Bomb your Reality TV...

Colorado...

thecosmicdiva — Fri, 13 Nov 2009 20:20:19 GMT

Been living outside of Boulder... going out to Southern Colorado though and back to community... I am just not the Urban girl I used to be... unless I am performing. Miss everyone! Hope all is well... See you on the journey... Find me on Facebook too guys... LOVE LOVE LOVE The Cosmic Diva

PLEASE VOTE FOR ME!!! RADIO HOST MISSOULA!

thecosmicdiva — Wed, 29 Oct 2008 02:41:18 GMT

www.fresh1045.com Jess Taylor Click the dot next to my name and scroll down and click send! This is for the position as morning show host on one of the top radio stations in Missoula!! THANKS SO MUCH LOVE LOVE LOVE Jes

Blowing Up in Zoo Town!!! Acceleration Warp....

thecosmicdiva — Fri, 03 Oct 2008 21:15:25 GMT

Wow what can I say... a little Hibernation is just what the doctor ordered! So Two weeks ago I crawled out of my cave... and now my phone is ringing off the hook... I have more opportunities than I can even handle... I have one Dj night per week that covers each genre of music I love... (4 Total) I am now part of a Psychadelic, Electro, Hip Hop Group called "Special Peoples" I just laid down six new downtempo electro tracks (see myspace) My Children are fantastic and ever so frigging amazing... (Loads of new pics on myspace) Still doing research... rocking ebay... and testing out them pyschic skills too... THE FLOW IS FABULOUS... Find it if you have lost it... Its running parallel to you at all times... if your not actually in it... Needed some RNR For sure... hey guys don't forget to just stop and regenerate it may be all you truly need when you are feeling stuck in getting to the next step... I love you all and will write more soon... got a Dub/Reggae gig in an hour! LOVE LOVE LOVE The Cosmic Diva

New Music!!! New Album!!!

thecosmicdiva — Fri, 19 Sep 2008 00:30:39 GMT

Check it Check it... www.myspace.com/thecosmicdiva Been a busy girl... Having baby... Getting grounded... Djing again... Making music... Rocking it on Ebay... Lovein Life... Working fo myself... from the comfort of my home... In the Flow as ever.. The Diva has emerged unscathed from the ever long journey of understanding and growth... Come see me... www.ticsid.org www.thecosmicdiva.com Jes

Welcome baby Zen Elan Ra!

thecosmicdiva — Wed, 12 Mar 2008 04:03:38 GMT

Born March 1st 2008!

