The ongoing results of a misspent youth
Loss..
Mon, January 28, 2008 - 10:59 PM
Loss.
Ive lost my job, lost friends to disease, friends to relocations, ive lost my drives and ive lost heart in many things again and again. I dont miss 07, in fact with very few exceptions i will try my best to erase the year from my memory banks, such was its difficulty. But inspite of all those losses one thing that has caused me the most sadness thus far is the loss of a dear of animal friend. I never had children of my own, and at 42 am unlikley to, so as with many single people we transfer much of that parental love to our animals. I love the cats in my life as much as any person (in fact considerably more than most people). They are always such brilliant reminders that there is in a very selfish and cruel world still a few bastions of unconditional love.
I once saw a bumper sticker that said "Lord, please help me to be the person my dog thinks I am".
Its so true.. we are never better than when we aspire to being the person we are in our pets eyes. Such is their gift to us.
I was priviledged to live with Thea for 5 years, and never have I known an animal that better exemplified the qualities of warmth, love and companionship that that little cat did and gave me in that time...hell, I dont even know many people that have.
My time with "Thea" was short by many reckonings, but the love endured long beyond the time we spent living together, and like a distant but ever present loved one I still have pictures of her on my refridgerator next to my human family members.
I know she was deeply loved and cared for in life and lived well beyond her years and take succor in that knowledge, as does her mom, but at this moment the loss is still more painful than that solace affords. No other loss has moved me to tears more in recent memory that is for certain...and I hope none will, my heart wont bear it .
I know that the sadness is mereley a darkened reflection of the love felt for her in life and that most sadness is selfish...she is after all at peace and no longer in pain.
Pain is always for those that remain.
I know it will change in time to the bitter sweet of memory, but for now I just miss her.
So farewell little goosey girl, chublumpa, wazoo, my Thea-pet and every other secret love name you ever went by.
I hope theres lots of long hair to nuzzle in where ever you go.
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Mon, January 28, 2008 - 11:13 PM
i'm sorry, edric. you have all my sympathies.
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Tue, January 29, 2008 - 1:05 AM
I'm sorry to hear of your loss(es). While the loss of Thea does trivialize the others, it does still add up. I wish you the best in getting through such a time, and hope that someday soon your thoughts and memories of Thea bring you smiles without tears. Cheers!
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Tue, January 29, 2008 - 6:00 AM
go '08!
sorry for your loss. hugs, f |
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Tue, January 29, 2008 - 6:45 AM
sweet Edric, you are such a caringl, loving tender man. I feel your pain and am filled with compassion and understanding for your loss. I promise big hugs and lots of love when you come celebrate with me in a few weeks. I know this is heartbreaking and I commend you are your open-ness and vulnerability in sharing with your dear friends, the pain and sadness of this deep loss in your life. You did also regain at least one friend back into your life who adores you. Love, Cherry
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Tue, January 29, 2008 - 7:05 AM
Hang in there man. It gets better. They say the 40s can be terrible but it gets better. Many have children after 50 even so theres hope. You are making a transition thats all. Positive thoughts okay.
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Tue, January 29, 2008 - 9:35 AM
Sorry to hear about the loss of your friend. I totally understand and feel you pain.
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Tue, January 29, 2008 - 9:49 AM
Awwww sweetie--lots of hugs to you. I've never fully gotten over losing Moe and I'm on the cusp of losing Weeds--I can feel it--he's winding down--and I dread it--so I understand your loss.
For those of us without children--it really is hard to make those who have them understand our attachment to our companion animals--but it is very real and often very deep. Just know you made one little kittie a very good home--and when it's time--you'll find another to fill your life with such love. I'll light a candle for little Thea. Yeah--2007 was a rough year in many ways for a good number of us (though it did have it's up spots--thank god/dess). This year will be better. |
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Tue, January 29, 2008 - 2:07 PM
Thank you....
Oh Sweetie,
Thank you so much for your kind words and your call last night. Thea was indeed a very special girl. I know I'll never get over her, or her mate who I know you loved too, Odin. I still can't believe she's gone... Thank you again for your support. Much love to you... Bethany |
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Tue, January 29, 2008 - 2:32 PM
Sorry for your loss. Thea had a very long and full life. She was lucky to have you in it for a period of time.....
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Tue, January 29, 2008 - 3:01 PM
<sniff> so sad when beloved pets pass on. i hope the pain subsides for you and you can look back with a happy smile.
sorry to hear you lost your job, etc. some years are tough ones to get through, aren't they? hopefully this year will hold lots of joy for you. |
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Tue, January 29, 2008 - 5:11 PM
I'm so sorry, my friend. I very much understand the bond between human and animal. Love and light to you and Thea.
Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge. When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge. There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together. There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable. All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor. Those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by. The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind. They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent. His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster. You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart. Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together.... Author unknown |
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Wed, January 30, 2008 - 8:39 AM
Ah, that Rainbow Bridge story always chokes me up.
Like you, my animal companions are my surrogate children and I love them as much or more than many humans. Their loss is always a heart-blow but their memories last forever... |
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Sat, February 7, 2009 - 4:07 PM
"I hope theres lots of long hair to nuzzle in where ever you go."
My new kitties(7 mos old) do this to me all the time wether I'm walking around the house with one on my shoulder or in bed with them. That's the best snuggleing. |
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