your question:
why is there such a common need to control others?

the answer may [or may not] be in the answer to a question i asked myself not long ago:
why the hell do we watch fake trials on daytime TV?
what purpose could wapner, brown, scheindlen, and whoever-else-is-so-lucky serve for humanity?

in the presence of clear injustice, why not?

i think we look for answers to our desperate questions anywhere we can find them, regardless of validity.

we seek control when we... read more

the short answer is ...
it doesnt really matter.

the long answer is ...

a fellow member of a thing i had ...
he was a spicy seed of hilarity on a plate of bland staleness.
one of his jokes touched a nerve, and the ass end of it all resulted in the Terms Of Use (TOU) people at tribe kicking him out - and that was that.

deleted - unsubscribed - booted - censored - ALL GONE

for a *joke* that *someone* found *offensive.*
joke = it really was funny
someone = literally 1 (one)... read more

FUCK APRIL TWENTIETH!

*BUT* ...

at least i wasnt high

at least i wasnt on a motorcycle

at least the bondage bracelets on my steering wheel didnt turn into shrapnel from the airbag deployment

at least i was able to pull over

at least i hadnt just changed my oil and filter, like i meant to

at least i had the support of an old friend through it all

at least my good luck with cops held up, and i didnt get arrested

at least no one rear ended me after it happened

at l... read more

all my life ...
[hehe, sorry.]
ive known only one thing:
change.

reality rupture.
paradign shifts.
discontinuity.
contrast.

endings that arent endings,
and beginnings that dont start
*actually happening.*

im practically an olympian, or expert
in cognition jumping.
(and intoxophilia
(i coined that,
do you like it?))

jumping as i do, in and out of
stories,
ive known something else,
almost as reliable...
my own power
within.

sometimes,
when i... read more

i thought to myself today ...
does racism still *actually* exist?
ive seen some really wealthy black people.
ive seen suburban white people locked down and exploited as much as any slave was.
they might drive cars now, but we are surrounded by indentured servants and forced laborers. if youre lucky [and motivated,] im not talking about you.

so, a brief bit of history ...
ghettoes were places nazis confined jews. there they reamined, under the gun and one foot in the grave. an unim... read more

imagine this...

youre favorite cd. its been with you for ages. your unfaltering companion through good times, and bad. it gives you what you want and asks only to be taken care of, in return. one day, you find someone that loves the band as much as you. theyve lost their copy, and cant find it anywhere else. so you let them borrow yours. they take it and promise that its return will be soon. you patiently wait for days, maybe weeks, and eventually you see its return. you dont look right ... read more

im sick of the term "blog."

a "blog" does NOT sound like somewhere to put great ideas, nor any "ideas" at all, come to think of it.

it sounds like some plumbers nightmare, or something that gets thrown off a construction site.
it sounds like garbage.
sadly, ironically, and genearally; they are ...

admittedly, my entries are substandard, by my own [singular] criterion. most of the time im on some abstract, naieve rant about some completely forgettable shit.
but i wouldnt writ... read more