The Day Monsanto Falls... The Funeral to Trump all Funerals

thecosmicdiva — Fri, 25 Jan 2008 23:11:52 GMT

The Day Monsanto goes down will be a victorious day for Humanity... Will we converge in the streets as though World War III has ended... Or like the Funeral for Princess Di? Or will we allow the media to sugar coat it or simply ignore it and fall back asleep in our unawareness of what a triumphant victory it will actually be for the future of Humanity. These Chemical Corporations have incited violent revolutions in other countries... People shot in the streets trying to protect thier food supply and individual health rights as thier families are poisoned by the spraying and thier crops destroyed. Yet we sit here and consume our slow death with great ease and acceptance. Believing that Humanity is actually benefiting and please show me a scientific document that proves we are living longer and healthier than we did before the Industrial Age? While the small farmer disentegrates... our only hope in economic catastrophe wiped out by some mad scientist that has stumbled on the fact that controlling the food supply is the most solid way to control the World. I am sorry but humanity has not evolved beyond its inherent nature to control the world that has been in existence and has created the most catastrophic realities since the beginning of time... do not pretend that somehow suddenly after 50 years since the last blatent holocaust that somehow people of power have suddenly stopped having these tendencies... I promise you they have simply become more clever. Does no one notice how they have tried to patent such simple things like Tumeric, and Rooibos... and what about our genetic make up... our miracle genes that make us smart or disease resistent. Owned by the biotech industry or even worse the Pharmacuetical industry... Things not even native to the great America, things not invented but belonging to nature and humanity. Things that impede science and research and your ability to have a real cure or breakthrough. Does no one care that while they destroy mother natures natural evolution they are buying up native seed until nothing will be left but thier inferior products. Welcome to the age of dependance and fear... the most powerful tools of control. Does no one have the slightest bit of concern to look into the scientific research that shows the negative health effects, the antiobotic resistence, the ability to mutate dormant viruses, and most of all the ability to infiltrate human DNA? No we continue to eat the soy... Oh you healthy Vegetarians you if you only knew. Poisoned by our own ignorance we accept death like a means of attention getting. Does it really not effect us so we don't have to worry about it? Tell me then... what illnesses are you families dying from... can one of you claim immaculate health through your whole genetic line? You parents generation the blindest of all accepting thier cancers and taking blame when the rise is due to serious changes in our food and environment... do you think we are benefited by the fact that it is also a major industry for profit making. Slow Death the biggest earner for the 20th Century. What does it take for humanity to wake up and make a stand. We even accept personal responsibility for disease when so much can be placed on our food and environment. Privatising everything... people die of thirst with a water plant next to them because thier right to water has become some corporations private interest as the Country itself tries to seek creative ways to free itself from the extortion. Dependance again. I begin to pray for the second coming and I am not even denominational as I start to wonder that that is the only hope for humanity. I love the "NOW" but by ignoring our future what does that mean for our children, our childrens children? We have a hundred years of escalating issues mounting year after year... and what is being done... Silenced voices fighting a war for us when simply our participation can catalyse the whole reality of truth. Can change the whole institution. Can manifest that golden age so many meditate on. We are brainwashed and brain dead. Letting them convince us that we are powerless. Following the pied piper into a consumerist matrix of every man for himself. My motivations too are myself and my family... and extends out to the whole of humanity... as thier future is humanities future... Maybe thats why they are discouraging us from having children... because without them we are inherently selfish... Focussed only on Image and aquisition... No awareness of how empty and unhappy we are... cause we can just accept that is another of our flaws and eat the poison to remedy that too... Eliminating the need to face our own demons and do the inner work necessary to trancend those negative emotions that are generally linked to a flawed reality where we are manipulated to live against our nature. Forever aware of how our reality begins to resemble science fiction from the fourties I wonder when it will begin to resemble current day science fiction... and we notice less and less or simply disbelieve that it is actually part of the real reality because we watched it last week on The X Files... or in the latest made for TV movie. We can no longer distinguish the difference between the two. What a great triumph for the master minds... All marketing based on the clever awakening in the birth of PR... that we can be totally molded by our selfish desires... and we try to believe that somehow we are a superior species. Simply superior because some clever idiot figured out how to prey on our stupidity maybe. WAKE UP AND SAVE YOURSELVES! I guess death is the greatest escape. Jesaka Irwin 2007

Intuition & Fear

thecosmicdiva — Sat, 19 Jan 2008 11:56:55 GMT

Something I posted in 2012 a while back that just got brought to my attention... Intuition & Fear... Do you realize not so long ago humanities biggest fear was prolly what if it doesn't rain... The key is to eliminate the fear... Not only with hope... but with determination & action. For example I am affraid of what they are doing to the food... solution grow my own... buy organic... (you say thats so expensive) then buy bulk... if you don't have a store... shop online... in the end you will save money, feel better, help the planet, and possibly save you and your families life... (no one knows yet what the outcome of all this industrial age industry is going to be) We see the pollution though... I am affraid of the polution... solution move to where the air is clean... I am affraid of the control of the medical industry and the manupulations of the pharmacuetical industry... solution... become my own healer by firstly eliminating what is unhealthy and replenishing properly... if you cut out all the shit and live in nature and eat healthy... you will remain healthy... Despite being in Africa... I wasn't sick for the 3 years I was there and a big part of that was likely that I didn't have insurance and go running to the hospital every time my nose would run... I learned to appreciate the true healing properties of what today are called "old wives tales" (Do you know why the medical industry is becoming so aggressive about making us fear for our health? Cause we are heading to homeopaths & accupucturists and save them as a last resort) "Are you tired? Feeling Down? Lower Back Pain? Sleeping Disturbed? Ask your doctor today... "Escape" may just be the drug for you!" (We all have these symptoms at some point thats what makes it clever marketing and the BBC even published an article are the pharmacuetical companies inventing diseases.) I'm affraid of the things our government has done and when and how those actions may come back to us... soluton... Stop giving them the money to do those things... Without our tax dollars alot of congressmen would not be driving mercedes... For those of you who say you make it sound easy but its not... the only thing that is not easy about moving away from the fear machine whether it is propoganda or pollutants... Is the Conditioning that was created to keep us consuming this crap and padding thier pockets... Break Free... make that choice and seek your place... IT doesn't necessarily take money so much as a willingness and determination to break free... the abilty to work even if its in a garden... on a farm... etc... there is much in place to welcome us into it... but no one is going to knock on your door and say hey follow me... let me show you how to be free. (Except for maybe me right now) The city will always be there should you wish to visit or sell your things to the consumers who cannot live without the machine... (what're they going to do when it comes tumbling down? I'm affraid of that to... solution... try to show them another way) The hard part is breaking out of the conditioning that says there is no way for you to make that possible... We must stop thinking there is nothing we can do to fascilitate the Golden Age... we must manifest it... now... by moving away from that which is destructive and moving towards that reality so many believe is not possible. We must put them out of business... and we cannot do that if we are all just standing by consumed by the fear they propogate, thinking there is nothing we can do... but accept it... That my friends is exactly what they want us to do... "Go out drink, party, work, play... just don't mind US... we really have your best interest at heart... trust me" At least now they are getting a wake up call... as our major importers are not buying our gm crap... which of course just means our government will likely try to feed it back to us. I'm tired of living in fear... and peace is here on earth... but not as long as we are supporting the destruction... the seperation...and letting the fear immbilize us... whether in a small or large way... As for intuition... it will get worse before it gets better... I'm heading for solid ground. Jesaka

