Extending Awareness

when you feel lonely...

Terran — Tue, 04 Aug 2009 08:40:34 GMT

when you feel lonely... feel lonely. don't try to fight it or hide it or somehow some way deny it and, still, in your alone-ness take the time to see that, in and of yourself, you are whole. really. wholly...complete. in your solitude see the perfection that your vulnerability reveals 'i feel, therefore i am' know that, as alone as I-you-we may feel, we are, in all ways, connected with all that is in this interweaving web of life see that this completeness that embraces us all is not because of our individuality our 'uniqueness'... it'is because of all our intricate relations with every other being that exists in creation in this knowing, explore your depths safely knowing that you cannot, nor will not, ever be, completely, on your own (though you always can pretend to be) find comfort in your solo, soul-full, sorrowful solace when your wounds are raw, why expose them to the entire world? telling the tale, over and over agitating 'your' wound again and again you may create a scar that takes lifetimes to be healed... revel in the sanctity that aloneness provides know that all wounds must be protected to heal all new life must feel safe to thrive and remember that this, too, shall pass. know when it's time for the bandage to come off for the medication to stop for the healing to end for no one may exist in one state indefinitely like the phases of the moon all that is within us, all that we are is destined to wax and wane know when it is time for the celebration of life to be expressed through you again

peering through the cracks

Terran — Mon, 03 Aug 2009 19:13:30 GMT

sometimes i feel an edginess with you, i am only guessing it relates to the way we've seen each other here, now for almost ten years, and how still, every time we're together we get no further than coffee talk, or the latest weather. is it you, is it me? where, what, why is it that creates in me this desire to be removed from the present, hidden away under the guise of my 'self', or really..just the self I Was, yesterday Even though I know YOU won't run away, even though YOU won't call me names, and run around the school yard telling crazy stories about me even though...I know.... I still act like an 8 year old, every time you show your face near me so, yeah, I still have healing to do and, yeah, maybe you do too still, i'm willing to wriggle out of my shell at least for a passing moment, what the hell.. then, at least,on those passing-by days when we talk about the weather I can also tell you I love you in the friendliest of ways. ♥ * Photo Source: "Billy Joel - The Stranger" cover art *

smiling in the darkness

Terran — Sat, 18 Apr 2009 07:01:03 GMT

when the streetlight was invented a collective sigh was surely shared by all (well, all those embracing 'civilization', anyways) staving off the dangers of the DARK SAVAGE WORLD is that when, as a society, our soul-fire was extinguished? when was it that our morals collapsed? "but that's our society, we're rotten" so some of us might say ...as a whole? maybe so... but the last I knew a society was made up of individuals like me and you and the individuals i know whether we be christian or jew muslim or hindu agnostic, existentialist, environmentalist, or somehow otherwise confused... so many of us all, still regardless of beliefs seem to have this common morality a desire for peace a respect for decency a love for family a commitment to justice a yearning for community an anger towards selfishness a disillusionment about the future... and still a light of hope shining strong in each and every one a light that can not will not be dampened and so, even though, our 'society' (supposedly) is corrupt and failing perhaps it is just those who we allow to represent us, now, those who hollow out our highest hopes as they suck the marrow from our collective dream with their greed perhaps if it were not for those distinctive, destructive few we would start to work together and live in peace, and prosper too using technologies and inventions to serve the good of the whole rather than for waging war on our brothers and domination, and control and, in fact, we would discover (despite all that the "upper crust" might say) we are all strong, much stronger, indeed than we have believed ...until this day and this goal is close, i think, much closer than most would say when you see how many creative souls are writing these words on walls whether they be virtual, or in the ghetto, in an essay, or in falcetto the sentiment is the same we don't have to look far at all to see that our society (namely, "US") are still capable of deeply caring and that's why i smile at times when my TV would say be very, very afraid with the terrors of war not overseas, but knocking on our door babies and women dying and all for what? what could it be? as the oil barons raise their glasses and laugh their asses off unawares not realizing their shares will be worth nothing too at the final passing of this boom the era of the last tycoon fading fast in the aftermath of a faulty vision thinking somehow, they live somewhere where karma is a pipe dream and we don't have to live with our decisions and we don't have to come clean... still, i smile, as i make way for a newly awakening day knowing this too shall pass, and this gift we have been given the "present", being alive a mere splash within this rippling, writhing ocean of time i smile thinking how lucky i am to see the emergence of a conscious, global generation so many taking action, day to day creating beauty, and art, and playing promoting awareness and advocacy no longer apathetic to the destructive agenda alerting masses to the disasters of the past (In this massive distraction of manipulated media Let us never forget our past...) and finding solutions, instead of prescriptions, to the challenges we face as a human race and if only if only we continue to learn from our nefarious wayward ways and start to finally earn the respect we feel we deserve we as a culture, as a species, just *may* have a destiny to serve each other, our selves in greatness, and humility, with honour and dignity and it starts, and ends, today within every one of us within You. within Me. Begin it now! Glory Be!

