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Lonely and Tired

waveyoga — Fri, 25 Jul 2008 04:05:19 GMT

Summer feels more than half over and here I am. it feels like I have accomplished nothign. I still am fat. I don't bike. I quit the yoga from super-thin yogiway. I eat well. I am liked at my substitute program. I got offered several part time jobs.. all at once. I am going to work for a publicity company saturday for the big Dell towel drop!!! 18$ per hour starting at 4 am til noon. I get to volunteer for a spanish language camp out of town. Its all nickle dime stuff.. and i am using savings. I just dont know how hard to push or which direction. All the 10 jobs I was an extremely good candidate for were filled internallty .. all those days of sub teaching in a tough district.. making kid s sit down and enduering no lesson plans and being told we like to have you please come back.. all those jobs went internally. It sucks. I feel fat on top of it all. Note.. fat to me an dmy body is about 8 pounds of lethargy which settles when I am nto exercising. I di dgo to a yoga class at the Island.. oddly th einstructor paced back and forth the entire tiem tellign us what to do.. he didnt do any yoga with us. We did more than 30 chattarungas.. no ab work.

I am A STAR!!!!!!!!!!!

waveyoga — Sat, 12 Jul 2008 20:11:54 GMT

I go tmy first extra job.. no pay of course. We were recruited through craigslist. Come to L..hurst Park from 2 - 6 . Brign a sleeping bag. I put on makeup and my pushup ra and a low cu ttop. I brought a sleeping bag and a flowered pillow. We laid in our sleepign bags for 3 or so hours! that was it. I am a star!

Summer is half over for me!! What next??

waveyoga — Thu, 10 Jul 2008 13:55:34 GMT

As a teacher summe ris half over for me. I go back to classes and workshops and interviewing soon. I have 3 weeks left .. interspersed with soem trianing. I know that i will go to Breitenbush. I knwo that I am going to a dance workshop.. WAVES in Olympia. I have more free time .. hav enot put too much spirit into planning it yet as I am completing other activities.. soem tax work, soem last year end of year paperwork, updated resume yesterday!! YAYAY. Have to send that out to several people.. then finish the move and then reward time. Does anyone have ideas? I am not sure I want to try to fly anywhere, but maybe I might..ocean and learning would be important to include.

It's Shattered!!!!!!!! The barrier/gulf betweenn I'm Ok, just a bit down and

waveyoga — Wed, 02 Jul 2008 14:18:53 GMT

I am sinkinginto depression.... I have been not exercising ..Me! The one who loves summer in Seattle to bike, hike, kayak, sail.. adn always goes to whatever efffort necessary to do these things.. take care of equipment, workout in a gym, eat rice, whatever... I slowly sunk into .. ok.. cool weather in seattle too cold to hike bike kayak... frustrated from a bummer yoga class series.. I am disgusted with yogiway! feeling low from internet dating.. adn nomoney.. I broek it last night! i got on my bike!!!!!!!!!!!! I lov ebiking!! I lov ebiking!!! I am going to be ok really the sink ing is done. WHEW do you knwo how hard those little inclines in seattle's parkls are the first few times! I had to go pretty slow.. but I wqent and then I flew down several and back up again. YAYAYAY

ok ok

waveyoga — Tue, 01 Jul 2008 03:02:38 GMT

tired the weekend was a blast back to reality clean house do chores pay taxes

MMMM Summer eves

waveyoga — Mon, 30 Jun 2008 12:55:35 GMT

yesterday was sensational. I was in a tv commercial.. for Jones Soda which will be broadcast for the Seattle Seahawks football games.. adn then met friends for a cd recording session. Then to a concert. YAYAY I even had tiem\\me to read and to go to a few movign sales. My internet date did not meet me as planned. I had more fun with my friend swhom I met at the concert. Namaste friends

Life Rolls Along

waveyoga — Fri, 27 Jun 2008 14:43:03 GMT

I am a substuitute for a wonderful summer program. I and 2 others are going to the Point Defiance Park Zoo today. I have been in a personal slump regardign job search adn internet dating. And probably the cold here in Seattle. But its nothing I cant get out of. Today will be so great. Take goo dcare friends Cathy

day after the Fremont fair

waveyoga — Mon, 23 Jun 2008 14:24:48 GMT

Hey It was great. I volunteered for the Conscious Choice booth. We had 3 electric bikes for people to look at and for us to talk about. I had a lot of fun and of course got a few free samples of yogurt and organic cereal. Afterwards on to the Art cars. i photoed some and talked with Leith whose car took her only 2 days. I loved the phone car adn the beach theme one and the frizzy female one. Photos soon to be published. take good care all. I am still in full force me. a few downturns becauseof internet dating.. but also met a couple really nice men and might date them again.. its up to them..neither eats organic though.. one meditates; one works near me and has a home in a quiet place with birds adn is willing to travel as I do.