A life that changes...

thecosmicdiva — Thu, 27 Dec 2007 14:47:39 GMT

A life that changes like the wind into a tornado cause of destruction only to disipate on the horizon once the wind has met enough barriers to desintigrate. Yet the destruction remains to be rebuilt if re-construction is afforded. Though my life that changes has no available storm insurance anymore. I dissipate into a shadow of my former strength against my will yet subject to self inflicted consequence. Ahhh the reality of a life of impulse. So I am stregthened in new ways out of my weaknesses. And in all those years I felt judged... I suddenly understand the true meaning of judgement... Descrimination... Fear. And one should suggest to me that fear stands in the way of my ability to take risks... but is it truly fear... or have I learned a lesson... For it was risk taking that has caused so much destruction... and has led me further from my goal... yet I still hope in some strange way... it will bring me to it... in ways I never could have reached it before. I built my hut in a war zone and should I now complain or feel ashamed... that the war has destroyed my idea of home? It was after all the risk I took... I knew where I was building. Even though it is nature itself that wages war upon me. It is also nature that saves me and leads me home... Where I am truly safe... ahhh the mixed blessings of learning the hard way. Will I ever learn if i do not try to do things differently... learning the same lesson again and again... despite natures scars that I wear like a badge of shame even though I refuse to be ashamed The badge alone makes other think I have failed the world and myself. That I am actually some dark image super imposed over abundant light. I am simply light and though nature now teaches me to seek solid ground and protect that light from the darkness that is the human condition I grow into isolation an illusion of safety in avoidance of storms... and so life changes dramatically in the blink of a blind eye that suddenly can see in the darkness of a former idea inspired by impulse like a storm that rages instantly in the conflict of changing winds. Jesaka 07

What is love...

thecosmicdiva — Fri, 21 Dec 2007 11:04:32 GMT

What is love... Love is a friend in the midst of darkness climbing out of the shadows telling me that I am not alone... Travelled miles in the rain... to hold my hand through the darkest pain. Always there no matter how far living and breathing inside of my heart... light or dark... and you were the only one. What is love... Love is so many words never said dancing in and out of our heads over years over miles over tears over smiles... we'd never go there but we always would have if the timing had ever been right on one of those misty nights if only you lived up the stairs... who would have dared... and even when my ego was too big... you were still there... and you were the only one. What is love... Love is that which divides me now into light and dark. yet these trials unite me in such a new way with its true meaning... one I could never see... though many try still...to love me... despite everything. I have learned of its illusions... dissillusions strange intrusions that free me from lust my greatest prison. and I go now detached from obsession what a beautiful impression... and only certain truths can gain entry... Who has ever been there? you were the only one. And the phone rings and he tells me how much he cares though he knows nothing of me but the scares and I tell him a story of the only friend that was really there... in the midst of the madness... and then I hear a buzz and theres a message and its you... right in the moment I was speaking... I hang up the phone... and as I write this my laughter turns to tears in all those years I was so blind... what if you were the only one. Even when I was afraid of myself with you I was comfortable. Though my fears have deminished my self love replenished... My worth and value unscathed by some undefinable inconsistent and undetectable treachery that no longer makes since even though for a moment I let it get the best of me... They say thats how it happens... but I fear I could be too late... all these strange twists of fate that intrude upon me. Solitude is so uncomplicated. Love is one that still remains after the laughter and through the rain stripped of everything but truth. Though if I should settle for less let it be that you're the best you have passed the greatest test... in this friendship I am utterly blessed and always know... how much I love you. Jes.

