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jesuswg

warriorgirl — Mon, 14 Apr 2008 12:55:29 GMT

i have to share that yesterday, as I was on my way to clean up from Liberte, I passed a pink mercedes coupe with white crosses on it. Of course the pink grabbed my eye, but the license plate just about killed me! JESUSWG Now I was feeling pretty down, today was a rough day, for a couple of reasons, we'll say none of them logical at the moment. but I didnt know exactly what to make of that. wow ok, so is jesus calling me? or am I jesus too? why is anyone sending me the message with JESUS? I dont usually follow him... other people yes, how about GANESHAWG or SHIVAWG or ALLAHWG I dont know...... anyway, I am in the process of waiting to see what jesus wants. the unfortunate thing that I am sure of is that jesus would have like me take a picture of that car, and I didnt . uh oh wg

helllooooooooooo universe!

warriorgirl — Wed, 15 Aug 2007 07:34:45 GMT

dammm if I ain't tryin it all to grow! and grow and grow little planty about to pass out from my melatonin, but truly this is how I like it craaaazy busy new childrens theatre project, burning man, new project life coachy girl and computer teacher girl and "hello, can I solve all your problems for you?" "HELL NO" "SAVE YERSelves" but I will love you in the process dammm cuz who knew I would be the crazy one (probably just about everyone I know)

prevention of copycat

warriorgirl — Fri, 20 Apr 2007 04:27:07 GMT

"Overwhelmingly, they (psychologists) said the video should not have been broadcast. Their reasons ranged from the threat of copycat violence to the possible stigmatization of those with mental health problems:" (ABC news) Thats what I was talking about - what I was concerned about And the lack of respect for the families and those who had passed

well, what has art come to?

warriorgirl — Thu, 19 Apr 2007 04:12:42 GMT

Well, what has art come to? When this kind of thing happens like at Virginia Tech, I feel sad. I have been out of the US for so long, and I can't blame this on anything in particular. The thing that strikes me so much, is that he was a performance artist. He was disempowered by whatever had happened to him and I feel for him, but only so much, to the point where he had to kill people to affect them and then send his performance material to NBC (NBC asked "why them?" and honestly, I could make a speculative relationship to MSNBC and the stock market and materialism but I am afraid to speculate at all). I am hoping there are not others who choose to copy this, instead to make some art that can truly make a difference, a comedy perhaps, an act of love perhaps that contradicts this act itself. I have been asking myself quite recently, "I wonder what's next with art?" and i am saddened that this happens to be it... It breaks my heart. Art as murder is an incredibly scary, scary thing. The images remind me of all the terrorist media the terror images that we have been shown over the years since 9/11 by the media of people being beheaded, hanged, and sequestered in the name of ummmm what was that again? Is the word "peace" somehow implicated in all this? It doesn't feel like it. I hope that people can feel that they can make a difference without having to shed blood in order to do so. The truth is that in need, we all need to come together, not seperate and isolate ourselves. I feel with all my heart for those who have lost their lives, their loved ones, and their family from this, and I wish with all my heart that the reaction to this can be something more positive and straightforward if change is necessary, and it is. Life brings us challenges. I prefer to make a good Mac n Cheese, and get on with a good project where I can express myself. Please people. Peace, Art, and Community Love and I share the mourning with all of those going through this right now. I am silent, really.

what is the light in the corner?

warriorgirl — Thu, 12 Apr 2007 14:33:42 GMT

I hope its for me, cuz I am having trouble seeing it. everything is everything everything is everything everything is everything I write, I music, I performance, I cry, I speak, I help, I think To stop life and look at where I am freaks me out i shouldnt' look I have put life on hold a bit, my ambitions, I think, to be here with Mom, and half the time I feel that she doesnt even need me. I know when she gets so intense with demands on my life, that she doesnt really need me and I feel more stressed because I feel like I am being sent from my path and then returned to the path and I wonder if all my silly experimentation is actually worth anything what use is creativity, it doesnt pay the bills ooh am I feeling a bit negative I think I would hit a point in my life to be no one and simply travel but that doesnt make me happy either why cant we all be independantly wealthy I know we all deserve it my wealth that I worked so hard for dwindles, although I try not to let it and i have no sight for the next work now, my job doesnt call, and i dont know if I screwed up or they are trying to be sensitive to where i am now. oh hello, headspace, sometimes I hate hanging out here.

