I feel I am at times.

I've been with my current boyfriend Tim for almost a year and a half.

But I miss the friendship of my ex, Matt. When I think about him, my heart doesn't flutter, but rather my stomach churns and I get this sick feeling. I chalk it up to unfinished business.

I guess it's a final insult for how I ended it. I probably deserve it.

Still, the idealist in me hopes that one day, friendship will be possible.

But the realist sees that given Matt's emotional track record, it's extremely unlikely.