And sometimes we just need peace and space...

thecosmicdiva — Sat, 08 Dec 2007 03:23:12 GMT

Forever blessed to be nestled into my own space... for the first time in years... The world is spiralling towards a major climax... and those of us with our eyes open need to take a minute to cleanse... to clear... and to re-connect with our inner harmony... as we move through this world weaving in and out of peoples lives... we pick up so many little tid bits of energy... some peaceful and much chaotic... The closer we get to true enlightenment... the more temptations and confusions and illusions will come forward to alter our direction, make us question our path, make us doubt our purpose... Accept each challenge with an open heart and keep the eyes wide... and re-align again and again with your truth... You always know it... because you are happiest when you are aligned with it... doubt, frustration, fear, complacency, insecurity... these are all signs that we are lost... Find the path it is there... though it may take some work to get back on it at times... stay focussed on what fullfills you... even if it doesn't pay you in bills... because it does pay whether you see it or not... appreciate every gift that comes from your purpose... whether small or great... appreciate the small gifts most... for they lead you to the great... Shed all that does not align you with your purpose... and one of the most valuable affirmations I have had in the longest time... There is no need for compromise! When you are aligned with your purpose, your truth... there will be no need for compromise... There is a place where you can be you... keep marching forward and do the work necessary... it is there... and the door will open... when you need it most. and it will be all of your own doing... with the help of many you usually cannot see. J

What can I say... A philosophical disertation...

thecosmicdiva — Sat, 01 Dec 2007 00:48:17 GMT

Home has its benefits... The road can be exhausting... Especially when your pregnant and getting more so month by month... Its looks to be a boy... I will hug him and sqeeze him and call him Zen... Nothing like a shiny home... and a pantry full of food... A Closet full of clean laundry... A little solitude... and space... and mountains... To make a girl feel whole again... Assured... Grounded. All the search for community and place has simply left me with the need to be alone... in the country... not barring friends and visitors of course... or those in need of a moments rest... But no one can provide anything we seek for us... but ourselves... and if you want it done right... do it yourself... And anyone that holds anything over you for offering you something you seem to need or want... be weary... be very weary of that one. I have only ever been truly content with my own independant wealth. Luckily my own independant idea of wealth is not the mainstream idea of it... or I would be bound immeasurably into some form of slavery. Funny how when you live in a bus people seem to think when you rock up at thier house your going to wanna move in... or impose... or you'll never leave... a Homeless Vagabond... that can't live in society... Well you know what. FUCK that attitude... sure it does happen at times... but not by me... and it leaves you wondering about the meaning of friendship... and how none of them had a problem dropping in on you for weeks whenever they needed a place to retreat or crash and you had it... I just finished reading the Fountainhead... I had tried before but the whole corporate zeal and ego aspects always turned me off... so I never got to the juice of it... my my and boy what juice... and what timing for me to finally digest it... after much growth I understand it and see what a Novel Novel it is... I know this story ever so well... I used to think Chocolat' was one of my themes but this truly hits a profound spot within... And what a philisophical conflict... selfish versus selfless... and in reality also no man can be selfless without first looking after the self... as man would not exist if he did not take the steps necessary for his personal survival... and what this book so vigorously points out is that many of the so called selfless are simply giving away other peoples money... And how eagerly the biggest egotists go on spouting about the ego... the ego can be a monster... but yes... well said Ayn... A Healthy self image and concern for self and an unmovable integrity do not make you an ego-maniac... they make you strong... A Creator. One who knows the value of his art... The meaning. Even if no one else cares to. What I loved most... was pondering the idea of so many of some of my old friends from the days when I was so eager like Peter... to be accepted, admired, acknowleged... (yet inherently unhappy and unable to understand why) ...how many of them have looked down at me upon my return from africa as though I was fucking up because I refused to sell my soul any longer... refused to buy into the box... and live in a proper house... and get a REAL job... and PROVIDE for my children... Firstly I must have been challenging thier egos... and excuse me but as a mother is not providing my time for them essential to there up-bringing? Educating them... Loving them... Is choosing an alternative life that allows me to be with them not a noble cause for any mother... Have you not noticed how eagerly the government has convinced us to relinquish the fundamental right of being a parent... the right to raise our own children... no send them to institutions... hell we'll even pay for it... Get them to the mentality of sheep as soon as possible... Herd them... hurry. My children are my greatest companions... well that and the fact that I give new meaning to the word "accidental tourist" Despite the fact that the government thinks the lack of two parent families is the problem with our society... The lack of loving and involved parents is the problem with our society... The fact that the values and lessons being imposed on our children by the establishment is the problem with our society... Being afraid of the big guy who's going to steal your luch money is the problem with our society... Those who are abusive... have been abused... by an abuser... who at some point was abused by the system. We have been raped by public opinion... the indivual is being squashed... in many places... though not all... Though people have had issues thinking for themselves since the beginning of time... Hence why the sheep mentality has also existed... and the strong are either beaten through co-ersion of the ego, lack of belief in oneself... or they become rulers often falling into the same traps the swore they would change when they are in charge... Oh my what a wealth of philisophical thought I have been inspired to today... right at the moment when I was realizing personally how some of those who try to help us and encourage us on are seeking some gratification for thier own egos... and should you challenge that ego... they are the first to say you are worthless and won't be able to do anything without them... and should you show them your capabilities... of taking care of self... Where does that end up leaving them? I'll let you know if they ever answer the email that tells them how great I am doing... even better actually... without thier help and thier price tag. Ahhhh the great lesson of 2007... closed by the most fitting climax of theory by the Great Ayn Raynd... Gratzi... you russian demi-goddess... Your love of yourself is your most valuable tool... your most priceless treasure... your strongest weapon... and your greatest ally... Don't ever let anyone make you doubt your own self worth... and remember struggles come and go... they are part of life... don't ever let a struggle... defeat you.

