It is hard to remain constant when human emotion and desires interfere. Be it if it was a word, action, hormones or just a thought. We change, we grow, we digress and with this we experience and learn. We are never who we are, for we are like the rolling ocean. A spiritual being of awareness and compassion. Those of us who have been hurt, or have seen pain, build a wall. When all we want is a door. A door that we are to scared to open. A door of endless possibilities, however the prospect of pain.

So endlessly strong in thought, but thought, as a river changes shape, form and moves faster then we can comprehend. When we think we grasp it, it had changed. All we grasped was the quick passing glimpse of what was once there.

I have experiences, as many of us do, the full scope of many of the feelings offered to these organic machines that we are observers from. Although I feel separate, as if I am outside watching someone else’s life, like in a movie, I can feel this characters emotions, for I have watched her grow, make choices, move on, be hurt, fall in love, abused and become strong and self assure.

Keeping busy in actions and thoughts is a good way to pass the time. Being productive is desired and necessary. Relationships of any kind are both the greatest gift and curse, that we could ever want to involve ourselves in. We learn and grow as well as gain so much. Each step through companionship makes us more aware of the full scope of things, what we have to offer and what we desire of this life.

It comes down to the chemical addictions that our brain creates and maintains as desires, longing and fear. Once you have traveled certain paths in life, there is no going back, once you have experienced, you are a changed person, forever. With each time you become a little more aware of yourself and those around you. There intent and desires of others, matched with your own.