see me see you

Terran — Sat, 06 Dec 2008 11:52:11 GMT

*** image from: xupacabras.weblog.com.pt/arquivo/fotos_de_corpos_pbbw_nudes_photos/ *** ________ i see you sitting there feel your eyes on me not a stare just a casual recognition of shared delight in the night club's half light as you get up, stand up, and move my way your warmth i see as you start to groove, as your body shimmies, i watch you move from the corner of my eye i see you smiling, so free dancing so close beside me i catch your eye but then i glance aside wishing that my heart was open wide i try once again to smile at you, well, not AT you, but through this layer of distance that achingly hides this loneliness i often feel inside so i steal a glance from a distance, waiting, anticipating the chance to just say 'hi' to peel away my disguise who taught me to be so shy? why? why can't I just walk up to you say 'hi' and tell you how your dancing moves me through and through the way you shake your hair and grin the way I feel your freedom exploding from within how your dancing frenzy inspires me still all I do is watch you as you finally leave and hope that maybe someday i'll be ready for you to see me too

drink deep (dedicated to flowfest)

Terran — Tue, 02 Sep 2008 06:06:03 GMT

** Image by Alicia Austin : Star Like Water Flowing ** http://www.firstpeople.us/pictures/art/odd-sizes/ls/Star-Like-Water-Flowing-950x653.html if you grow weary of walking down to the bank and gazing at the others on the other shore be they friend, stranger enemy, or ally... if you grow weary of gazing at that other on that 'other' shore... be, instead, the river vast and free be that which nourishes people and cleanses them and draws them together success is imminent to water water finds ease in all situations the waves never find fault in the shore even though they crash against it over and over again... of course, the cliffs are ever-patient indeed... yielding, giving way, inevitably, to the changing of the tides. when water is damned it does not retreat it does not know how instead it wells up, and moves around the obstacle with ease, or it overflows the barrier, embracing it vigourously, eagerly wearing the edges down to smoothness unearthing its own path of least resistance water's ongoing effluent emergence shapes and defines flow and essence be that which finds your way gracefully back to your inevitable home shaping and improving all you touch sweeping ever-evolving trails of inspiration around the earth be the current (another word for what is happening, in the present, the now) be currency (another word for af-fluence in motion, flowing) and please be drunk on this rainbow shimmering creation who holds our fate in her tender, moist fingertips this goddess of water, worship her with your lips your tongue, your eyes feast on her beauty and she will reward your heart with a crystalline infusion of light and love divine essence from our earth mother's veins drink deep all my relations. Dedicated to the FlowFest crew Check it out: Sept. 12-13 in Nelson, BC More at: http://flowfest.ca

brrrr

Terran — Wed, 27 Aug 2008 17:18:18 GMT

autumn breezes whispering across my skin leaving tingling echoes flickering over my skin remnants of times your voice in my ear, speaking your truth, so clear beckoning goosebumps reminiscent of the day when you cracked my skull wide open and my contents poured out into my heart overflowing it, too, into words i send to you a stream of consciousness carving this valley between your smile and my bliss

Didgeri-kiss

Terran — Thu, 21 Aug 2008 07:32:53 GMT

i tasted the sound spirals today, swirling them around my tongue and humming along in tune with my chakras the vibration and the rhythm singing as one as my lips buzz in anticipation of the next Didgeri-kiss oh how i love this bliss you have affectionately brought into my awareness

whether ever never

Terran — Tue, 17 Jun 2008 03:43:43 GMT

repeated trials of me-anderings finally real eyes ing all the ways I put the he (the me) before the she forgetting the beauty that exists in the male/female marriage internal eternal prayer of the emotions and the senses ever never mind's eye lenses seeing the path (walking it too) occasional detours healing journeys soul-baring sojourns feeling forsaken and then awaken to this bliss again cleansing rains releasing forgotten forms soothing calm, after the storm why try to make happiness the only way when every day whether i cry or whether i play whether the weather is sunny or grey my angels call out to light the way candles in the darkness never extinguished never distinguished from this love that i feel in every deepening breath so divine so real always remember never forget this presence i feel when i let go of regret

