[ = Gridded lightning seen by those born blind.
25. ]W[]N[]T[ = An otherwise unexplained fire in a dwelling inhabited only by women.
26. ]G[]GN[ = The sensation of desiring to see the color of one's own urine.
27. ]M[]K[ = Snowblindness.
28. ]H[]R[ = Unexpected delight at seeing something formerly displeasing.
29. ]H[]ST[ = The arc of a rainbow defective in a single hue.
30. ]L[]L[]X[ = The fovea of the retina; amnesia.
31. ][]R[ = The sensation of satisfaction at having outstared a baby.
32. ]ST[ = Improvised couplets honoring St. Elmo's Fire.
33. ]V[]D[ = The sensation of indifference to transparency.
34. ]Z[]TS[ = Either of the colors brought to mind by the fragrance of plucked ]TR[ ferns.
35. ]X[]H[ = Royal expedition in search of a display of Aurora Borealis.
36. ]T[]K[]N[ = Changes in daylight that frighten dogs.
37. ]Y[]X[ = The optic chiasmus (Colloq.); abysmal; testicles.
38. ]N[][]T[ = The twenty-four heartbeats before the first heartbeat of sunrise.
39. ]F[]X[ = A memory of the color violet, reported by those blinded in early infancy.
40. ]T[]Y[]Y[ = The sensation of being scrutinized by a reptile.
41. ]B[]NM[ = Mute.***
42. ]N[]T[]N[ = The sound of air in a cave; a reverie lasting less than a lunar month; long dark hair.
43. ]S[]TY[ = The light that moves against the wind.
44. ]B[][ = Changes in one's shadow, after one's lover has departed in anger.
45. ]N[]GR[ = The fish Anableps, that sees in two worlds.
46. ]RZ[]R[ = The sensation of longing for an eclipse of the Moon.
47. ]H[]F[ = Stropharia cubensis.
48. ]S[]LR[ = Familiar objects within the vitreous humor.
49. ]W[]X[][ = A copper mirror that reflects only one's own face.
50. ]MN[]X[ = Temporary visions consequent upon trephining.
51. ]G[][]KR[ = Cataract.
52. ]RNpW[ = Hypnagogues incorporating unfamiliar birds.
53. ]M[]D[ = A dream of seeing through one eye only.
* Probably Fomalhaut (alpha Piscis Australis).
** Also used as a classifier of seeds.
*** Standing epithet of ancestral deities.
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soulseek conversation with aaron.
(sent while offline) [forex] gitt big when you sit
(sent while offline) [forex] its like you got gobblestoppers in your cranium son
(sent while offline) [forex] been tellin you for years now.
(0:33) [forex] whattup
[flimsay] hey aaron. its 3:30 in michigan. why you up?
(0:33) [forex] i got magnetic bed.
[flimsay] long time no... what you up to?
(0:42) [forex] eye told you what you need to do.
(0:42) [forex] EYE.
[flimsay] eyeluminatti.
(0:45) [forex] what i do is justice
(0:45) [forex] somebody has too
(0:45) [forex] to pay the price
(0:45) [forex] it's about stasis
[flimsay] nothing to get hung about. strawberry fields of stasis forever.
[flimsay] what about the fluxy flux
(0:45) [forex] i want to know it all or nothing
[flimsay] capacitorsssssssss
(0:46) [forex] i don't want to be alive or dead
(0:46) [forex] its never a nite
(0:47) [forex] its never mornin
(0:47) [forex] dew
(0:47) [forex] timez
[flimsay] nite moose
(0:50) [forex] i need to chew on your stem cells
[flimsay] theyre sleepy. i was sleeping. meg called woke me up.
(0:50) [forex] it opens my third eye
(0:50) [forex] so nicely
(0:50) [forex] for dream cortex
[flimsay] what are you doing here its all ashes
(0:51) [forex] i'm just a spirit trapped in a body
(0:51) [forex] you are trapped in flimsy land
(0:52) [forex] get obese in your mind
(0:52) [forex] grow that shit it
(0:52) [forex] gittt big when you sit
[flimsay] ;)
(0:52) [forex] manufacter
(0:52) [forex] the fucking deedzzzzzzzzz
(0:52) [forex] bring the great conjunction
[flimsay] im doin the work. soul wears thin at times. pray for me.
