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I think it's time for a hiatus...
Mon, May 12, 2008 - 9:57 AM
"Finding out what you're good at & then working to get better at it is a much more efficient use of your time & energy than trying to become a star in an area where you may not have much talent to begin with"
... and I think I totally agree. With every brand new early-twenty-something belly dancer who comes on to the scene and is already AMAZING, I realize that I'm a pretty mediocre belly dancer. I think some people are just naturally really, really gifted at it, and I'm just not one of them. You know the way there are performers that you sit through wondering if there's something good coming up next?? I think I might be one of those, and that gives me a very blah feeling. There are some things that I am fabulous and gifted at, and where I'm the one that people wait FOR instead of waiting THROUGH. I think I need to shift my time and energy and money toward those for a while.
Not that I'm "leaving the scene" or anything. I love designing and vending and making things for all you fabulous ladies, and seeing all the amazing dancing that you have to offer. And maybe I'll randomly get totally inspired to belly dance again sometime soon.
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Mon, May 12, 2008 - 12:42 PM
I think this depends on why you dance. Are you dancing because you dream some day of being a star? Or because you love it when you dance? If you love it, you don't *have* to be a star.
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Mon, May 12, 2008 - 3:44 PM
Do I dance to be a star? Not necessarily. Do I think it's okay to inflict my boring performances on people just because I'M having fun? No. I certainly do have more fun when I know people are dazzled by what I'm doing ;)
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Mon, May 12, 2008 - 6:36 PM
Could it be that you haven't found the right niche in bellydance yet? I was feeling the exact same way not too long ago....and then I decided - to hell with it, I'm gonna bellydance the way I want to, to music that speaks to me....the coolest thing happened - I started connecting with the audience in a way I never did before....and it was because I was fearlessly into what I was doing and that hooked them.
I hope you find your bliss, sugar.....you ARE a great dancer - and I can't imagine anyone waiting through you. |
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Tue, May 13, 2008 - 2:15 AM
Ya, what she said. When I'm doing a thing I love, like sword, I'm fun to watch. When I'm doing a thing that I don't like... well... it shows.
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Tue, May 13, 2008 - 1:49 PM
Don't feel you should stop dancing because you don't feel you are "good enough" at it. Dance for the fun, the love, the freedom, the expression, the exercise, the connection, the joy, the serenity, the friends, the laughter and not to mention the tears and gut rending frustration trying to nail a move. Dance to take yourself to a place where there are no bills to pay, there's always time and no mountains of washing up and ironing to be done, where's there's no-one asking anything of you apart from giving a decent cue. Dance if you dance inside :o) Never judge yourself against others, you will have moves that look better on you, and so will they. It's just how it is. Big hugs from across the pond x
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Tue, May 13, 2008 - 2:26 PM
Sugar cakes, I love watching you dance! Maybe you'll never be a star, and neither will I, but that doesn't mean you're not a good dancer. I love what you bring to Alamkara, and I also love it when you solo. Maybe we just need to stop focusing on performance and start having more fun :)
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Thu, May 15, 2008 - 12:10 AM
Wow. I really didn't mean it to sound like I have weird self-esteem issues or anything... at least, I don't think I do!! But I think trying to be a great belly dancer was really giving me a midlife crisis for a while ;) But I'm just so drunk on my new love of ballroom! I'd forgotten what it was like to be really, really good at something that is also amazingly fun.
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Unsu...
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Fri, May 16, 2008 - 12:14 PM
I totally understand where you're coming from (or rather, from where you're coming, cuz I'm a grammar geek). You actually took the words right out of my mouth. And I understand that it's NOT a self-esteem thing, it's an efficient use of energy thing. When you get on the track of your bliss, doing what you do well, everything's easy and you're filled with energy, rather than drained. I'm tired and drained-feeling all the time, that's gotta be a clue....
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