..::things i wrote::..
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"I Don't Know" by Erika."I'm not a baby anymore
I'm not as innocent as before
I see it in the mirror in my room
And I could feel it stronger in my soul..."
I love my life, and the people in my life. There's lots of new good people that i love being around--that i enjoy myself when i'm around and that i learn from. The situations i put myself into now keep me on my toes a little more, and force me to make more mature decisions, (even though most of them so far are just simple ones)... and the way the people around me act help influence me in toward those upward directions.
In some ways i'm back were i was at 16... But with a healthy perspective this time. I know some things that i like are wrong... in some ways i have to change, and in some ways i have to come to terms with that life will not allow me to safely indulge some wants of my personality in any healthy way... also i know i can't let important parts of me rot for want of using. That sounds so yuck. I'm actually talking about these what's in the picture...
I still believe that the physical world is one our souls created to be closer to eachother. (I still believe that eachother should be one word because it's prettier that way). Sex is still my religion... and I finally don't think it's wrong that i think that. It makes perfect sense: we are gods, life is heaven, and sex is holy: It's as close as we get to eachother. I'm still addicted to skin. I'm still starving for it. I'm still struggling to live content while starving... for what i'm believing, (but not hoping), is a good reason. Haha, maybe it's like fasting... or something.