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~ I have to say this before we get any further
I (we) do NOT have or send nude pics
I (we) do NOT have cyber sex
I (we) do not own a web cam
I (we) are NOT looking for sex-only, one night stands and/or those who would cheat on their partner(s)/Spouses, please respect this. If you are looking for any of the above, please, just don't bother wasting our time or yours, I'm not trying to be mean, just honest. Thank you ~
Can we connect for a moment?
I am a real being, with a heart that beats underneath my chest. I have real feelings, wants, needs, desires. I can love and laugh and cry, be inspired and give hope and listen. I am always open to meeting/talking with new people :) I seek for balance in all things and look to be the best person, friend and love as I can. So walk with me on this journey... pull up a chair and see where we can go from here.
. I am 5'2 tall
. I have Hazel Eyes
. I am a 32yr old female - Libra/Libra/Scorpio for those interested in knowing
. I am a natural blonde, though it is constantly changing, I enjoy trying new things, hair styles and colors so you may not always see me with the same look.
. I am a pear-shaped heavyset female (BBW) - I have been since 4th grade, I am reasonably happy and healthy, self & sex positive. I do not believe I should feel a need to apologize or be regarded as less than anyone else because my body does not fit the current concepts of beauty.
. I live with and am in love with my boyfriend, Isaac since late 2000. We are in a loving, committed, honest and open relationship, we are both unapologetically Bisexual (NOT confused) as well as Polyamorous and do date both men and women as a couple as well as individuals. We do not consider ourselves to be swingers, nor are we polygamists, they are separate lifestyles with entirely different meanings.
. I am not married (never have been)
. I do not have any children (nor may I ever)
After much contemplation on both topics we have decided (both individually & as a couple) the we just are not really wanting to bare any more children of our own (other than the 3 children Isaac has with his ex-wife, they live in TX fulltime right now) and to that end Isaac decided it was best for him to get a vasectomy and has been sterile for several years now. I (we) am always open to being around and/or dating those with children or those who choose to have children (we are child friendly), it is just a personal choice not to have any of our own, someday we may adopt but not any time in the foreseeable future.
About marriage, I (we) get this question a lot since we’ve been together quite a while now and have not gotten legally married, it really kind of bugs me that the popular opinion is that if you are not or do not strive to get married that somehow your relationship is “going nowhere” and/or not as valid or committed as others might be. I personally am offended at this remark because it says that without a piece of paper I do not honestly love or care for someone, that I can not commit a life time with someone without the government being a part of it. I have no grudge against marriage or those who choose that as their way of expressing love for one another, I have lots of married friends and loved ones. I do also support marriage for same sex and multiple partners even if the government has ruled against these things… it is all about personal choice. I for one do not believe that a person is any less of a being, any less capable of loving if they do not strive for marriage. I do not feel it is my sole duty in the this world to be a mother and/or someone’s wife, if I ever get married then that is my choice, if I do not, that is also my choice. I am not one of those people who dreamed of a wedding day and kids in the yard, it has never been my dream, I wish to love as few or many as I choose and leave others dreams for them to live. I am hoping that those I (we) become involved with will understand my (our) feelings on the subject.
. I currently have 5 tattoos and my ears pierced, I enjoy expressing myself through body art and have _always_ wanted a tattoo (even when they weren't the "in" thing to do), some people look at me differently, some think I'm trying to be cool, I just enjoy having ink on my skin and each one means something to me, I do plan on more. Piercings I'm interested in but have not really wanted to go with the crowd, if I get more it'll be because I want them and they are meaningful to me in some way.
. I have mostly worked in the animal care & rescue fields, though my heart is in humanitarian efforts. I look to support balance and help ALL life and my dreams would include encompassing animal rescue, human & social issues with ecological and sustainable living practices. I dream big, I love big... I try to live with no regrets and do the impossible just because it is the right thing to do. I want to make a difference and strive for positive changes in the world and I hope you'll come along with me. I have a connection with all life, with water, with nature the universe and stars and I seek global oneness and unity for all mankind.
. I was born in and have spent most of my life in South Florida (Broward County area), I graduated in 1994 from Northeast High school (two years early) and have quite a few friends and family still living there. I may not always stay in one place but I will always love the beach/the water and being in FL was a great experience, I really enjoy the mixture of culture and am glad that I got to experience all walks of life growing up, I would not trade it for the world. I am thankful to have been in a place where I felt I could be me without fear of violence and ignorance, sure there are some, but not like in other areas of the country.
. I have moved around a bit and never know where life will take me and at the moment I'm near Boston, Massachusetts though I have lived in different parts of Florida, Connecticut, Georgia, South Carolina, Virginia, Texas and Oregon. As far as travel, I've been a little bit of everywhere in the USA, but I'd love to travel outside of it someday. I'm looking into Canada, New Zealand, Ireland England and Switzerland but always try to be open to whatever life brings my way. I'd love to get a camper and live in it for a while, get to see the world for a bit, but alas I do not drive so that seems a little far out of reach... maybe one day.
. I am the youngest of 7 children, yet I have never met 3 of them, my family history is complicated and you could say I am the one that is different to most of them (black sheep if you will), but they are my blood and despite our many, many differences I still strive to love them and accept them unconditionally even if they cannot or will not do the same for me. My mother still lives with my brothers, my father passed away when I was very young, it is all a long story but in the end my experiences with them have made me in part, who I am, given me strength and allowed me to follow my heart and stay with my convictions regardless of adversity.