(0:53) [forex] yeah it's known. and does.
[flimsay] k. thx.
(0:55) [forex] mayan times soon
(0:55) [forex] are you ready
[flimsay] !
[flimsay] ur intense tonight moose.
(1:03) [forex] i'm just a man
(1:03) [forex] no more no less
(1:03) [forex] i walk i walk i walk i walk i walk
(1:03) [forex] i'm still
[flimsay] nite.
Thu, February 22, 2007 - 9:05 PM
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Anything is one of a million paths. Therefore you must always keep in mind that a path is only a path; if you feel you should not follow it, you must not stay with it under any conditions. To have such clarity you must lead a disciplined life. Only then will you know that any path is only a path and there is no affront, to oneself or to others, in dropping it if that is what your heart tells you to do. But your decision to keep on the path or to leave it must be free of fear or ambition. I warn you. Look at every path closely and deliberately. Try it as many times as you think neccessary. This question is one that only a very old man asks. Does this path have a heart? All paths are the same: they lead nowhere. They are paths going through the bush, or into the bush. In my own life I could say I have traversed long, long paths, but I am not anywhere. Does this path have a heart? If it does, the path is good; if it doesn’t, it is of no use. Both paths lead nowhere; but one has a heart, the other doesn’t. One makes for a joyful journey; as long as you follow it, you are with it. The other will make you curse your life. One makes you strong; the other weakens you. Before you embark on any path ask the question: Does this path have a heart? If the answer is no, you will know it, and then you must choose another path. The trouble is nobody asks the questions; and when a man finally realized that he has taken a path without a heart, the path is ready to kill him. At that point very few men can stop to deliberate, and leave the path. A path without a heart is never enjoyable. You have to work hard to even take it. On the other hand, a path with heart is easy; it does not make you work at liking it. I have told you to choose a path you must be free from fear and ambition. The desire to learn is not ambition. It is our lot as men to want to know. The path without heart will turn against men and destroy them. It does not take much to die, and to seek death is to seek nothing.
~carlos castaneda
Tue, March 14, 2006 - 12:41 PM
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Looking at your life, you will discover that the best of times have always been accompanied by your perception of increased possibilities. Marriage is the possibility of partnership, parenthood, sharing and much more. The most exciting moment for most people is the birth of a child, their child. The child embodies pure possibility. ANything is possible for that child, a truth you have probably forgotten about yourself. Forgetting it does not make it any less true. The young child has no symbols, no degrees, no stories, no worries, and no past. The young child is the ultimate salesperson, pure sales, a clean slate on which stories, any stories, can be written. Growing up, crazy as it seems, is usually about limiting, defining, yourself. It is about restricting possibilities fast enough so that adults around you will think you are becoming like them- acceptable. At every turn you were given help in limiting your possibilites, told that you must choose what you wanted to do. Told that you had to have specific answers to questions and that other answers would not do.
You have been crippled and are now handicapped. You have been taught that you are not a child of reality and worse, that reality is something even more limited and limiting than you are. You have been bushwhacked, bamboozled, had, taken, misled, cheated, conned, defrauded, framed, and deceived. Not on purpose, not knowlingly, but systematically. You have been rewarded in little ways, too tiny to notice, for each move you made toward being a hyprocrite, an actor, a snake oil salesman, a traitor, a phony, a liar, a cheat, a dupe, a victim, and worse. You have been sent on a wild goose chase in the name of self-discovery, meaningful work or subsistence. You have been so deformed that you no longer recognize yourself.
Enough bad news, the good news is that who you are, who you were as a baby, with everything possible for you with no past and only all possibility ahead, is still who you are. If you look closely enough, if you explore and expand your perceptions, if you vary your perceptions, you will discover that all possibility is still here. All you need to do is feed it, and your perception of reality will grow. You will see yourself again as what you really are: nothing, with everything possible. If your perceptions can catch up with your possibilities, human beings will survive and even excel as a species. If they do not, then the experiment, being a human being, will be over. You are not who you think you are; you are much more than that.
No matter what you think, it is just what you think.