Saying goodbye to a dependable friend and trusty stead!

thecosmicdiva — Fri, 16 Nov 2007 07:36:42 GMT

I said goodbye to the Galactic Ride today... Pout. Pout. Now I have this massive burly four wheel drive diesel truck... I feel so butch or something... It was hard... though I imagine how I will convert other buses one day... Its all good... but it was hard... Though I passed it on to another momma... a mirror of myself... Say hey to her if you see her out there... Forever in the flow and assessing the interesting aspects of attachment. Love to all...

Missoula...

thecosmicdiva — Sun, 11 Nov 2007 09:43:32 GMT

so here I am... 5 months pregnant... trading the bus for a four wheel drive... and she moves further into the mountains... Wishing this father was seperated from me by an ocean too... well I suppose we are seperated by the ocean of his self loathing... I should have known something wasn't right when I discovered I was pregnant... after assuming it was protected... Assume nothing... ever. At least I know despite everything that I do have self love... and that no one will compromise that... no matter what they say... no matter how they try to make me doubt myself... There are no rescuers no matter how tired or vulnerable we may feel... Only Angels and guides... and they have no price tag... so if you see a price or expectation... keep your eyes open... We ourselves alone hold the solutions... the keys to our existence... Great spirit and our intent alone can pull us out of anything... No mortal man can promise us redemption... Contemplating being homebound for a bit... The family forever growing... I don't mind tho... I love my abundant family... And I pleaded it could not happen overnight... only momentary explosions work like that... Which seemed to frustrate him immensely... and tho I ignored that reality for a moment... and tried to give it a go for the spirit of family... I do know that what I said was true... and no wonder he tried to convince me otherwise... The easy way is an illusion... and in a life of miracles... the dark will try to confuse us... with miracles tainted by the material & physical... Though I remember the true angels... and relish in the sudden opportunity to be one myself... So many I know seem to be resonating in the same moment with the same experience... are we learning... I am. Enjoying the idea of hibernation... the sanctity of solitude... the truth within... loving my self as a worthy companion... we must be able to love the company of ourselves... before we can truly love another. ahhhh the clean pure air of a real winter... the changing colors of changing seasons... being in a state that prides itself on playing by its own rules... Being in a state where there is a huge market for my talents... and many open doors... Feeling safely tucked into solid ground... mountains surround... and even the tap water is drinkable... Watching the world from a distance... and enjoying it... There will be other buses... other travels... but for now... I could use a rest... J

"Real" Estate...

