sometimes i feel an edginess with you,
i am only guessing it relates to
the way we've seen each other here, now
for almost ten years, and how
still, every time we're together
we get no further
than coffee talk,
or the latest weather.

is it you, is it me?
where, what, why is it that creates in me this desire to be
removed from the present, hidden away
under the guise of my 'self',
or really..just the self I Was, yesterday

Even though I know YOU won't run away,
even though YOU won't call me names,
and run around the school yard telling
crazy stories about me
even though...I know....
I still act like an 8 year old,
every time you show
your face near me

so, yeah, I still have healing to do
and, yeah, maybe you do too

still, i'm willing to wriggle out of my shell
at least for a passing moment, what the hell..

then, at least,on those passing-by days
when we talk about the weather
I can also tell you
I love you
in the friendliest of ways.

♥

* Photo Source: "Billy Joel - The Stranger" cover art *