About my sexual orientation:
I do understand all the connotations and implications attached to the term "bisexual" and unfortunately it has been the subject for much ridicule, speculation and down right disrespect from both the "straight" and Gay & Lesbian communities, it is sad that there is so much distain for the label/term as though being Bisexual makes you the odd person out. I do get that a lot of people feel they cannot trust and/or relate to someone who "likes it both ways", I've also heard all the "will screw anything that moves" stereo types that are out there and I for one would like to change the way people think about the term and separate those of us who practice "responsible bisexuality" from the main stream mind set of who we are and how we behave in life and in love.
I will be honest and say that in my life I have not always known or more so understood how I felt/who I was, it was something that came to me gradually and love, attraction and/or sexual desire was no different; I was straight but celibate as a teenager and as a young adult I learned that I had a deep attraction for a few women and since everyone said "You MUST choose a side" I did and lived as a lesbian for a time, until quite out of the blue I fell for a guy and it shook what I thought I understood about love, sex and genders... it took me some time and letting go of fear of ridicule from others to come out as a bisexual, more so a pan, omni or sapiosexual. The absolute truth of the matter is that I enjoy the person, the connection above the gender(s): In basic terms, I don't care what parts you have (however few or many)... I am much more interested in the heart and soul of each individual, not what shell/body they walk around in.
When I found someone in my life who truly feels the way I do, I cannot tell you how very, very blessed I felt/feel. Isaac understands and relates to me on a level that I have never known before and does not judge or try to own me in any fashion when it comes to love and/or sexual desires. I'd love him no matter what his orientation is/was but because he can connect with me in the same manor it is a wonderful experience and I am grateful to have him in my world.
Religion verses Spiritual/Metaphysical:
I consider myself a very spirit oriented person, I always have been and my main motivation in life is to understand what my individual meaning and purpose is as well as to help others...
I do very much enjoy the pursuit of the world beyond the senses, spirituality, metaphysical studies and exploring different philosophies. Though I want to make it clear that I actively choose not to be labeled as anything or walk any particular path, I do NOT consider myself a religious person, I do not hold to a set of practices, dogma or creed... If I HAD to choose, I think I would fall somewhere in the Pagan and/or Budhist catagory.... I look at different life paths and take from each that which resonates into my being, holding a "flexible personal & spiritual belief system".
I would also like to say that while I do enjoy good conversations on the subject I have never enjoyed the idea of conversion tactics, not even when I was a Christian and studying to be a Missionary (wow, that seems like a lifetime ago) I am much, much happier with the idea of each to there own path and purpose as they say... whatever works for you is great and I will do my best to honor and respect that and ask that you do the same for me in return.
About Body image:
I have been heavyset most of my life as has some of my family members as are some of the people I have chosen to date over the years though for me the physical is nothing more than "temperary housing for the soul" so in that it is so much more interesting to meet the person inside the shell (start inward). I am actively working on size acceptance for all body types because I firmly believe ~ALL SIZES & SHAPES ARE BEAUTIFUL~ every shape, size, color, height and so on... Each and EVERY person has beauty within them; each should be enjoyed, celebrated, adored for EVERY part of themselves and each other. You celebrate YOU in every way and allow others to do the same. Love ALL of you as I strive to do for myself.
About being Poly: (multiple relationships)
I am poly because this is what most encompasses the love and relationship style that suits me most as a person. I have dated both men and women at the same time and separately, though I have always believed as with anything in life, love and relationships are much more about quality than quantity and so I strive to connect with whomever I can in the hopes for something real and lasting. I strive for unconditional love, compatability and enjoyment just as everyone else does the only real difference would be that I do not hold to the belief that loving another must equate to ownership and/or must by default mean that I am monogamous. We do not need to prove anything, we simply are whomever we are and when we find others that feel the same a connection is made; "like attracts like" it is a simple principle but just because you have found one love should not mean that you need to deny any other loves that might come your way.
Let me be clear on this point, I am not talking about "trading up", nor am I speaking about cheating or hurting others, giving ultimatums, ulterior motives or head games... I am talking about loving others, loving yourself and doing what works best for you as a person.
Love without limits means responsible non-monogamy, it means being honest with yourself and others, it's looking to yourself to be a whole being, complete and independent and then choosing to love others and accept the unique gifts and roles each person brings into your world. It is not "who loves me more", it should never really be about "comparison shopping" though sadly it happens all the time in real life, in books/stories, on tv and in movies we think this great love will come along and win our hearts and minds over so that we want no other and if someone "better" comes along then the other was simply not meant to be. The biggest thing that trips us up is nothing more than societal programming that says "YOU MUST CHOOSE" why? Can you not love your family... your friends... your pets and still fall in love? Does there _have_ to be a limit we reach and then it can take no more... "I found someone new to love... let me check who's here first,nope got to boot someone out, heart is full already".??
I personally feel it is folly to expect one person to sustain & fulfill every personal, romantic, spiritual and sexual need that you have 100% of the time for the entirety of your existence. Hearts ebb and flow like the sea, minds grow weary without possibility of change. A soul is here to experience and understand... All of these things seem difficult to confine into one person ever, for all time to me.