Solstice seems to not be going as planned so far

waveyoga — Sat, 21 Jun 2008 18:56:20 GMT

i shall summarize it a sI am going to walk down to the parade after all. when a lotof things go differently thanplanned it seems to take fromme anyway.. extra energy to be flexible and adapting etc.. It has been like this since I moved back to seattle. I get tired from it. I kjust spent tiem talkign to men from an internet datign site adn result! 1 realy great guy met me for coffee yesterday.. a short coffee and a walk.. he lives far away and I think I talked too much. Today and last night I spent alone.. no solstice plans.. I spoke with 2 other guys in the last day and 1 talked a lot about beign inNA and he is smart enough to be inMENSA and he kind of yells... and the other talked forever but is so sososo busy there appeared to be no tiem to date him in 5 days of his events... and then there aremore delays for the jobs I was applyign for adn 2 days ago I spent 8 hours messing around with electricians etc.. because thi sapartment is OLD andsomething quit workign in an antire wall.. about 1/3 of my apartment nwo has no electricity.. I just feel burned out and exhausted. I also drank wine last night .. partly due to sadness emptiness which can sneak up on a person. Well today is now today adn I can be in charge of my thoghts and actions.. helathy thoughts.. Ilove them adn i usually am able to speak and think in them.. thi smove and my recent tiem with Church of Positive Living has been very good for me. Tomorrow I work at a live green booth. There is alot of good to happen. Oh yes also yesterday i went to a boatign place which I volunteered for for almost 15 year sbefore I left town and staff were nto really welcoming or friendly and here I am comign down to volunteer again. I am letting the bumps of transition get to me at times. happy Solstice to you Cathy

THE COMPUTER IS HOOKED UP IN MY APARTMENT

waveyoga — Fri, 20 Jun 2008 15:09:36 GMT

I can go online when I want. wow its been almost five months since thi swas my life.. adn I am so happy!! Of course yesterday began with a blown fuse in the wall an delectricians and such and hours dealign with it and a crabby internet installer but I held on... and then the apartment men after they realized that I didn't do anythign to the electricity except turn on a light which blew several fuses.. then they also fixed the sink leak, th eshower hose, put up shelves and oh yeah made me move a little table which was by my door.. it was a great day to ge tthose things done. THEN a friend who I havent seen since 4 years ago.. showed up at my door! Life is fien in Solstice time. I am sure that my goign to Danceso of Universal Peace did it from the nigh tbefore. It was so lovely.. all of us dancing in th enight on a lawn in a park with herbs and cedar and hugs and twirling.. and then a lovely night sky and moon. The clock with electricity stopped at 1220.. subtract the fast 8 minutes and we have 12:12.. I know it was a psychic sign to get my apartment little things fixed! Namaste friends Cathy

Better Better Better

waveyoga — Sat, 14 Jun 2008 23:11:21 GMT

My cold is almost gone I made 42$ at a sale which took 8 hours!! School is almost out. The sun is almost ehre. I get my own internet connection this week. Thank you friends Cathy

The rain goes on

waveyoga — Tue, 10 Jun 2008 20:24:22 GMT

and so do I I am sick. One thing havign little work does.. you can nap during the day. And if you get sick from too much cayenne.. you can not worry abou it. I am doing ok. Cathy

down and sad

waveyoga — Sat, 07 Jun 2008 00:08:51 GMT

another week goen by mor erain mor ejob applications the new yog astudio was nto good.. head sick and her manager a jerlk I am me I am grateful.

More Yoga poses

waveyoga — Wed, 28 May 2008 02:47:58 GMT

I am 3 weeks into the all the yoga you can take intensive for 99.00. I have goen 9 times and I go tomorrow.