eye and i

Terran — Wed, 28 May 2008 09:32:22 GMT

*** image by artist Olafur Eliasson. Berlin. *** *** http://www.random-international.com/doubleeye/ *** born into blindness into this world, cast from be-ing all that is, into a reality of polarity, duality, seeing observer and observed these little blinds (much like the blinds you see in many windows) manifestations within this 3 dimensional world and necessary to its existence and mine... if i chose to i could close the blinds completely seeing only the blinds and nothing beyond yet eye am compelled by the nature of my humanity to peer through these blinds were eye to open all the blinds at once i would be dazzled consumed by the brilliance of p u r e b e i n g so i pull back the layers bit by bit blind by blind gazing into that all-embracing loving lightness through my actions, my meritorious and painful deeds each step of growth i take.. as i create works of beauty and art as i exemplify human passion curiousity courage... through these actions eye acknowledge this inherent divinity and eye open the blinds action by action o n e b y o n e and as eye gather with others and we share this brightness through the windows of our souls we open many blinds at once eye and eye basking in celebration of our mutual recognition of each other's divine nature namasté i and eye eye the observer eye and i the observer and the observed within this duality the two are one for neither could exist without the other the observed cannot exist without the observer... the reverse also being true. within this union interdependence necessity for being is evidence for the existence of the paradox of a single total oneness of being, experienced only through duality. that which is this human experience

Crossing the Border?

Terran — Tue, 15 Apr 2008 00:49:10 GMT

I know a lot of people are confused about the border, I was too, so i looked it up. Apparently we Canadians can still cross to the US over land (not by air) with two pieces of valid ID see: http://www.cbp.gov/xp/cgov/travel/vacation/ready_set_go/land_travel/chnge_in_proced.xml Also see: http://www.cbsa-asfc.gc.ca/whti-ivho/gov-gouv-eng.html http://travel.state.gov/travel/cbpmc/cbpmc_2223.html There's no set date on their site, but the general understanding seems to be that before or by June 2009, we will all likely need chip-enabled passports to do the same: http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,208004,00.html http://aftermathnews.wordpress.com/2008/01/09/new-chipped-north-american-passports-unencrypted-and-readable-30-feet-away/ or perhaps a North American Drivers License: http://www.worldnetdaily.com/news/article.asp?ARTICLE_ID=57502 Still reading??? Wanna go further down the Rabbitt hole? read little bit about the other changes to our neighborly relations: Council of Canadians - http://www.canadians.org/ SPP - http://www.canadians.org/integratethis/ Love and Light, Terran

renewal

Terran — Mon, 07 Apr 2008 07:35:33 GMT

i smelled the trees today it felt like it could have been a thousand years since that musky earth footprint dusted my nose when really, only a heartbeat in time away the frozen white veil no longer dividing me from my mother's divine fragrance birth life renewal growth in an instant my years have come undone rendering me a playful child befriending stray hounds, and dancing along the beaches of my dreams happily embracing this continuous abundance of be ing in spr ing

The one that got away

Terran — Thu, 27 Mar 2008 17:00:08 GMT

remembering you is ointment to that wound "which one?" you know. the one when my heart was so full it burst wide open and all my insides spilled out for you to see? i think of you, here, now this apparition of loving kindness as if you melted into the floor seeped into the cracks of my longing lost, but not forgotten... remembering the times when we walked together and when we laughed along with your parents and those times spent crying in the night, wondering if your neighbors were listening to our willful tales of misspent youth and though you escaped whatever misery we surely would have faced together I still ache for that capturing, that moment in time, (the two of us, frozen in romantic ecstacy, as if it were a prize to be kept...) still yearning for that misspent truth and still looking at you as I do, as The one that got away silly, hey?

form less

Terran — Mon, 10 Mar 2008 06:49:17 GMT

winding in this spiraling way on another phantom sidestep day when all the world is rosey clear and crystal mind-sets fill the air cloudy still, seeming incomplete these words as actions still sometimes sleep ...yet in the fits and starts so filled with devotion and joy, love and will letting go of all i knew to learn it all again, anew in each moment i breathe living essence to each leaf each flower, each branch, each root below beneath the soil, beneath the snow melting, seeping, nurturing seeds of friendship, honour, loving deeds and in each step upon this path i find i have all i thought i lacked watered with gratitude, i see the rows of abundant beauty as forth it grows, never ceasing, stopping, this four ever flow... seeing who "I" Am after letting go.

