My chart... Help please

Heres my chart, I posted one before but I had the wrong birth time and it changed my rising sign. Anyone can tell me anything about myself id be most appreciative

Dear World Citizens

Dear citizens of the world,
ITS TIME TO WAKE UP NOW! Everyday you think that because you have gotten out of bed and stopped dreaming that you are awake, well guess what? You're still asleep! And if you were REALLY awake, (that kind of awake, you'd know).
Is your memory of yesterday any different than memories of dreams that you have had in your sleep? Your world is a dream, your life is a dream. You create stories, illustrious, tragic, adventurous, mysterious, romantic, self-serving stories so that you may try and sustain your tiny insignificant notion about who you are. You think you know, but you have no idea. No one is even here, most of you are living in the past and the present, but who is here now? Hear now.

I've got to get to work, i've got to get some coffee, this girl likes me, this guy is following me, hows my hair, what will I wear, what will they think, where will I go, what will I do? I know what you'll do... you'll keep chasing yourself in circles, like a dog chasing its tail that has been cut off. When does it stop? Never. It never stops. You know why your'e tired all the time? because you have all that nonsense running through your mind! TURN IT OFF. Turn off the tv, turn off the cell phone, take the ipod out of your ears, stop reading the news papers. Go outside, plant a garden. You'll create excuses, you'll lie to yourself... oh will you ever lie. Don't lie to others but its okay to lie to yourself, right? thats your mottot, it must be. Thats a good one, the lying never stops you know. You lie to yourself so much you don't even know you're lying. And then it just becomes the truth, and then you don't know what's real and what's not real. What's you and what's not you. You don't know what you like, you don't know what you need. You have an idea about what you want, but even that is just something that you think is going to make you feel better. Until it breaks, or until you lose interest. Or until you break, or it loses interest.

How about a relationship? Yeah how about that one. You wanna fall in love? Its so easy right, boy meets girl, they were meant to be together and viola! Love! So what is love, I ask you. Do you know? Is love a thing? Is it a feeling? Is it an emotion? Where does it come from? Is love the same for me as it is for you? Can you love someone selflessly? Are you sure? You say you love some people and hate others. If you knew what love was you wouldn't have any choice but to live there in that love. So what is the point of relationships? They make you "feel good"? So its about fulfilling your senses? So you're using other people, like candy? Listen i'm not saying that some of you don't have very strong feelings towards others of you and that you get along very well, im just saying, dont be so quick to call it love. Because... well, you don't know what you don't know. How about how to treat a person in general... whats a good rule for that? How about this... when you talk to someone else pretend like you are talking to yourself! Jesus said that he said "love your neighbor as yourself." You know the problem with that don't you? You don't love yourself. It's okay i'm not blaming anyone, it's not even really your fault. I bet one time you used to be happy, remember that time? Maybe you were a little kid, maybe you can't even remember. But I know what happened to you. I know what happened to each and everyone... you got hurt. Someone used your love against you. You were doing the best you could, and someone hurt you. And after someone hurt you, you made a little note on the back of your heart that said "please remember loving causes pain". So after you made this note next time the opportunity to love comes up, you hesitate. Because you remember the little note... and you say "oh yeah, the note. I better not do that". And just like that you begin to close up. And in becoming closed you start to lose your happiness, your livelihood. You begin to lose your heart, because you put up little walls around it. Anyone who says living life without the heart is okay, is wrong. its impossible, unenjoyable, and a silly waste of your time.

After you lose your heart, you begin to realize that you have lost something. Probably not even consciously, the transition is so subtle that you can't even tell that anything has changed. Maybe you can't feel anything at all, maybe you're completely numb. I suspect this is the case for most of you. Maybe you can feel some things but the pain is too much to try and do anything about it. But you KNOW something is wrong! Subconsciously you are deeply searching for love and acceptance, appreciation and warmth, friendship, joy, Love. The real kind not the hallmark kind. And so you begin searching. You tell yourself "TV makes me feel good" but it doesn't it only makes you more numb. Drugs are okay, sure they are fun too, but they are only temporary, and you always have to come back to where you started. Sex is good. Sex is really good, but it too is only temporary. Food is another big one, eat your problems. Eat your fears, consume, consume, consume! And religion. Oh religion, one of the biggest tragedies of mankind, especially the fundamental kind. Heres a pre-made story, pre made rules, a pre made game plan, and an automatic social scene (as long as you agree to the rules). This way you don't have to think for yourself, feel your pain, take responsibility for your actions or the actions of your larger society, or engage in anything that is going on in the world. Look i'm not saying these things are bad, in the difficult world that we live in we all are doing our best. But we are all living the biggest lie of all, collectively in unison everyday. We say "who am I, I can't do anything". The entire world is made up of I's. You can start right now.

