I am. I'm so full of judgement toward other people.

It isn't like I think this makes me special or anything, I know that most everyone does this. The revelation of my own judgmental-ness is troubling in couple of ways.
1- I really hate it. I have always really hated it when other people judge me. And I try to always call other people out when they are doing it to other people. (this does not make me very popular among the cool people) When I left the mormon church at age 13 I gave a speech to my ward (congregation) about the evil double edged sword of 'judge not lest ye be judged'. Yeah. I had issues.

Now I'm able to realize that it is something we have to do, and in fact
#2-my whole profession is a very advanced form of judging people.... judging what they have wrong with them on a physical-psycho-emotional level. This fine tuning of my judging of others is really messing with my head. I don't want to be sizing people up all the time. I haven't learned how to turn it off turn it on.

The most pronounced place for this to happen is on my daily commute. Tri-met is filled with people with all kinds of pathology. So are the clubs, so are any gathering of social groups of people. It is all a bit overwhelming.

There are observations: that man just cut off an old woman to get on the bus in front of her. These lead to judgement: what a fucking jerk!
another example: observation: that 20 something year old man is cutting his finger and toenails on the bus. judgement: unhygenic SLOB!

So my self reflection is more about the language I am using to interpret. I can let myself observe without creating angry violent language to label it. Those reactions are a reflection of my own preconceptions. Somedays it is easier than others to let my own true nature out from underneath those preconceptions.