In the land of deceptions, where you have to be something, your perceptions appear to be reality. In the land of connections, you are whole and your perceptions are amusing limitations, temporarily blocking your vision. In the land of deceptions, you see little tiny pieces and call what you see the whole. In the land of connections, you see the whole. Seeing the whole without distinctions lightens you up.
Wed, February 15, 2006 - 8:59 AM
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Plants live in the light. But they are more primitive than you. They use the light directly rather than depending on reflections. You live in the light too, but your mind won’t see that because it depends on consistent reflection. With reflection comes distortion. What is rejected you see, and that which is accepted you miss. When something appears to be green, it has accepted all colors but green. Isn’t it a clue to the instability, immaturity, and the reflective nature of the mind that people call things what is rejected? You do the same with yourself. You identify yourself as what you reject: your limits, your ends and your means.
You become the light when light can pass through you unencumbered. When it cannot, you become an object. You become an argument for thingness. It isn’t pretty, it isn’t fun, but it is the nature of the mind that since it is nothing, it can settle for anything. It is a nothing called anything, and that is the worst kind. As you discover that you are NOT your thoughts, your mind changes its clothes and calls itself something else. You listen to its calls, you watch it change its clothes and you get embarassed. You become profoundly self conscious. You can’t be this embarrassed, so you stop looking. COnsidering how fast you really are, reflection is the only way you can even attempt consistency. You see light, but only know reflections. You are afraid of the dark but have called the light “dark” and the dark “light.” Defined by the dark, you become the dark.
There was once a man who moved so fast he left his shadow behind. Coincidentally. at the loss of his shadow, he moved fast enough that he could no longer determine who he was. He never stayed in one place long enough to kill off all the alternatives.
When you move, your place or position sometimes becomes important. WHen you move all the time, space dissappears because you are never anywhere long enough to stop and look at some other place.Einstein discovered that when you move fast enough, time stops. It is only in your slowness that time and space provide you the minutes and square feet neccessary to build your illusion. It is illusion because it takes no space and no time, since neither exist.
Illusion is the place at which you discover where you stand when you stop seeing movement. Hold still for a moment and your mind holds to the moment for dear, or not-so-dear life. Let go and you rise unmercifully, and without meaning, to the top. Holding yourself under this top makes it almost impossible to breathe. You are a creature who lives and breathes light, and you are lurking in the dark. You toy with that which you aer so easily addicted to. You catch a glimpse of who you think you are, but you are too slow to really see yourself. A glimpse is all you have in mind. The mind is always ready to settle for less as long as it looks like more. Or as long as it looks long enough to waste some time.
It is ironic, but the very act of identification has replaced the light. You think calling something by name makes it that name. This is such a hollow representation offering so little satisfaction and sustenance that you have to repeat this process of name calling all the time in order to convince yourself that you got anything at all.”Sticks and stones may break my bones but names will never hurt me” So name everything and you will never be hurt.
You live and breathe an analogy, not noticing that you are. You never have enough of anything, even problems. Because what you are attempting to get from things is not in them. You are starved. “There is gold in them thar hills!” but the hills remain in your past and in your future. Nothing at all will do, but you will not do nothing.
“I will just do nothing at all, if I ever get the time” you say, but there is so much to do first. You make vacations even busier than work.
Stretch. Really S T R E T C H. Close your eyes and look around you. See nothng. Exit your present location, illusion. Do so for a moment and you will be infinitely revealed. Sit, doing nothing and soon you will think nothing too. From here you can be anything. Let the light flow through you and you will become the illuminator. The only way to speed up sufficiently to join the light is to not move at all; moving slowly will not do. The faster you move from moving slowly, the obvious you make it that you will never get to light speed. Watch the objects and you will have become one. There is no real thing. No thing is real . Nothing is real. It is a joke- this life you think you lead while following along, but you have lost all of your senses. First to go was your sense of humour, and after that, every mattered too much, so you took it all seriously.
“Who are you?” said the owl, independent of your answer, hoping that if the wise old bird said it often enough, you would get the message that your answer didn’t matter and there would always be the question again. Who? Who? ………………….Who?
Tue, February 14, 2006 - 8:38 AM
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Sensory Deprivation!
How does It work?