Start with yourself. Who are you? Who are you really? What makes you that? What do you believe? Do your actions reflect what you say you believe? Should they? There are so many questions to ask, and so much truth to discover. This is only the beginning. You are here, right now, in the only day there ever is. Quit giving it away. This person you are right now, is only going to be right here right now one time. ONE TIME! Ever, this is it! This is as good as it gets, right now. Is it good enough for you? Is it how you always pictured it would be? Are you happy? Why do you believe what you believe? What is God? Who told you that? Have you experienced God? Oh you say you have faith? Great... how has that changed you? Is your life better? Is there less suffering in the world? Whats the point of living? What is life? How did you get here? You don't know? Aren't you curious? What are you doing then if you don't know how you got here? Maybe its time to figure it out, huh?

You know the funny thing is... most of you are going to call me the crazy one. You'll say things like, "he's nuts" or "he's angry". Maybe you'll even admit that i'm right about most of this but you'll definitely deny its about you. "Not me, oh no not me" you'll say. This will be the most prominent response "he's right, but hes not talking about me." HAHA! You THINK you know, but you have no idea. Quit lying to yourself. Some of you will get angry, some will be totally perplexed. I suspect that a lot of you already have heard what i've said. Sweet, what did you do about it? So even after knowing all this you've still done nothing? Are you that far gone? Oh I see, you're still asleep. Well have a nice nap then. Maybe one out of 100 people will realize some of these truths. In fact all of you know them. But you lie. You're all a bunch of lying liars, you lie to yourself and to others and to God. How can you do anything if you don't know what is truth and what is deceit?

For those who want to take the plunge, breathe. Take a breath. Take another. Watch it. Where does the breath come from. Where does it go. Learn to focus on the breath. Just that, nothing else. Let the thoughts pass. When your mind wanders, bring it back to the breath. Its like fighting a caged lion, trying to calm the mind. Be the Master this time. Just this once. Exert your Will! Your God given will. And maybe just maybe, one day you'll show up. If you're lucky one day you will arrive. And I will be the first one there saying, "bravo, well done my friend".

Don't you remember?

Don't remember what it means to be human?
Don't you remember what it feels like when you realize your parents aren't superheroes?
Don't you remember what it feels like to get made fun of by other kids and not know why?
Don't you remember what the first day of school felt like?
Don't you remember what your first kiss felt like?
Don't you remember what going to your first funeral felt like?

Don't you remember what it feels like to feel?

Don't you remember that we are humans, and in this life the one is broken into every kind of many? We have called some good and some bad, some are more pleasing to our senses and some are more pleasing to our soul.

In this life there is pain. In this life there is also ecstasy. We experience both. But time wears on us, on the us whom we have created. So we guard our hearts, we make reasons to hide our hearts and lock them up. Really we only blindfold ourselves. To go away from ones heart is to go away from ones experience. Without the heart we die. Whether our heart physically stops or whether we become disconnected from our heart that guides us, we die.

We live numb, calloused, disconnected, disillusioned. Everything we do becomes about avoiding pain. As long as we don't feel pain. We even fool ourselves into thinking self betterment isn't about avoiding pain. Don't use spiritual knowledge as a weapon against your pain, it only hurts yourself.

There is no avoiding it, it's also part of the experience. God is everything the good and the bad. You can't know God without knowing both. Go into the pain. Deeper. Don't make excuses, go into it. Feel it. Go deeper. When you think you're there, keep going. Experience it, learn from it. Don't be afraid, this is your cup, drink of it.