a new day

warriorgirl — Wed, 14 Mar 2007 15:46:46 GMT

The photo is from the mess tent and having dinner and a beer at Nowhere 2006. I just wanted to post something different. Its a new day, and it really feels like a new day because yesterday felt like spring had sprung. Nowing Detroit, it will return to winter briefly (as we see with the new forecast of freezing rain by the weekend. but I saw the sun, and maybe even got slightly brown riding my bike to the gym. give us the ducks and geese that come back for spring, sooner rather than later. Barcelona where the sun shines every day, is on my mind after passing a couple of months with almost no sun

my favorite vegas photo

warriorgirl — Fri, 02 Mar 2007 08:18:08 GMT

this is right after it started snowing! Martin and Tish came out of the chapel and it snowed. IN VEGAS! and my mom has news, after her best day ever, she showed more problems. she had an appointment with a cardiologist today and that had to be cancelled because of a crazy flash flood and four inches on the floor of the clinic.. then her oncologist didnt want to carry on because she needed more info from the cardiologist. tomorrow another cardiologist appointment. Mom was disappointed to miss her appointment but I imagine is happy to be without the chemo We will have more answers next week. love namaste

the best day so far!

warriorgirl — Mon, 26 Feb 2007 06:44:15 GMT

Well, we are in the middle of icy cold stormy weather, and mom has had her best day so far in this journey, and considering she did have her second treatment, this time she had some repeated heart problems. They will probably hold off the next treatment until she speaks with a cardiologist. But after being completely high on steroids, and low afterwards, today she had her best day. She felt "normal" and was very happy about that. She is still listening to her body, drinking enough, and finally resting enough, even when she feels good as she should. Its not easy being cooped up in the house as the snow falls, and its freezing cold and miserable outside, I have been on my bike twice in a month (but at least I have been in the gym) I have worked on my book, (three different versions now - graphic novel, the novel has an ending finally, and the self-help book, ) And I am starting to look for the publisher that I want to publish it. :) or the 10 I would like to publish it.... I have started the Dralion project with "the kleenex of love" song, to bring memories to all my fellow followspotters of our experience up there. and am starting to look for music and have done a small amount of movement stuff for a symbolic dance "thing" I would like to make from this experience. whew! so being cooped up hasnt been so bad. I am thankful for all the time to think as well. Tuesday we head to Las Vegas for a break from the cold and needed visiting with friends. peace

time is not to waste!!

warriorgirl — Sat, 10 Feb 2007 21:23:46 GMT

I am seeing numerous miracles from this journey with my mom. she was not allowed to have her second chemo appointment due to liver enzyme questions. We are ruling out a matastesis (sp??) to bone or liver. She is still brave, but after 5 days at different doctors, I saw her beginning to waiver. My sister and brothers are gathering closer as I am the communicator to those who can't be so close. I feel honored to have this responsability and it really gives me a chance to get closer with them, as we have never been close. The journey has only begun, and it seems like its already come so far. My mother says that if this cancer has gone already to bone or liver that it is extremely aggressive and that I must find a new wife for my dad. And I make jokes with her that she isnt going to have any organs left to damage, pretty soon :) She is fun to laugh with through these times, and I dont know if I would be so strong to laugh if it were me. Yesterday we went and had her head shaved - her hair had begun to fall out - and got her gorgeous wig fitted. I love my mother. I really do. She is teaching me more than ever right now. Teaching me how to be more human and more giving than I ever thought I could. I want to be the best person I can for her, for Phil, for my dad, and the rest of my family. I want to bring as much joy and healing to the world as I can. My mother always wanted to be a doctor. And she never did. I want to make something of myself for her and I, together. As a woman. As a friend, as her friend as her daughter. mmmmmmmm namaste - peace

Continuing the Journey with my mother

warriorgirl — Tue, 30 Jan 2007 04:54:54 GMT

I am an observer as my mother witnesses the changes of her body through chemotherapy. She has such an amazing spirit, such optimism, I am proud to share this time with her. she has had one treatment and come through it with amazing positivity. We ordered her wig today. She is ready for her hair to fall out. She wont be a victim, she will win and she knows it already. She can't let herself to fall to something so simple as this. so her vengeance will only come towards this disease that she wont allow to ruin a good mood, or the movement forward. She is inspiring and truly connected with the universe.