thecosmicdiva — Sat, 06 Oct 2007 07:30:28 GMT

EVOLUTION!!!!! Somebodies got to... or we're really fucked! Have you heard the mainstream diet is getting pretty dangerous! I could add that my recent random foray into the media world gives me a distinct impression that we may need to buckle our seat belts soon... for a bit... that is if you haven't already... (maybe I don't pay attention enough (and for good reason) but things are pretty darn fucked on CNN/CBS/ABC) Sorry for the reminder those of you who know and those of you who don't care... Could Hillary finally socialize medicine? Really I mean would the CIA allow it? Random thoughts of JFK... The chinese are invading with nuclear toys? But the agency is doing thier job because the toys are getting recalled... (though I think doing thier jobs would mean there would be no recalls as they would have never entered the country... much less shops...childrens homes, mouths, etc... painted wooden blocks for toddlers!!!) Not to mention China is also selling weapons to Iraq? a breed of gun we won't sell to them apparently... our shipments are a little slow for some known reason... Thats gotta be biting the Military Industrial Complex in the ass... The Welfare peeps even distributed 300,000 lead laden lunch boxes to poor kids... Eat your fruits & vegetables!!!! And what exactly caused North and South Korea to suddenly like each other after all these years? Salmonella in burger patties? Ecoli in white chocolate? Oh and the US isle of deadly animal diseases could be moving to the mainland (How exactly do you move a laboratory like that? Then do you burn the Isle or something? Clinical Trials are on Trial as they try to figure out how 250 people can actually monitor 350,000 clinical trials... Blatent evidence that many are not even inspected... Yes guys what did I tell you the FDA is a dangerous weapons distributor... And George wants to drop bombs in Iran? (what was that amendment he made a year or so ago about staying in office in times of war? Martial Law or something) I really do hope someone would finally impeach this guy at that point! If we have a government worth supporting at all... The Republicans aren't even sure how to run in the aftermath of the current republican government... In all actuality I think those guys need some serious relaxation time... Something has really taken on toll on thier reasoning a little RnR may be in order... If not can't we at least commit them like we do alot of people that seem to be having nervous breakdowns... Can't we throw em out and bring in a new party... They are only useful if we feel the need for a bully on the playground... but most people really prefer the no bullying policy!!! Hell that would be first on the VETO list if we can't even give middle class kids medical coverage or relief! REALLY MAKES ME WONDER ABOUT THE WHOLE FREE MEDICAL TO THE DIRT POOR Tho... If your not willing to relieve the workers... what exactly are you doing to the poor with all that medical coverage? Excessive tests... just don't get me started... I'm discovering I am a little better off left to my own devices with MediCal as an option... They'll twist yer head and give you anything they can convince you you've got... Though I gotta give em credit for Trauma... they seem to have real purpose there... Isn't that enough to keep em busy... or are there just too many doctors to support... Those student loans must really be hell! I suppose no medical to the struggling middle class aids in forclosures too... No more refinancing the house... Forclosure Forclosure Forclosures . Seize all land and property... and divide us into Rich & Poor... although in case they have forgotten history... Thats a pretty dangerous climate for a government... 80 degrees in Conneticut in early october... actually everywhere but the North West.. CAN THE DEMOCRATS SAVE THE DAY? Though 22 republicans are retiring from the senate this election... (Who made bank under this president?) Maybe the screwed generation of politicians has finally had thier day... Que Sera Sera... Whatever will be will be... Please get out of the damn way so we can save our forsaken country. I still hold fast to the light... but cannot help but be perplexed... And hoping Jah is guiding me... to the right place for the right times... I will be holding space until the madness passes... we need to bless the land... and if I love you well... and you need to retreat... there could be space... Though I am looking forward to some solitude... I am ready for some secure space... The further I journey off the Grid... The more grounded, happy, and peacefull I feel... I wonder what thats all about... Keep your hearts open that the loan goes through... and I will have cheap rent too! Its looking really positivo... an extremely insane buy...

Thought provoking...

thecosmicdiva — Wed, 27 Jun 2007 07:32:14 GMT

Pharmacueticals = The worlds most dangerous Biological Weapon of mass destruction... Kind of wierd to look at it like that...

Portland!

thecosmicdiva — Thu, 21 Jun 2007 07:47:24 GMT

I so love this town... I breeze into my favorite coffee house... A couple of my Favorite people walk in as I sit down... Then we've all gathered on the sidewalk where people are crafting it up... Drinking Chai... Warm Welcome... Gathered later in my friends courtyard... sewing chinese silk onto my babies carrier... Leather Work... Painting... While watching the life of Cole Porter... Its like a New Orleans moment... Without being New Orleans... Constantly seeing myself in all of those around me... (Which is a fantastic sign of the kind of place it is) Everyone is familiar... And this is also the place where I get my head right... As I also have a friend here that does Cranial Sacral... It is soooo amazing getting your Head Aligned! Another Circle Set... As it was about 8 months ago when this adventure truly began... right here... When I got the Galactic Shuttle... And now I am back... In the Galactic Ride... Pondering as ever my evolution... Sharing my energy... Loving my tribe.