What is it? What is the pain? Where does it come from? To whom does it belong? Where did it come from and will it return?

If you think you're getting worse because it hurts more, keep going... BREAK. Let yourself break open, watch yourself crumble to pieces.
Cry, cry, for God's sake Cry! Those who cry often know that crying is good for you. it's like laughter. in fact they are two sides of the same coin. The expression of your Soul.

There is room in the pain you know, expansive space. clarity, depth of insight.

Go there, don't be afraid, i'll come with you, and together we will find the jewel of our existence.

A Book to be Read!

SIddhartha- by Hermann Hesse

some of you surely have read it. For those of you haven't, I highly recommend it.

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Go see this movie!

For anyone who is interested in Truth... go rent Revolver, Guy Ritchies newest movie. you WILL NOT be dissapointed.

Love Letter to my Self

Dearest Michael,

Why then do you not let yourself Love me, and why then do you not let yourself be Loved by me? And if you do not let yourself receive Love by me, how then will you receive Love from another? And if you do not let yourself receive Love by me, how then will you have Love to give to another?

Love comes from within. You are offered all of the Love that the Universe has to offer, why then do you not Love me or let yourself be Loved by me?

There are those who know Love’s secrets. They are they Lovers and they are the beloved. They are able to Love because they first let themselves be Loved and then become filled with Love as its Self. But not all who think they Love, truly Love. Some say they Love God but judge their brother. Some say they Love what is good, but give not from themselves. Some say they Love God but do not let themselves receive love, which comes from God.

Do you still not Love me? Your heart has been calloused by that which you do not understand, and you do not remember that Love is not contingent upon circumstance. Real Love flows deep, it cradles you and assures you. Real Love understands and empathizes. Love is a path to the kingdom of God. Love is fulfillment in all things. If you do not live in Love and Love does not live in you, then you are already a ghost.

I know you feel my Love. You want deeply to Love and to be Loved but you feel unworthy. You have tried to Love, but have been hurt also. When the troubles of life become too much to bare we need to be Loved the most, and too often when we have been hurt the pain is too deep to be able to open ourself back up again to continue to receive Love.

You cannot really Love me because you think you no longer know me. You feel that you have betrayed me, and that you are no longer worthy of being Loved. You put a condition, an amount of worth upon yourself based upon your actions. That is not the Truth, nor is that what Love is. But the truth is only that I know you and you know me, for we are one. So I say to you that you are my self and I am your Self. And we are one.

How then can you love another if you do not love your Self? How then can you receive love from another if you cannot receive love from your Self? I say then, Love your Self like you Love God, for you come from God and God is Love. Whatever comes from God cannot be bad. Do not harm your Self, take refuge in your Self. Because you Are and God Is. Do not cast judgment upon your Self, for to do so is to cast judgment upon God. Do not say that this part of me is bad and this part of me is good, for they are all a part of you. But when you have mistreated your Self, do not then judge and condemn, but let your self be forgiven. But to Love your Self and to let your Self receive Love, this is to be in communion with God.

Never forget these things for their is Truth in Love.

Love,

Your Self

On Friendship

We started as unfamiliar faces. Two completely different stories. You were on your way and I was on mine. Friendship unfolds and our two stories, if only for a short while, become one.

Relationships are never expected with other people. We have no idea where or with whom we will end up. It is a magical mystery that somehow in the infinity of the cosmos, we ended up here together. A blessing, a pearl, in a world of empty lonely confusion, we have only one another. And in this divine interaction, we contain the sacred union, the perfect gift from God, for one to know another.

The chances that we end up here together are impossible. It simply can’t happen, and it has! How we react and interact with one another is how we interact with God, with the Divine.

As our path together continues, we begin to remember. We remember what it feels like to love and to be loved. We remember what it’s like to trust and be trusted. We begin to see that we aren’t any different from one another. We see that we are each others fears, and each others greatest lovers.

This thing that is our greatest most pure source of being, a being IN love, also causes our biggest fear, not being loved in return.

As we get older and begin to understand that people are hurt from not being adequately loved, we begin to heal and to help others heal.