dreaming

Terran — Thu, 06 Mar 2008 07:48:59 GMT

"Dreaming" ~ Image by Johannus Boots - http://www.edjo.com/forever/gallery/boots/ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ in a state of grace on this blessed land pouring out into the water reaching hands wanting, waiting for the end to draw nearer and still clearer another dream... a dream of becoming kings and queens in our own minds our own hearts and all we all gain when king and queen are together again another dream awakens from the world's mind it's born taking me back to before i had form in the time of no time i'm vibrations sublime with this spark of devotion creation, emotion there is that beneath all that i feel when i call out the name of our mother in loving embrace..... gaia! how bout we all give up? and let up, and share how bout we deliver with gratitude and care for the new ways, the new days in the present p r e s i d e when we put all our egos and worries aside ...how do you feel? do you need to decide? oh it's so complex says the mind to the mind if you feel that confusion peel back the illusion.. see the power in knowing from where we are born is that which gives glory to this miraculous form in the skin.. from within... in this true s'elf i play. and wonder sometimes what the world might say.... .

Prayer to our Mother

Terran — Fri, 29 Feb 2008 07:00:11 GMT

Thank you Mother Gaia Goddess Creator Divine Intelligence for This moment for this Blessing of being Alive and human and aware and loved may i forever be in your service may i continue to walk with grace may i embody... abundance compassion courage discipline humility honesty integrity patience purity may i always recognize and appreciate the sacredness of all beings may this planet be healed may the balance be restored may all my actions be guided by spirit for the benefit of all beings in harmony with divine will all my relations aho ~~ photo credit ~~ Paper Bags, 2007 - http://www.chrisjorden.com 60x80" Depicts 1.14 million brown paper supermarket bags, the number used in the US every hour. Currently showing till Mar 2, 2008 in Vancouver http://winsorgallery.com/exhibits.php ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Man has eaten God

Terran — Tue, 05 Feb 2008 10:36:47 GMT

"...you are what you eat" YOUR words they flow you seem to show the truth involved with Letting go, the process of forgetting the preconception embracing the inception of infinity incarnate in a breath. a moment so fleeting greeting the unknown with a savouring... amidst it all a flavouring of the life unlived, the stone unturned this is the life I've yearned for and now find myself surrounded by oh how this love of life finds itself, in me, in you yes it finds itself within and on the internet too and it finds it's way out, to the lonely meanderings through the trails and lookouts of gyro park or the whining of street lamps alone in the half dark quietude wandering, wondering waiting for another dreamer of a freshly-baked-cookie-space with mouth watering for just a taste? this post dedicated to "The Cheese" ~ photo from http://www.missginsu.com/2007/05/taking-on-issues-one-lemon-bar-at-time.html ~

Listening to the moon, chillin' a bit...

Terran — Thu, 31 Jan 2008 12:34:50 GMT

I was going to take the bus home to nelson this morning, yet i was feeling stress about it... I felt this in my bones, and then I was late calling the cab and one company said half an hour at minimum, and the other put me on hold for 5 minutes... So I decided to see where the moon was at... according to : http://www.cafeastrology.com/timingwiththemoon.html the moon went void of course today at 3:35am and stays that way till 5:08pm: """""""""""" Jan 31, 2008 3:35 AM Moon Sqr Mer V/C Jan 31, 2008 5:08 PM Moon enters Sagittarius """""""""""" I decided I will wait and catch the 10pm bus, instead of the 6:30 am to 5:05pm one...I'm in Calgary and I feel good. "According to theory, most activities should be initiated when the Moon is not Void of Course. Activities started during the void period generally don't work out to our liking, or they need some serious adjustment in order for them to meet any success. Therefore, if possible, one should avoid going on a first date, a job interview, starting a business or project, and so forth, during the Void of Course Moon. In Horary Astrology, in which a person asks a question and then the astrologer draws a chart of that moment in order to find an answer, if the Moon is Void of Course, we generally consider that "nothing will come of the matter... ...According to theory, most activities should be initiated when the Moon is not Void of Course. Activities started during the void period generally don't work out to our liking, or they need some serious adjustment in order for them to meet any success. Therefore, if possible, one should avoid going on a first date, a job interview, starting a business or project, and so forth, during the Void of Course Moon. In Horary Astrology, in which a person asks a question and then the astrologer draws a chart of that moment in order to find an answer, if the Moon is Void of Course, we generally consider that "nothing will come of the matter... ...Another important timing factor involves the phase of the Moon. As a general principle, starting a project is more favorable during the waxing period of the Moon (from New Moon to Full Moon). You will want to conclude projects or do preparation work for a new project (not start a new one) during the waning phase of the Moon (from Full Moon to New Moon)." NOTE : It is waning now This article brings up a lot to consider if you were planning big actions or projects today, might be a better day to do the dishes, or organize your desk, or fold laundry, or hang out in the snow....

What does it cost to buy the Presidency?