The universe does things for us!!

warriorgirl — Sat, 23 Dec 2006 06:33:01 GMT

my mother has recently had a mastectomy, I am returning to the states to help care for her during her chemotherapy. She is very very well, and this has been a deciding factor in my recent choices of where to go. I am returning to Detroit to be with my family, with my husband. In this case, I want to learn from her but not necessarily follow in her footsteps. I look forward to female bonding and to find some deeper meanings in why women and men are going through such intense challenges with the reproductive system. Painting: VENUS REVISITED by Carole Bonicelli 1995 45" x 45" painting on silk

ooooh feeling kinda wiped

warriorgirl — Sun, 10 Dec 2006 19:10:10 GMT

well, things are a bit tough right now. its the cold, the negativity in my department, only 29 more days to go before a break from the job. I remember why I left the job market, and went out on my own while dealing with very unhappy, disconnected people and feeling super disconnected myself. from me, what is reality... ????? and my what was life... trying to stay present trying to find myself feeling kinda pooey

Frankfurt on my birthday

warriorgirl — Sun, 15 Oct 2006 10:01:42 GMT

Working on my birthday, something i haven't done in a few years. And after the cointreau and beer last nite, i was wondering earlier this morning if i was going to be able to work with myhangover!!! BUT I can, and i will be on the grid, and up in the air focusing lights most of the nite tonight. The party will be later. The party will be worth it and this year is an important one.

argh, bad luck

warriorgirl — Tue, 03 Oct 2006 18:01:51 GMT

good luck and bad luck the two always have their way we win, its magic we lose, its all wrong oh well, what goes up must come down

AND what a day!

warriorgirl — Tue, 03 Oct 2006 17:58:05 GMT

Well, phil's bike was stolen last nite, what a pity. we performed on a building here in Berlin and were ecstatic with its success. and it was a magical time. but now what comes with the good must also come with the bad. We have been working more internally today.

I was tagged

warriorgirl — Thu, 14 Sep 2006 09:25:20 GMT

hi! I was tagged ages ago, and have not had time to add 8 things about myself, so I will do it now. I was a sickly child. Had allergies, asthma, thyroid problems, and surgery by the time I was seven years old. This affected me alot. When I was older, and cured of the majority of this, I realized that I had to prove alot to myself of my capabitlites. Sport and competition became a way to prove that I could reverse the affects of fear that may have been a result of my childhood. I tried every sport and excelled in many of them. Later, at 32 beginning to go to circus school, many fears came up that I would not be able to accomplish what I had hoped to do. And since I am a pretty impatient beginner, I definitely made things more difficult that necessary on a mental level. After two years, I had accomplished everything I planned to. I am an artist. I have worked in every type of work possible in my life. Luckily computers came easily and supported me for many years. Now I am working very close to the stage with cirque and learning many many skills. I am writing a book, a musical, some music, a multimedia piece, and some poetry at any given moment. My book has 180 pages and the musical is not quite as far along. :) although a short 45 minute draft version had a very good response from the audience. I am a clown. After taking myself far too seriously for years, I came to europe to learn how to minimize that. And i think I succeeded. I am married now, to a beautiful, caring, wonderful english man, who rocks my world! I once had a dog named max, now I have a husband named max :) I hope one day to see my name in a history book. My cousins' children thought I should be president, when talking to them about whether I was a good hippy or bad hippy, this summer.

gearing up for an exciting time

warriorgirl — Thu, 29 Jun 2006 10:42:35 GMT

I am now not busy, but gearing up to be busy. the world is showing me some amazing things at the time when its most needed. Nowhere, Who has seen "What the *bleep* do we know?" I suggest you see it. The USA - heading to detroit to see my family, and Phil gets to finally meet them Valencia Berlin Dussuldorf Frankfurt and Japan for the 18 subsequent months? Well I am placing myself in the position to do so. To see the place I have been working towards for 10 years. To spend 6 months in Tokyo and a year touring around Japan. Who will I return as? Who will I go as? Its a new time for me, thinking about all the past years, my arrival in Europe and my potential exit. My ego is doing alot of work right now, disappearing. My body is doing alot of work right now, strengthening with yoga and pilates, my spirit is grounding

dont wake me up just yet!

