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In a crunch, without a phone ...
Mon, March 13, 2006 - 3:39 PM==============================
How ya doin' fella?!
I was just looking at my situation ... I managed to find 10 days housing right quick and have a good 1bdrm lined up for the end of the month ... but things are looking dire short term.
What came to mind was how a while back you said something like "Oh, Ben, you won't end up on the street". It sounded a little too neat to me and now I'm wondering if you in fact had something in mind.
Cuz fact is I'm running out of resources ... just that, resources. Everyone /sez/ it comes down to positive attitude but here I am with plenty of that (such a glorious Milarepa Day we had yesterday! and such a glorious day it is today!) but I don't see how that is going to pan out. In fact it comes to things like space and transportation and funds and communications, and I have no phone, about $100 money for incidentals (if that), and I've used up most of the driving friends I have. And space, boy ... one friend just moved into a bachelor out of his gramma's house, and another friend just had a friend come into town ... those were two prospects I had been kind of holding in reserve. I've already stayed at 3 homes ...
Know what? This is the toughest spot I've been in ... I've been saying it's a slippery slope, and here I am desperately close to the cliff.
I hope you get this ... even a sit-down coffee would be a comfort ... I'll try to hook up with you by payphone.
cya
ben
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See clearly.
Know what is.
Act with confidence.
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What to do? Simple: stay positive, supplicate to stay connected with the local deities, and huh huh huh keep in mind that clinging to apparent phenomenon is merely "unborn <i>dharmakaya</i>". (I picked that one up just yesterday. *font color="purple"><b>grin</b></font>*
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Tue, May 15, 2007 - 5:11 AM
despirited scholastic
Hey bro, I like your new blog better.
FROM AUGUST 9, 2005 In-filled by such despirited scholasticism, the very great majority of "spiritual" projects result in the deadening of spirit. That's what I've experienced, over the years. As Buddhism has grown as a market, as a commodity, I've seen (not as a result, but as a symptom) a shriveling of the spirit that leads to creatively inspired activity. Sort of the way the apparently vital anti-globalization movement didn't really energize the emancipation project that presses for social justice. As the social utility of aspirational values is realized by way of trappings and externals the dynamics that feed the real thing die off ... too popular, too glib, too superficial ... the medicine that heals so much sits on a shelf, as an artifact, or on a pointless shrine, a sterile symbol. It's about vitality ... about self-actualization ... about realization, and clarity, and response-ability ... it's about everything you're looking for and hungering for. But what does that mean, to people who eat plastic food rather than wholesome ruffage when their bodies are full of chemical pollution? When we suspend materialistic utilitarianism our natural appetites for knowledge and happiness and wisdom up-well and the sanity that results opens the door to bliss. It can't be faked ... the results come from the true behaviour ... it's not mechanics (or, more precisely, it isn't /just/ mechanics), it's karma. <i>THIS IS SO INTERESTING!!! I know <u>drumming</u> reaches you. I wonder what else? Is there anything else in the world, in the realm of human discourse that "suspends materialistic utilitarianism"? Most of what reaches me does not reach you. As you know, that has always troubled me. xo Michael |
