Boy, am I tired of my life!

I wasn't supposed to be born at the time that I was... They had to induce me and such...
Then did a C-section because all efforts were futile.

Why did my soul choose the chart. >=/

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Here Lilith is quite intolerant. The native thinks he has the monopoly
of truth, which makes him very demanding indeed ruthless. But life
will break all his principles. The native would like to live what he
has chosen according to his own will, but it will be impossible.
There will be limits that can't be crossed and the native will not be
allowed to take some directions indeed even to compel the events.
Uranus, one of Aquarius masters, is always in hurry and wants
everything immediately. Stability is not its main concern. It means
that long-term projects will always be shaken up or changed. The
native may have to free himself from past life's chains and fight for
his independence. There we find an excessive need of liberty and
revolutionary instincts, according to a broad-minded vision of the
world, indeed even the need of greater spiritual horizons. The native
may be obliged to take care of close relatives what could be felt as
a lack of freedom. The lesson here will be to understand that inner
freedom is most important. Changes, moves, betrayals of friends will
happen regarding friendship. There is also a big fund of creativity
and the chart will indicate in which field this will be expressed.
The native may work in humanitarian activities or open his mind to a
wider spiritualist vision of things. As the Uranian energy is very
powerful, it is very important to have a look at Saturn's location,
in order to understand how this will be channeled. If the force is
locked or not properly channeled, or used in a too strict and
personal way, psychic troubles, nervous paralysis may occur.

Leo opposite Aquarius will oblige to adhere to conservative social
structures and to respect them. Also Aquarian Lilith will be obliged
to "think" with her heart - and not only with her head - to integrate
the notion of love in his ideas about humankind. Thereby the native
will be able to exercise his influence on a wide unselfish mode.
Freedom for everyone and to teach people that inner liberty is the
utmost important one.

In past lives, the soul might have been part of group life, in
communities, gathered in the same ideals. These contexts might have
been freely chosen or imposed. In both cases, the soul was
disappointed in her hopes about ideology, solidarity. Her experiences
and traumas are bound to her quest of freedom and her beliefs in
human-being dignity.

Today, the native is both attracted and suspicious by "great ideals".
He would like to invest himself but he "feels" a danger. Attraction
and rejection of ideals, politic, freedom-worship, individuality, is
different subjects the native will have to deal with. Too much
attached to his freedom, he has an instinctive fear to be - again -
trapped whatever the context, the relation, the love are.

If Black Moon is at the very beginning of Aquarius, the future is
always questioned: permanent improvisation and adaptation required.
The native must not be scarred in acting, in finding day after day
solutions in order to handle situations, even if he does not clearly
see the results.

If Black Moon is at the very end of Aquarius, the native must handle
his life and decide to win. He will neither be allowed to let his
instincts commanding, nor to leave the place because it's too hard,
but he will have to manage without imposing his own will.

Keywords: great tension - nervousness - betrayals, death of friends -
claustrophobia - sexual independence or sexual ambivalence -
attraction or rejection of independence - sudden trials - divorce
possibility - search of an absolute freedom - accidents - surgery -
must learn to express his true personality - must learn to open
himself to others - in a feminine chart often indicates a "liberated"
woman personality - must learn to open himself to others - in a
feminine chart often indicates the "liberated" woman