jesuswg

i have to share that yesterday, as I was on my way to clean up from Liberte,
I passed a pink mercedes coupe with white crosses on it.
Of course the pink grabbed my eye, but the license plate just about killed me!

JESUSWG

Now I was feeling pretty down,
today was a rough day,
for a couple of reasons, we'll say none of them logical at the moment.
but I didnt know exactly what to make of that.
wow ok, so is jesus calling me?
or am I jesus too?
why is anyone sending me the message with JESUS?
I dont usually follow him... other people yes,
how about GANESHAWG
or SHIVAWG
or ALLAHWG
I dont know......
anyway,
I am in the process of waiting to see what jesus wants.
the unfortunate thing that I am sure of is that jesus would have like me take a picture
of that car, and I didnt .

uh oh
wg

helllooooooooooo universe!

dammm if I ain't tryin it all to grow!
and grow and grow little planty about to pass out from my melatonin,
but truly this is how I like it
craaaazy busy
new childrens theatre project,
burning man, new project
life coachy girl
and computer teacher girl
and "hello, can I solve all your problems for you?"
"HELL NO" "SAVE YERSelves"
but I will love you in the process
dammm
cuz who knew I would be the crazy one
(probably just about everyone I know)

prevention of copycat

"Overwhelmingly, they (psychologists) said the video should not have been broadcast. Their reasons ranged from the threat of copycat violence to the possible stigmatization of those with mental health problems:" (ABC news)

Thats what I was talking about - what I was concerned about

And the lack of respect for the families and those who had passed

well, what has art come to?

Well, what has art come to?
When this kind of thing happens like at Virginia Tech, I feel sad.

I have been out of the US for so long, and I can't blame this on anything in particular.
The thing that strikes me so much, is that he was a performance artist. He was disempowered by whatever had happened to him and I feel for him, but only so much, to the point where he had to kill people to affect them and then send his performance material to NBC (NBC asked "why them?" and honestly, I could make a speculative relationship to MSNBC and the stock market and materialism but I am afraid to speculate at all).

I am hoping there are not others who choose to copy this, instead to make some art that can truly make a difference, a comedy perhaps, an act of love perhaps that contradicts this act itself.

I have been asking myself quite recently, "I wonder what's next with art?" and i am saddened that this happens to be it... It breaks my heart. Art as murder is an incredibly scary, scary thing.

The images remind me of all the terrorist media the terror images that we have been shown over the years since 9/11 by the media of people being beheaded, hanged, and sequestered in the name of ummmm what was that again? Is the word "peace" somehow implicated in all this? It doesn't feel like it.

I hope that people can feel that they can make a difference without having to shed blood in order to do so. The truth is that in need, we all need to come together, not seperate and isolate ourselves.

I feel with all my heart for those who have lost their lives, their loved ones, and their family from this, and I wish with all my heart that the reaction to this can be something more positive and straightforward if change is necessary, and it is.

Life brings us challenges. I prefer to make a good Mac n Cheese, and get on with a good project where I can express myself.

Please people.
Peace, Art, and Community
Love
and
I share the mourning with all of those going through this right now.
I am silent, really.

what is the light in the corner?

I hope its for me, cuz I am having trouble seeing it.
everything is everything
everything is everything
everything is everything
I write, I music, I performance, I cry, I speak, I help, I think
To stop life and look at where I am
freaks me out
i shouldnt' look
I have put life on hold a bit, my ambitions, I think, to be here with Mom,
and half the time I feel that she doesnt even need me.
I know when she gets so intense with demands on my life, that she doesnt really need me
and I feel more stressed because I feel like I am being sent from my path
and then returned to the path
and I wonder if all my silly experimentation is actually worth anything
what use is creativity, it doesnt pay the bills
ooh am I feeling a bit negative
I think I would hit a point in my life to be no one and simply travel
but that doesnt make me happy either
why cant we all be independantly wealthy
I know we all deserve it
my wealth that I worked so hard for dwindles, although I try not to let it
and i have no sight for the next work now,
my job doesnt call, and i dont know if I screwed up or they are trying to be sensitive to
where i am now.
oh hello, headspace,
sometimes I hate hanging out here.

a new day

The photo is from the mess tent and having dinner and a beer at Nowhere 2006.
I just wanted to post something different.

Its a new day, and it really feels like a new day because yesterday felt like spring had sprung.
Nowing Detroit, it will return to winter briefly (as we see with the new forecast of freezing rain by the weekend.
but I saw the sun, and maybe even got slightly brown riding my bike to the gym.

give us the ducks and geese that come back for spring, sooner rather than later.
Barcelona where the sun shines every day, is on my mind after passing a couple of months with almost no sun

my favorite vegas photo

this is right after it started snowing!
Martin and Tish came out of the chapel and
it snowed. IN VEGAS!

and my mom has news, after her best day ever, she showed more problems.
she had an appointment with a cardiologist today and that had to be cancelled because of a
crazy flash flood and four inches on the floor of the clinic.. then her oncologist didnt want to carry on because she needed more
info from the cardiologist.

tomorrow another cardiologist appointment.
Mom was disappointed to miss her appointment but I imagine is happy to be without the chemo
We will have more answers next week.

love
namaste

the best day so far!

Well, we are in the middle of icy cold stormy weather, and mom has had her best day so far in this journey,
and considering she did have her second treatment, this time she had some repeated heart problems.
They will probably hold off the next treatment until she speaks with a cardiologist.
But after being completely high on steroids, and low afterwards, today she had her best day.
She felt "normal" and was very happy about that.
She is still listening to her body, drinking enough, and finally resting enough, even when she feels good as she should.

Its not easy being cooped up in the house as the snow falls, and its freezing cold and miserable outside, I have been on my bike twice in a month (but at least I have been in the gym)

I have worked on my book, (three different versions now - graphic novel, the novel has an ending finally, and the self-help book, ) And I am starting to look for the publisher that I want to publish it. :) or the 10 I would like to publish it....

I have started the Dralion project with "the kleenex of love" song, to bring memories to all my fellow followspotters of our experience up there.

and am starting to look for music and have done a small amount of movement stuff for a symbolic dance "thing" I would like to make from this experience.

whew! so being cooped up hasnt been so bad. I am thankful for all the time to think as well.

Tuesday we head to Las Vegas for a break from the cold and needed visiting with friends.

peace