warriorgirl — Wed, 29 Mar 2006 09:24:59 GMT

i just cant seem to get enough sleep! I am home on a break for three weeks! Have returned to circus training and have soooo many things to do before I return to the tour and am sleeeping sooooo much. But considering I went a few months without too much sleep its good to cach up!

oooh the snow!

warriorgirl — Fri, 10 Mar 2006 10:23:07 GMT

So building a tent in snow is an interesting experience, luckily we had heat in the tents once the first ones were built!

its all hand carved!!!!!

warriorgirl — Thu, 02 Mar 2006 22:07:18 GMT

soooo i am now in Geneva. Will be after march 10 in Barcelona, two days with my parents and then free for a bit, maybe a month. whew! its been really a grand adventure. I have been able to travel all over spain, Geneva, well with my schedule i dont know how much I will actually see, but will try. i have a couple of days here with my parents to get them in the show. ummmm oh the photo - yeah well that is like a flea on a dog version of the Alhambra in Granada. All the walls are carved this way, its AMAZING! its the second time I saw this, and this time was more relaxed, I saw a bit of everything. OH I am being infused with culture as much as possible right now... I look forward to being back in Barcelona. I have belly dancing toys, which i hope to play with, want to train, want to rollerblade and surely will enjoy the sun after working here in Geneva where its still snowing!! And we work outside!!! and yes, Cirque has their own chefs. I get alot of vegan food, and honestly until I started reigning myself in was gaining a decent amount of weight!!

wHEW! gonna get a little break

warriorgirl — Tue, 21 Feb 2006 06:41:52 GMT

Well, After six months almost with Cirque on tour, and my little life seeing the beautiful cities of Bilbao, Sevilla, Granada, Cadiz, Cordoba, Geneva, and Milan, I will return to Barcelona for a month before heading back to Geneva and Valencia and I still dont know where next. At the moment Cirque is a great thing. I believe my experience here is transient as i am learning alot and its difficult to make plans with this job, but that's ok as well, for the moment. I love travelling, i wanted a job that let me travel, and I got it. I started to work backstage, doing cues for the show. Now either on followspot or backstage, I am remembering the cues of the other, i have the show melted into my brain so much so that i dont even have to do more than hear the music, close my eyes and i can see the movement of each artist as they repeat their blocking in the show. Although the trampoline artists scare us every day as they have no safetys and take lots of risks. Injuries are minor, and the act is pure adrenaline. And they are like my kids, I have to check to make sure they are ok and take care of themselves. mmmmm - circus, mmmm performance stuff..... mmmmmm

today a bit sleeeeepy

warriorgirl — Mon, 19 Dec 2005 13:44:58 GMT

We dont get much of a break at all!! This week i have two days off, maybe a couple more. Trying to save money now, i actually have a savings account with money in it for the first time since 2000!!! Phil and I are gonna get our own aparment for the first time ever, and we need a deposit, thats why even though I have a couple of days off, dont travel or anything cuz wanna save save save!! I am pink again!!! wooooooo life is good

happily workin hard

warriorgirl — Sat, 03 Dec 2005 02:43:37 GMT

So I have been invited to go with Cirque to Sevilla. That's lovely because i have never been there. It looks like we will be a bit isolated, but anything is better than Bilbao (not really its beautiful here, but rain, wind rain and more rain, is a bit boring But the experience is still amazing! i am remembering all the jobs i had which led up to this, and the potential possibilities from here. I am working on my book at the same time, as well to keep creative, and getting tons of ideas. So my time is extended until February 5th. I am making very good connections, and references. I hope to continue in some manner. There is also another show coming to europe.

Cirque work

warriorgirl — Sun, 20 Nov 2005 13:07:11 GMT

how amaaaaazing!!! today I learned a new followspot script for the show. I am sooo happy to be part of a major production, its so inspiring, and i could not have asked for a better way to recuperate from surgery!!! The food is vegan, and free, the hotel is great (more hot water would be nice), and free (so cant complain), and I am really happy to be back working in my style, in my way, and even more. I am an electrician, rewiring lights, and hanging around in the masts of the biggest circus tent i have ever been in. And the most amazing is watching the production go from nothing (a vacant lot) to something (a massive stage) love love love love

only the most telling picture i have seen in awhile

warriorgirl — Sat, 05 Nov 2005 08:02:02 GMT

WOW who got lucky enough to catch this photo? I am so impressed! and of course enamored with the sentiment.