Relationships feed our souls. They are the nourishment required for us to grow and flower. And we may use every interaction, whether we like how it makes us feel or not, to gain understanding. Understanding is the essence of love.

We cannot be scared. Understand that our fears come from times when we have been hurt in the past. And to live in fear is to live in the past.

Escape your fears. Force yourself to be there, learn to feel deeply again. Come back to life! Quit running, there is no where to go, and every one of us has a front row ticket to the greatest show of "all time".

It’s scary I know, to open yourself up. Because when it hurts it hurts so intensely. But it helps to remember that we are not our emotions, and that they too shall pass. Be that which contains everything and holds on to nothing. Our emotions are a pure form of self expression, the purest. Let them out and you will be freed. The more expressed we become the more we are able to see.

We come together to help each other heal, and to create anew. We come together to love and to remember. Everything coincides perfectly, and every person you meet may offer you back a missing part of yourself.

so dearest friend, no matter how long or short our time together is, I love and appreciate this moment with you that we share in this perfect divine and magical gift of life.

HEALING

Morning comes, dawn breaks, light speaks, and we hesitate.
last night we knew, and we could see, that the flower enslaves the bumble bee.
we remember what it means to laugh, to share our hearts, to carve our path.
we are the lovers, and we are love.

We are the truth that oft we seek, we are the God’s of which we speak.
we tell the stories of remember when, and we know each other, now and then.
But largely our hearts begin to close, a broken spirit, a dying rose.

The petals wilt, a falling tear, as we feel the darkness growing near.
But the darkness is only covered light, the residue from ancient fights.
The pain is one i’ve never known, a firefight and a crushing stone.

lost in thing’s we never knew; of the things we thought we’d never do.
A place inside that once was true, the rose petal and the morning dew, the heart of me and the heart of you.
What once was one and now is two, will again be one, when all is through.

The most beautiful face, and a fearsome terror,
are lovers, two sides of the same mirror.
life’s perfection is often the hardest to see, especially in the face of darkness,
in the fear of experiencing life as me.
So we climb and we climb the tallest tree, in hopes of things that we might see,
a glimpse of God; of eternity.

As we get higher and higher we leave the dark, we love the shadow as another part of this journey on which we have each embarked.

The process is a perfect one, as the moon glows because of the sun.
Their is hurt and pain and struggle and strife, but I will always love you despite.
So take refuge in the loving eyes, in accepting family, and the words of wise.

Things change and its the nature of all,
so too its OUR nature, to crumble and fall.
My friend I know its hard to see, but i give all of my love to thee.
I accept your tears, and quiet your fears, I try my best to listen with humble ears.

It’s okay to fear and okay to cry, because in the end God always knows why

Okay Maybe Tribe is just Napping...

I seem to have been a little hasty in posting that tribe is "dead". I see from everyone's passionate responses that there is still much life left in it.

So to all of you my brothers and sisters still keeping the Love alive, many blessings and ALL of my love... where ever it goes and where ever it comes from.

I have had a few interactions in the past couple months that have left a bitter taste in my mouth and left me somewhat bitter, but you can't let a few bad apples spoil the sauce. Or the bunch. I don't know what they spoil but you can't let them do it.

As for being dead. I die every night and am raised up again every morning so that my love can be reborn anew everyday.

So to you who keep the love alive i love you madly....

Here is a verse from the bible that I particularly like:

If I speak with the eloquence of men and of angels, but have no love, I become no more than blaring brass or crashing cymbal. If I have the gift of foretelling the future and hold in my mind not only all human knowledge but the very secrets of God, and if I also have that absolute faith which can move mountains, but have no love, I amount to nothing at all. If I dispose of all that I possess, yes, even if I give my own body to be burned, but have no love, I achieve precisely nothing. 1corinthians13

much love to you my friends.

R.I.P. Tribe

Tribe is dead. i dont know who killed it... but it seems like it died.

to all my friends... keep the love alive in your heart.

the internet is no place for love anyways... it can only do a tiny amount.

i love you all... but we can't hide out here in our computers. take it to the world. take it to your friends and families. discover the truth of your souls.