On the road again...

thecosmicdiva — Sun, 17 Jun 2007 01:08:41 GMT

So I am officially heading North... Towards Eugene... A little North of Arcata at one of my favorite camping spots... Lovin it. Oregonia here I come... Is anyone affiliated with CONTACT and can let me know anything... I have been trying to get through to them about bringing the bus up but have had no word... Anyways... regardless... I will see you Oregonians soon.... LOOOOOOOOOOVe U! J

The Glorious Winds of Change...

thecosmicdiva — Tue, 12 Jun 2007 01:14:13 GMT

I have been pondering my growth quite deeply lately... How I have suddenly began to approach everything in my life in a more evolved way.. Slowly... patiently...gently... peacefully... How many of the trappings of the old world of materialism & vanity have simply disappeared from my life... Though so many for some reason still find me a threat... (this I will never understand) Though I find materialism tricky indeed... as when all your desires sit there at your disposal it is so easy to fall back into the world of illusions. The Great Hall of Mirrors. The Castle of Want. I shall remain focused on my intent. Looking closely at all the cosmic coincindences that keep me afloat on this path that is most definitely supported by something more than just my hard work, determination and optimism. How through my belief in the power of manifestation I have begun to truly manifest all the things that I want to be a part of my reality. How I am truly becoming me. Even the one I always dreamed I would be... How the fear is dissipating. How somehow no matter what happens... no matter how difficult... Everything works out... Quite Miraculously most of the time... so much so that I find less & less need to worry. Even though I am this lone momma with baby on hip & son as sidekick. Even though I have been down to the dollar... though never for long... never for very long. And food is always abundant... and I can always do some gardening if need be. Jah has never left me stranded. Great Spirit guides me without a map and it is the only way to travel as I have travelled many ways. And there is so much to see... and home is there... waiting for me... Wherever I want it to be... beautifully... Nestled in the belly of the mother... I discover ancient songs never hidden yet never sung... as we bring forth the ancient story... waiting for the elders to join together as one. To reclaim what belongs to them and the sun... Oh children of the ancient ones... Step forward and lead the way... So we can return to our true selves in a more evolved way. I am simply basking in the glow of the flow... and felt the need to share.

GIG A THON!

thecosmicdiva — Thu, 07 Jun 2007 19:04:02 GMT

MY my my... How life just bursts open in the blink of an eye... I am setting up an allstar line up for my new career leanings... Thus far Reggae Rising (DJ) Burning Man (Camera Assist) & Earth Dance... (Camera Assist) The path ever unfolding though the Direction becoming somewhat directed... Believe in the power of Manifestation. Jesaka

Create Your Own Reality...

thecosmicdiva — Wed, 06 Jun 2007 22:21:16 GMT

The vast road... unfolding like a lotus flower... exposing all the hidden secrets lurking in the landscape... buried treasure there... there... and right there particularly. all the different clans uniting in strange & amazing places... They have forgotten their clan names... though in a way the lines of separation are erased... The Ancient disagreements forgotten... The colors blending into a sea of unique beauty. We are becoming one again... I think it frightens the think tanks to think that someday separation could be erased from our memory banks Unification being the controllers worst enemy... And so we meet again my friend and if I tell you the secrets I know will you believe them... Or will you laugh and say... Anyway... Today tomorrow Where are we going being plagued amidst the ruins of a falling empire the last esquire... scrounging up the last dollars for thier day under the sun... And who will they follow without the world of print to map out thier dramas like day time tv Keep them confused and it becomes hard for them to see the hypocrisy,,, Keep them consumed and they wont have time to see the hypocrisy... And the Hypocrites prevail as Hippocrates goes stale... and great minds don't get to live out thier lifetimes... But I hold tight to the divine and know that Karma is entwined and every day it gets more and more amazing... To live a path without fear knowing Jah Spirit IS there... and that divine miracles lie within all the struggles... we reach that plane where things simply remain... and we jump in and out of these silly alternate realities... Gratitude... Intent... Humility... Praise Jah.

Dj Cosmic Diva gets the act together...

thecosmicdiva — Fri, 01 Jun 2007 23:33:58 GMT

So I am sitting after getting all the equipment hooked up and recording my latest Hip Hop mix to drop on venues when I fly through... Ahhhhh... those little moments of completion where we tie up those little swinging ribbons on the highway of our dreams... It sounds so fly. I will get the mix up at some point... The uploading of the video is still on hold as I am downloading & upgrading... and well simply learning a thing or two... I musta hit on something in the video direction as the world has just opened up in massive ways... and its looking to become an illustrious career... I shall look forward to the next time I brake down on the side of the road. (It's kinda like the universe said... you can stop.....right......here. ) I love the magic that is life... embrace it... its quite the adventure! J

Magical Manifestation!

thecosmicdiva — Thu, 31 May 2007 19:30:33 GMT

I just want to re-iterate to everyone... If you embrace the moment... Stay focussed in your intent and walk in truth. You can manifest anything... and even sometimes everything... in one moment... and never get bummed in the struggles... cause they often hold the greatest rewards if you remain open to recieve them.