Terran — Mon, 28 Jan 2008 10:20:40 GMT

Check it out: "Adding up the primary candidate, convention, and general election receipts produces a total, according to the FEC, of $1,016.5 billion. This does not include independent expenditures, 527 spending, and spending by membership organizations communicating with their members. The Center for Responsive Politics put total spending on the 2004 presidential election at $1.2 billion while noting that "this figure includes a very conservative estimate of spending by advocacy groups." http://www.gwu.edu/~action/2008/presfin08.html Anybody still wondering why it is that big money rules the world....?

growing pains....

Terran — Sat, 12 Jan 2008 09:07:26 GMT

Sometimes my favorite Love doesn't make me tingle Sometimes my favorite Love is the one that makes me bleed the one that t e a r s m e o p e n and shows me my soul beating chanting this eternally throbbing pulsse of humanity burning so deeply in my veins igniting me exploding me... and when you expose me ..................like ............................that so firmly so gently i shiver to see how extraordinarily cool it is. out here in the wide open

Action 26 - Give Blood!

Terran — Wed, 09 Jan 2008 09:30:59 GMT

Check out this brilliant short animation: http://youtube.com/watch?v=onBUYLVO9EY one in a series inspired by the "we are what we do" books i'm pleased to be sharing office space with Paul Edny who helped put together "Change the world for 10 bucks" (canadian edition) also see: http://www.wearewhatwedo.org.au and other vids at: http://youtube.com/profile?user=WAWWD { image courtesy of http://www.wearewhatwedo.org.au/downloads }

Barack Obama vs Hillary Clinton

Terran — Tue, 08 Jan 2008 02:01:31 GMT

Hillary's Sliding Numbers: http://phlamer.blogspot.com/2008/01/hillarys-sliding-numbers.html Acceptance Speech: Barack Obama speaks after winning the Iowa Caucuses Thursday night. http://ca.youtube.com/watch?v=yqoFwZUp5vc Discussion on Tribe.net: http://tribes.tribe.net/a5745ee3-1390-4c7d-8811-28291b542c8b Thoughts, comments, anyone???

Metta

Terran — Mon, 07 Jan 2008 09:30:17 GMT

in kindness give as you can to that which you love without thought of compensation self less service to the other is service to each of us as well in being given the gift of presence here we receive the responsibility to share our blessings with our brothers our sisters, our mothers and fathers and with all our relations who watch and guide us along this good red road blessed be! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yopTg-Qv12k * image courtesy of google image search - http://www.crystalinks.com/buddhametta.jpg *

the only thing we can truly count on...

Terran — Sun, 06 Jan 2008 07:35:06 GMT

...in the next moment is change "change is the only constant" so why seek to change? change is inevitable "I need to change" in saying so, what I am REALLY saying to the universe is: "I assume that things will be the same in the next moment, and I am unhappy with that reality" if you believe that the underlying intention behind all thought is inherently creative and manifests in this reality observe what "I need to change" is creating in this reality: a static state, which i am unhappy with change is inevitable surf the waves with grace and patience making the choices in each moment that allow you to live within your highest self knowing that this, too, shall pass whatever this is

oh look!

Terran — Mon, 31 Dec 2007 07:50:16 GMT

there you go cracking me open all over again this ecstatic aching never ceasing to a-maze me winding me in knots that you cut through smoothly with your tender tantalizing text your loving lyrical lingerings that soothe my seething soul and this oh so swift real-ity setting in the bridging of the illusory and the centrifugal truth of be-ing sensations overflowing and abounding as i relinquish my connections to the paradigms of the past thecounterproductive-not-so-useful-ohishouldjustquitdoingthat's letting them fall to the wayside like the woeful flowers on a curving highway lost but not forgotten reminders of where i have been and am no longer.. because...? oh look! there it is! did you see it? another moment just arrived!

"elusive" you say...

Terran — Sun, 30 Dec 2007 12:16:26 GMT

"elusive" you dubbed me (so smoothly) sir-elude-a-lot and with a wave of your magick fairy wand vanished into the breeze elude you? if you please. we both create this dance for the chance to divide our shadows under this devoted gaze to conquer fear, release attachment to love unconditionaly, to be detached focusing in-wards in this shell keeps me safe some times safe from melting into you where our hearts un-mend splitting in two pouring into each other' the eternal wine until it overflows soaking us in this divine blissful union we call joy maybe i'm not elusive... perhaps i just haven't had the courage to be that drunk with you yet ====== elusive 1. Tending to elude capture, perception, comprehension, or memory 2. Difficult to define or describe {photo from http://myjoi.com/}