Scientists estimate that up to ninety percent of the brain's normal workload is caused by the effects of routine environmental stimulation the combined effects of gravity, temperature, touch, light and sound on the muscles, nervous system and sense organs of the body.
The float tank screens out these external physical stimuli, creating a pure state of "sensory" relaxation. Under these unique conditions your body has a chance to restore its natural powers of self regulation, while you simply lie back and rediscover the latent abilities of a deeply relaxed mind.
While you are floating, your ears are below the surface of the solution, cutting out external sounds. Many people, however, find that gentle ambient music accelerates and intensifies the relaxation process. The Apollo's powerful underwater speaker system creates the feeling that you are floating in a sea of music, enhancing the rich dream-like quality of the experience.
The temperature inside the capsule is kept at a constant 34.5 degrees Celsius - relaxed skin temperature. As a result, the nerve endings which cover the surface of the skin no longer perceive any sense of separation between the skin and the silky mineral solution which surrounds it.
In the dark, weightless tranquillity of the Apollotm float tank, the boundaries of your body seem to dissolve and vanish. As you enter progressively deeper levels of relaxation, even your body seems to "disappear" from conscious awareness because of the sharp reduction in signals being transmitted through the nervous system to the brain.
Free from all external stimulation, your body can achieve a state of relaxation which is deeper, purer and more beneficial than sleep. With no body to look after, your mind can attend to other business.
The Floating Body
The sudden de-stimulation of large areas of the nervous system triggers a spontaneous chain reaction throughout the body known as the parasympathetic response. Muscle tension, blood pressure, heart rate and oxygen consumption all drop dramatically. The whole chemistry of the body changes.
Blood vessels including capillaries dilate, improving cardio-vascular efficiency and increasing the supply of oxygen and nutrients to every single cell in your body. This is called the vasodilatory effect
Stress related chemicals such as adrenaline, cortisol, ACTH and lactate are removed from the bloodstream and replaced by beneficial endorphins. High levels of cortisol and ACTH are known to weaken the body's immune system and create feelings of depression, while lower baseline levels are associated with feelings of dominance and confidence.
The endorphin - only discovered by NIMH researchers in 1976 - is literally the essence of pleasure. The body's endorphin level is what makes some people naturally happy and others less so. Sometimes called "the body's natural opiate", the endorphins released while floating create intense feelings of well-being, alleviating fatigue and chronic pain, as well as improving many of the higher brain functions such as memory and learning. Happiness is not an illusion - it is an endorphin.
These biochemical changes occur naturally and spontaneously as by-products of deep sensory relaxation. No training or techniques are required. Just lie back and let it happen.
The Floating Mind
Although your body enters a level of physical relaxation which is even deeper than sleep, in the tank your mind remains awake and dreamily alert, just above the threshold of sleep Large areas of the brain are suddenly liberated from their normal workload of processing signals from the nervous system and sense organs. There is a sharp drop in the level of electrical activity of the brain (measured on an EEG) from the usual 20-25 Hz down to 4-8 Hz.; EEG readings show a slow, rhythmic wave pattern known as the theta state.
This is a twilight zone of creative, inspirational thought processes, where your learning abilities are at their highest and powers of visualisation and auto-suggestion are greatly enhanced. Measurements of the brain waves produced by experienced zen meditators in deep satori show large amounts of theta activity across the cortex. For most people, however, the theta state is almost impossible to enter without falling asleep. In the tank you enter this elusive state effortlessly and enjoyably, and stay in it for most of the float session. Time seems to vanish.
EEG measurements on floaters show that the level of activity in the two hemispheres of the brain also becomes more balanced and synchronised. This can produce a subtle shift in awareness away from the normally dominant "left-brain" thought patterns (logical, linear, analytical, detailed) towards the more intuitive, synthetic and large-scale thought modes of the "right-brain". The tank does not inhibit the left hemisphere, but simply changes its role from one of dominance to one of partnership with the other hemisphere, enabling floaters to use all their mental powers
If you're in Orange County, and this is something you'd like to try, get in touch with me. The cost is $75/hour, 2-3 hours recommended. If you have medical insurance in some circumstances, payment can be arranged that way. :)
Sat, September 10, 2005 - 9:07 PM
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displaced southern california girl trying to come to terms with her new east coast surroundings.
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