The Book of the Hopi...

thecosmicdiva — Tue, 22 May 2007 18:30:42 GMT

I highly recommend it... Thier Creation Story makes a ton of sense... Re-iterates why the voices of the ancient ones continue to re-surface... and it resonates deeply... and I start to wonder if one of these random rocks I have picked up might fit on the edge of thier broken tablet... even if not.... I do believe these are my people... and that a pilgrimage is definitely in order... On top of it all... They have managed to hold tight to the true values... The same ones I instinctually live by... Not getting warped by the values that have destroyed humanity again and again... as we watch the destruction escalate every day... still singing thier songs to the creator... still hearing the voice of guidance within... and what is so abstact about our sky father and earth mother that these people have been misunderstood for centuries... and how they knew all that would unfold... and how they watch now... knowing that they have found that sacred space where they are protected... Is that not what we all migrate for to all ends of the continent? How many of us have the spirit of our true people swimming around within... trying to guide us back to our ancient values... in the midst of a world clouded by materialism vanity jealousy and greed... I am on my way... back to the source...

A crevice to a Crack...

thecosmicdiva — Sun, 20 May 2007 00:36:43 GMT

There in that crevice... do you see it? Its a drama unfolding Maybe I should just sit here and stare at it until this crevice becomes a crack the crack becomes a hole gaping at me with absolute shock as though I were to blame for its extending circumstances... I stare for a brief moment... and walk away... I have seen many dramas unfolding before me... dragging me into its tidal wave stuck in its whirling system of make or break fight or flight... but not tonight for I can see that crevice gaping at me trying to lure me into its unending cycle of blame and shame and self pity.... Oh no Not tonight for now I will take flight with the wings of the phoenix to be born again in the eyes of a friend Drama Free and WHOLE! and now when I see those little cracks... I float off into a sea of serenity... for once again I am free to design.... The next line.

WWOOFing as a gateway to Community...

thecosmicdiva — Wed, 09 May 2007 02:55:38 GMT

Here is something I posted in the IC tribe and wanted to share with others... Funny enough... when simply seeking community it has been bits and bobs... spuratic and sometimes downright strange... and ironically in the WWOOFers guide there are hundreds of communities/farms all over the place with work and space... though often short term... many need workers for up to six months and some even offer pay... Starting out WWOOFing now in America as opposed to Africa I am finding loads of community... and those little short working stays are great for getting a feel for the community and your place in it... also a nice way to ground if you are a perpetual traveller like myself... I am finding it a much easier way to explore community, educate myself in what is needed for community, while learning tools and trades that are vital for community... therefore giving you a long list of things to offer that community that you are out there seeking. I am just a little curious why this discussion has not been explored more extensively here on IC... as I have used this tribe many times to connect and seek community... and it has been helpful... though I have to say for those seriously seeking community a little WWOOFing tour is a great way to explore what is expected and what it takes to be a valuable part of an intentional community... I highly recommend it to anyone whether you only have a month to explore community, or whether you are a nomad out there trying to find the "right" community... you may even find it while you are WWOOFing... Another aspect for those community people to consider that really need help but deep down don't really want or are not quite ready for the extension of community...(new people actually living long term in the community) get your name in the WWOOFers guide and you can be straight about the work you need done... how many hours you expect people to work... what accomodation or pay you are able to offer etc... how long you want them to stay... even stipulating a trial period... and the WWOOFer bunch seemingly is pretty nice bunch and generally... ready to get to work... with a passion to learn and do the work that needs to be done... Its been the most valuable bridge to community I have discovered yet... and though many of you already know I just felt the need to expound it all again... right here... right now... From the Chestnut Orchard in Mendocino County CA where I am making the gardens beautiful again after a long winter... fed and sheltered... getting paid a bit... and enjoying the hell out of myself... and getting closer and closer to community every day... Went to dinner at an IC down the way that is fully in Villiage mode with several families and just fantastic... may do some WWOOFing there next time I am around... See ya'll out there! Hell maybe one day I might even put down some roots of my own.