How do I get photos to show?

waveyoga — Tue, 27 May 2008 22:48:10 GMT

on my blog what do I write in when I wish to browse th einternet to find a photo to shw?? PLEASE

Yoga Intensive.. my own/yogiway!!!!!

waveyoga — Tue, 20 May 2008 23:50:49 GMT

Hello Friends, I signed up for a 2 month all the yoga you can take program for 99.00 at Yogiway in Seattle. I am into my secodn week. Teh first week I went 4 times. On the fourth class the instructor was snippy and made a putdown comment about needing to take the intro series. I stayed away for 6 days.. the studio owner is out and has substitutes .. this was a substitute. I am back again.. it's for 2 months... today's class was great. I am wondering if anyone else is undertaking this type of program abnd woudl liek to compare notes. I thinkit has a wonderful possibility to make soem great changes in my life as well as to tone down the stress from substitute teaching and job interviews and dating out of the ninternet.. none seem to be getting me what I need so far.. and lots of devalidation. Ideas anyone? Namaste friends Cathy

Yoga Yoga the challenge

waveyoga — Sun, 11 May 2008 21:54:30 GMT

hello Everyone, Well my saga continues... I am not owkriing although on 3 districts lists for substituting.. they dotn need many now. I signed up for unlimited yoga classes for 99.00 for 2 months. The studio is 9 blocks from my apartment. The yoga is terribly hard.. I love it. I can learn a l;ot and advonce. I am blessed.. I am taking my challenge of my life and going with the unexpected. Take good care all cathy

DOWN DOWN

waveyoga — Sat, 19 Apr 2008 02:25:12 GMT

Seattle Schools who was goign to hire me.. and had little problems with internet applications etc.. just had a hirign freeze due to a major budget shortfall. I was believing that any day i woudl be workign for htem full time. I got hired by another district to also substitute but all of a suddenthey dotn need so many workers. I have submitted many more applications. somethign will happen. But I am so stressed that I yelled and cired at KINKOS when the computer ate my mastercharge card.

I NEED A LAPTOP

waveyoga — Thu, 10 Apr 2008 22:10:33 GMT

PLEASE SEND ME ONE

More Seattle Good Life

waveyoga — Wed, 09 Apr 2008 21:18:15 GMT

Hello Everyone, Lifeisn Seattle is great. I am busy enjoying spring vacation. I go tmore furniture for my apartment from Goodwill and another free pile. I am workign as a volunteer for the Dali llama. I am also volunteering for Greenfest. I had a bad cold which resulted ina few days of lots of sleep and disappearing from contact with anyone.. it helkped immensely to just puill back majorly adn to take Vicks cold relief and asleep a lot. I missed soem fun but I am well, now, within 5 days.. nto the dreaded 3 weeks which some tell me all must have. My neighbor is a really nice person. I am happy with my plants an dprogress. Money is a catch 22.. have to hav eit, have to spend it, have tiointerview to get it. Take good care friends. love Cathy

Life gets Better and Better

waveyoga — Wed, 02 Apr 2008 21:13:17 GMT

I have my great apartment. I have my part tiem substitute job. I am enjoying the sun and seeing friends. I got a coupon for 2 weeks free in a great gym. I am restign well and taking vitamins. I asked for help with money and food. It has not quite gotten here yet. I was able to resolve a large ATT bill.. who would know how fast minutes add up? Life is great. Hope this message finds you well friends. Cathy

Life is GOOD

waveyoga — Fri, 28 Mar 2008 01:21:45 GMT

The job is good. I got a great apartment. I am happy. I am dancing. I got a space with a garden and morespace to have many plants. I got furniture. I am glad I stayed and saved money and waited until i was ready to have a good tiem in transition. I did not have a hard time. I was ready and prepared and made a great headway in my move and my faith in myself. thank you again friends. Cathy

I got the job. It's official.

waveyoga — Wed, 12 Mar 2008 23:06:16 GMT

I start Monday morning at 630. It is substitute teaching. i have 4 iinterviews for long term positions in mext week also. All in due time. Thank you friends Cathy for loving me and nudging me. and carrying the torch of hope. i have tried to encourage you as I have had time. i will get my computer over here and then have more time to write. OOOOOOOOHHHMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM

Life in Dance

waveyoga — Sun, 09 Mar 2008 22:36:36 GMT

is good. I am tired. I danced my socks off today. I go to a conference tomorrow about ethnic arts and ways they can get help with grant-writing etc. I thankagain my friends for beign there. I also am telling you that I deleted an entry because I dotn want to make trouble for a person who is in himself unsettled. Thank you for understanding. C

Job Search

waveyoga — Thu, 06 Mar 2008 22:11:04 GMT

I got the job. I have been working on a lot lately. I got a job.. I am signed up for an orientation March 17. I am signed up for other professional development and trainings. Now all I need is a place to live. Life is going along well. It took awhiel fo rthe job search to do its thing. I have tracked down a few lost applications and gotten lost in a refurbished employment applicatoin system adn other borign and tedious things whiuch took patience and faith. Prayer, ecstatic dance with humility.. they work. Namaste Friends Cathy