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i see you
sitting there
feel your eyes on me
not a stare
just a casual recognition
of shared delight
in the night club's half light
as you get up, stand up,
and move my way

your warmth i see
as you start to groove,
as your body shimmies,
i watch you move
from the corner of my eye
i see you smiling,
so free
dancing
so close
beside me

i catch your eye
but then i
glance aside
wishing that my heart
was open wide

i try once again
to smile at you,
well, not AT you,
but through
this layer of distance
that achingly hides
this loneliness i often feel
inside

so i steal a glance
from a distance,
waiting, anticipating
the chance
to just say 'hi'
to peel away my disguise

who taught me to be so shy?

why?
why can't I
just walk up to you
say 'hi'
and tell you
how your dancing moves me
through and through
the way you shake your hair and grin
the way I feel your freedom
exploding from within
how your dancing frenzy
inspires me

still
all I do
is watch you
as you finally leave

and hope that maybe
someday
i'll be ready
for you to see me too