Remember only this: you need not believe the ideas, you need
not accept them, and you need not even welcome them. Some of
them you may actively resist. None of this will matter, or decrease
their effiacy. But do not allow yourself to make exceptions in
applying the ideas the workbook contains, and whatever your
reactions to the ideas may be, use them. Nothing more than that is
required.

Master Foo once said to a visiting programmer: “There is more Unix-nature in one line of shell script than there is in ten thousand lines of C.”

The programmer, who was very proud of his mastery of C, said: “How can this be? C is the language in which the very kernel of Unix is implemented!”

Master Foo replied: “That is so. Nevertheless, there is more Unix-nature in one line of shell script than there is in ten thousand lines of C.”

Eric S. Raymond - catb.org/~esr/writings...-thousand.html

A letter to my self

As Chad Terry

with Terry

Piscies Aries Gemini

Luck card is been on the table for some time

cup has been replenished

So he thinks.


How I became myself:

It was a letter that I wrote while not concentrating, focusing on not focusing.
I was in the midst of a major evolutionary experience, a common occurance, a splendid demonstration of what life was supposed to be.
I had done it before, it was not all that unfamiliar, but you had to know that many things where inherent in the act itself;
side effects? I would count them as slight hallucinations.

Slight hallucinations; tangos on the radar, and they were hauling, going very fast indeed, toward you, over very rugged terrain .. as you ran, they crashed, and you ran ..

Don't run.

Fear is your friend.
Fear is healthy.

Fear came here and showed you what the world was like when it was not the world.
You were to appreciate and love the world for all that it was, for every single ounce
of ant cellular creation that existed, for all of it.

For what more? What else would you need? But the knowledge that is inhereted with access to the
current situation. I would like to stay about five minutes behind what was happening; I was very
overwhelmed from the begginning. I would either try to keep my head 'clear' which was just kind
of looking around and feeling what my head told me, and what was outside in comparison ..

Right now was so close; a coincidence away. Possibly a series of coincidences, gaining strength,
waining, but definitally appearing in intelligent places.

It was as if you were seeing intelligent faces; emerging from non-sentience; things that were for
stepping or avoiding or tagging or urinating, living things.

Anyway, I supposedly digress alot.

I would return to what had just happened so recently, and marvel over it because there were very
many things that I simply could not afford to pay attention to. See, I have overfocus. I have been
for quite some time focusing on a pixel of the television, on a letter on a page ... visualize
light coming from my eyes that is about as straight as straight can get. It had a hard time
wavering, recieving things from opposite directions, it was made to do its job, I thought.

My buddy would experience the same thing. While watching TV, I would type, and type, sometimes
click, and he would regularly see something on television that was exciting, and attempt to hijak
my attention, and there would either be a mental boxing spar session or complete nonacceptance;
'ignoring' it. We decided that strong distractions mixed with strong inspirations leads to
a lot of strength. Then we decided that both were probaly good to avoid or envelope in at
alternating times; in other words, What was happening was Supposed to be happening. Already?

Then why would I think not? This is a good question .... and it deserves a good answer, so I'll
leave some contact information at the end of this breif.

Accepting is a good thing. Oh, and I don't think there are enough people worshiping out in public.
Tai Chi, bowing, praying, hands together, I mean, [expletive!$E@@!] its a GOOD thing. !!



Anyway, God said:

And you will never need
And you will never go without
And you will always be human
And you will always be alive
And you will learn of you
And a lot of other things that God didn't say ...

[i played with covert recording backwards]

Accepting the insanity and disconuity of the entire situation allows it to flow. As a river it is
much more concentrated naturally, and more of its natura element. Yea?

It is weird, it is something very off balance to some, but in my way of ignoring the things
that I have learned and wishing for the things I knew before then .. I find peace.



Or, I could explain what partying is.

Whats a party to you? And what did it take from you? And what did you leave there?
What kind of party is designated as a party?

I mean theres 3 people hanging under the pier right now that could get quite funky
I'm sayin, but when does webster dictionary begin investigating?

I would say several years later, after about half of the party has left, and there are still
a few gawkers, several obvious energy masters, many recruits, and a couple of hosts ..
[hosts and masters, gawkers and recruits]

Has the party even started? I say no.


Fear. Acceptance. Prayer. Psychedelic; God; Shared Experience; Overfocus; Recently; Now; Constance; Clarity. Continuity.

And I wasn't saying this is right; I'm just saying it's what I write.


After I read the letter to my self and got a clue of what my self was, I began to wander ...
would sleep take this from me again? It is often an enemy; I don't even force my self to go to sleep
anymore because it seems to do as it pleases; I've been tryin for a long time.

I reflected on the length and quality of the experience, and came to the final conclusion that there does
exist anomolies; such as this: bridges of glass and walls of smoke, all in perfect conformity with natural law,
all performing ordinary duties.

Like it was real, it was so real that while it was lasting it made an impression that was to be bottled and sent,
in rapid succession in many direction without any selection. Machine gun funk.

Murder can be justified, and has been justified, so why is my mind slaughtering technique any different?
You're not supposed to get this; you're not supposed to do this, or do that, or anything, but ....


A Signifigant Sequence of Events

This is April.

From a very long and slow moving [apparently] hibernation, I watched the frost melt, and the world shift ..
so professionally and with lightning blind accuracy that all that was to be percieved of the event was ..
a glimmer. It happens a lot; I don't want to imagine continous glimmer.

Now I face a whole new set of problems; I respect them don't regret facing them, they will fit on my infinitally sized wall.


AHH What am I talking about ... the shiney infatuation .. healthy obsession ...